i didn't jack off once in the last 2 years i was with my ex...unless it was a mutual thing... we had sex 4 or 5 times a day. every day. for almost 2 years straight...now that she's gone, I'm going fucking crazy.
i procrastinate with everything.
i don't really try new tricks...I've grown comfortable with what I've learned and have grown consistent, but don't branch out much at all. I only win games of skate if I go first, or if others fuck up.
I'm not motivated to do anything. the world seems so stupid, getting a job to supply me with enough money to make it through the next month...ugh. politics, I don't care.
only smoked weed twice in my life...a very scary experience. I was waiting for it to take hold of me...didn't feel anything. My friend was like, dude, you smoked soooo much, you'll definitely feel it. so I start driving, i have to go pick my girlfriend up from work...and my legs give out. my hands go numb, i feel like I'm falling asleep and I have no control...I was literally slapping myself on the face, over and over again, with my head all the way out the window, trying to stay awake. it was rush hour traffic too...
so I get to her work. she doesn't know i smoked, i try to pretend I'm not high, but it's impossible. she never found out, but knew something was wrong. it was fun.
i hate college, and have basically given up.
i want to go to an art school, but can't afford it, and am too lazy to submit a portfolio for scholarships...I've got over 150 finished pieces just sitting in my room, collecting dust.
when my life sucks, everything I love sucks. Skating sucks when I'm depressed, I can't play guitar for shit when I'm down, my social skills are gone, i don't desire to do anything... the last 3 weeks have been very boring. Sitting on the computer for 6 hours until my friends get out of school, going skating, going to bed. even when I have nothing to do, I can't muster up enough will power or interest to do anything productive. I complain when my parents ask me to do anything around the house.
the girl thing.