only ever happy when i'm smoking weed, in the car with the homies, on the way to a new skate spot, have the vx (or any good camera) with me to film some hammers go down, got some money for food and brews for everyone after the sesh, pull some ladies in the night, and have some new shoes and board whenever i need 'em..
guess the moral of the story here is that i need a better paying job to get the things that i want (and that i'm fine living the life of a skateboarder once all the other bills are accounted for [family-wise... mother's rent, possible medical/herbal bills, dad, brother, etc, phone bills, electric, internet, $1k for rent...])
all i really want: skateboards, skate shoes, drugs, and alcohol... wish i could get some new skateboard stuff............. fuck being broke.
*soon to be car payments and stuff once i get some more money saved up..
money is scarce as heck right now and the fact that bills and rent must be paid while simultaneously having family stressing out because of the lack of money is depressing to see... some days i feel good, some days i just feel numb... i need to make something happen soon... i'm freaking out..
also, i'm 19 but when i talk to girls my age (or older)... it feels like they think of me as younger.. like 16/17.... which is funny because when i was 16-18, i told girls that i was 19 (and sometimes 20) and they believed it...... i pulled a 22 year old girl when i was 17 because she thought i was 20 and apparently had game...
now i'm actually 19 and i'm bummed because i've already been 19 for the last 3 year....