real confessions

[smellsdead]

i nearly sent sharktits money for ganja once

[blurst_of_times]

I had a pretty dysfunctional childhood, way too many details to put down here as to why it was fucked up but in general, my dad was completely emotionally unavailable and pretty much ignored me for the first 19-20 years of my life, even though he and my mom weren't separated and he came home every day. So basically I had a dad who was always around but never seemed to care too much about me. My mom had/has gnarly PTSD from her father so she was only able to do so much to compensate for my dad's lack of parenting. She also was emotionally unavailable as well and didn't show much affection, and my dad never showed any.  The first time I can remember hugging another human being was when I was 17 because my parents never hugged me and I never hugged anyone before then because it felt to me like something only other people got to do.  Long story short, I coped by forming an avoident attachment style and by never expecting to be loved by anyone. I was very fortunate to have great friends, though,  and my girlfriend is incredible, but I still occasionally have nights where I feel so isolated and alone, and where it feels incredibly uncomfortable to realize that someone (my girlfriend) actually loves me. Tonight is one of those nights.

[theresnothinghere]

I got paddled in Texas in the 80s and I thought it was deeply fucked up. My dad signed off on it and he came from a background of generational abuse. I didn't live with him any longer than that one semester and summer.

Anybody who hits a 3 year old is too stupid to fucking parent and desperately needs some kind of classes. Call CPS. A kid's psyche is more important than whether or not your breaking some kind of social rules.

For real. There's so much information on child abuse that it's completely stupid in this day and age to feel like it's not "cool" to call CPS when KIDS are being hit. A 3 year old is a fuckin baby. This dude is switching a BABY.

[doublesteveburger]

Dont call cps, thats a huge hassle and can ruin the kids life worse than anything. Be a man and confront him yourself. Ill say this though, my dad beat me, the physical pain didnt affect me, what did affect me was emotional pains of my parents trying to mold me to thier idea of a child and not listining to me ,these things werent why I was beat though, I was usually beat over some dumb shit.. A beating aint nothing compared to that stuff. Plus a fun fact - My high school principle would use a paddle on students (if parents signed off on it) instead of suspensions. Alot a kids got paddled. This was Tennessee but still, it was in the 2000s.

My middle school did this and I think it made me develop some crippling anxiety as a kid by just not wanting to get paddled by some fucktard. Hope that dude is dead as hell now and I don’t feel bad in saying that.

[L33Tg33k]

I may have shared this before, but it's recently been pressing on my mind again. I can't stand seeing attractive women. I'm not blaming them for anything, but it really emotionally fucks me up seeing women that I'm attracted to because I think about all the experiences I haven't had and probably never will. Then I feel profoundly lonely and incapable of forming close relationships. You know, the usual.

[givecigstosurfgroms]

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  Dont hate me cause i dig the slap people but im weirded out by americans.  Im in europe and i meet more of them.  Theyre the weirdest.   Good people at heart or as good as anybody, i just figure the states is pretty affected.

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What about us weirds you out?

   Well its hard to tell between what im projecting and whats there. And to be fair many people project stuff towards americans.  But there seems to be kind of a loudness happening,  some naivety.  But please remember that im meeting fish out of water and americans abroad would largely be of a certain demographic. Fuck tho for real guys; if your travelling  abroad, tell people ur from Canada - and wait for the smile/sigh of relief you get from europe.     
   ( i got one skater bud from the u s here and hes fine tho)

[theresnothinghere]

I may have shared this before, but it's recently been pressing on my mind again. I can't stand seeing attractive women. I'm not blaming them for anything, but it really emotionally fucks me up seeing women that I'm attracted to because I think about all the experiences I haven't had and probably never will. Then I feel profoundly lonely and incapable of forming close relationships. You know, the usual.

My best homie is like this. He used to get so nervous that he'd piss himself when he was around people he liked. It was the saddest thing because he's such a cool and sweet person. I feel like people who have been alone for a long time are always the most interesting.

[iKobrakai]

I may have shared this before, but it's recently been pressing on my mind again. I can't stand seeing attractive women. I'm not blaming them for anything, but it really emotionally fucks me up seeing women that I'm attracted to because I think about all the experiences I haven't had and probably never will. Then I feel profoundly lonely and incapable of forming close relationships. You know, the usual.

I wish I had something good to tell you but I don't really have anything since I'm pretty useless myself.

If it is any help, a shitty person like me found someone, you'll get there too. Sorry for a cliche response but that's all I got.

[Owen]

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I may have shared this before, but it's recently been pressing on my mind again. I can't stand seeing attractive women. I'm not blaming them for anything, but it really emotionally fucks me up seeing women that I'm attracted to because I think about all the experiences I haven't had and probably never will. Then I feel profoundly lonely and incapable of forming close relationships. You know, the usual.

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My best homie is like this. He used to get so nervous that he'd piss himself when he was around people he liked. It was the saddest thing because he's such a cool and sweet person. I feel like people who have been alone for a long time are always the most interesting.

[paraquat]

I may have shared this before, but it's recently been pressing on my mind again. I can't stand seeing attractive women. I'm not blaming them for anything, but it really emotionally fucks me up seeing women that I'm attracted to because I think about all the experiences I haven't had and probably never will. Then I feel profoundly lonely and incapable of forming close relationships. You know, the usual.

i understand this and even though I’ve had a good amount of sex I still had similar feels in my late 20’s. Do you watch a lot porn? I noticed that I had a calmer view towards women after I chilled on watching hardcore porn (ogling women on instagram is still an issue, but one thing at a time here)

[theresnothinghere]

I really fucking miss my mom

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I really fucking miss my mom

I'm sorry to hear that.  I can't imagine how painful it must feel to miss her.

[benihaha]

I may have shared this before, but it's recently been pressing on my mind again. I can't stand seeing attractive women. I'm not blaming them for anything, but it really emotionally fucks me up seeing women that I'm attracted to because I think about all the experiences I haven't had and probably never will. Then I feel profoundly lonely and incapable of forming close relationships. You know, the usual.

Listen dude, your gonna have to settle for a fat, ugly, or both. Atleast to lose your virginity and get ur confidence up. I lost my virginity to a fat ugly redhead slut that would glob through mexican clubs taking any dick she could. I didnt tell my friends, but that first fuck sent me on a righteous path. There is just a indescribable feeling after fucking pussy, even if the owner of it is disgusting. I think a fat white girl would pair perfectly with you.

[theresnothinghere]

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I may have shared this before, but it's recently been pressing on my mind again. I can't stand seeing attractive women. I'm not blaming them for anything, but it really emotionally fucks me up seeing women that I'm attracted to because I think about all the experiences I haven't had and probably never will. Then I feel profoundly lonely and incapable of forming close relationships. You know, the usual.

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Listen dude, your gonna have to settle for a fat, ugly, or both. Atleast to lose your virginity and get ur confidence up. I lost my virginity to a fat ugly redhead slut that would glob through mexican clubs taking any dick she could. I didnt tell my friends, but that first fuck sent me on a righteous path. There is just a indescribable feeling after fucking pussy, even if the owner of it is disgusting. I think a fat white girl would pair perfectly with you.

even being fat and unattractive, you were lucky to fuck that girl, not the other way around because you suck

[benihaha]

Well hey if your pretty enough Ill fuck you too, even if you have a dick, so dont be mad.

[poor alice]

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I really fucking miss my mom

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I'm sorry to hear that.  I can't imagine how painful it must feel to miss her.

I can only echo this guys statement too. I hope it's not too hard and if you wanna talk about it or shoot the shit holla at me.

My confession for the month is this.
I'm pretty sure I'm straight but I'm also pretty sure I want to live as a girl, and something I'm going to have to come to terms with is that what I want may / will seriously impact my dating / hook up options with girls.

The confession I actually sought this thread to post was this though;
I genuinely get emotional to the point of my eyes tearing up when I watch or start to watch (or even listen to the songs) Heath parts. Sight Unseen. Minefield. This Is Skateboarding . Stay Gold.

[Peter Zagreus]

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I really fucking miss my mom

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I'm sorry to hear that.  I can't imagine how painful it must feel to miss her.

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My confession for the month is this.
I'm pretty sure I'm straight but I'm also pretty sure I want to live as a girl, and something I'm going to have to come to terms with is that what I want may / will seriously impact my dating / hook up options with girls.

Pardon if I'm intruding or being insensitive, but can you elaborate on wanting to live as a girl who likes girls?

[chris gentryfied]

it's just like he said, mate.

[guest1]

I may have shared this before, but it's recently been pressing on my mind again. I can't stand seeing attractive women. I'm not blaming them for anything, but it really emotionally fucks me up seeing women that I'm attracted to because I think about all the experiences I haven't had and probably never will. Then I feel profoundly lonely and incapable of forming close relationships. You know, the usual.

Sorry for late response, but your post does remind me of how I once was.

I understand how you feel because I’ve felt this way too at one point in my life but let me ask you this...is this all built up in your head or have you actually gone out of your way to put yourself out there?  Some guys get anxiety from rejection but if you get passed that anxiety you’ll feel so much better about it.  Just like all of us, you are not going to be everyone’s cup of tea, just like some girls aren’t your cup of tea either.

If you get rejected from someone, don’t internalize it. That seems to be a big factor into why guys lose confidence, but a lot of times it’s not necessarily you. There could be a million other reasons why she’s not interested. Just cut your losses and move on. The more you do this the more confident you get and you start to not feel so anxious about approaching women anymore.  The worst she could say is no and its not like the movies where the girl rolls her eyes and walks away unless you’re being creepy or an asshole to her.

Don’t focus so much on your looks or insecurities.  We all have things that we don’t like about ourselves.  Just be friendly, fun, and confident.  Confidence means A LOT and girls can easily pick up on that.

Do you look at attractive women and say things like “She will never go for a guy like me”. How do you know? Have you ever talked to her? She might be thinking the same thing about you such as “I wish that guy over there will talk to me.”  You don’t know until you try.

At the end of the day it’ll take some time to get the groove of it and you’ll have your ups and downs with it. Just don’t give up. It you keep filling your head with negative thoughts all the time then you’re not going to change. It really is a self-deafeating prophecy.  I found someone eventually and it was all through positive thinking.  Hope this helps.

[redwine]

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I really fucking miss my mom

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I'm sorry to hear that.  I can't imagine how painful it must feel to miss her.

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I can only echo this guys statement too. I hope it's not too hard and if you wanna talk about it or shoot the shit holla at me.

My confession for the month is this.
I'm pretty sure I'm straight but I'm also pretty sure I want to live as a girl, and something I'm going to have to come to terms with is that what I want may / will seriously impact my dating / hook up options with girls.

The confession I actually sought this thread to post was this though;
I genuinely get emotional to the point of my eyes tearing up when I watch or start to watch (or even listen to the songs) Heath parts. Sight Unseen. Minefield. This Is Skateboarding . Stay Gold.

Crossdressing is fun but dont let the fantasy controll your mind.

You can do it full time but its still only a look. But some girls do like chicks with dicks.

If your thinking hormones and dick chopping, please fucking dont do that. Just love yourself how you are.

[poor alice]

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I really fucking miss my mom

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I'm sorry to hear that.  I can't imagine how painful it must feel to miss her.

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My confession for the month is this.
I'm pretty sure I'm straight but I'm also pretty sure I want to live as a girl, and something I'm going to have to come to terms with is that what I want may / will seriously impact my dating / hook up options with girls.

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Pardon if I'm intruding or being insensitive, but can you elaborate on wanting to live as a girl who likes girls?

Not being intrusive or insensitive in the slightest. What I mean is my outward appearance is most at ease with my internal wellbeing when I resemble a female / a woman and I want to "appear feminine" all of the time. But I like having sex with girls. Alot.
That's probably as succinct as I can be right now.

And to the other guy, I'm not thinking dick chopping and I do like myself somewhat the way I am. I am however looking at HRT and whatnot.

[theresnothinghere]

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I really fucking miss my mom

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I'm sorry to hear that.  I can't imagine how painful it must feel to miss her.

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I can only echo this guys statement too. I hope it's not too hard and if you wanna talk about it or shoot the shit holla at me.

My confession for the month is this.
I'm pretty sure I'm straight but I'm also pretty sure I want to live as a girl, and something I'm going to have to come to terms with is that what I want may / will seriously impact my dating / hook up options with girls.

The confession I actually sought this thread to post was this though;
I genuinely get emotional to the point of my eyes tearing up when I watch or start to watch (or even listen to the songs) Heath parts. Sight Unseen. Minefield. This Is Skateboarding . Stay Gold.

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Crossdressing is fun but dont let the fantasy controll your mind.

You can do it full time but its still only a look. But some girls do like chicks with dicks.

If your thinking hormones and dick chopping, please fucking dont do that. Just love yourself how you are.

yikes, can you not be transphobic. There's Drag and there's being transgender. Both are more than just a "look". Hormones help a lot of trans folks to not be dysphoric about their bodies. You really don't have to speak on stuff that you know nothing about.

[theresnothinghere]

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I really fucking miss my mom

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I'm sorry to hear that.  I can't imagine how painful it must feel to miss her.

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My confession for the month is this.
I'm pretty sure I'm straight but I'm also pretty sure I want to live as a girl, and something I'm going to have to come to terms with is that what I want may / will seriously impact my dating / hook up options with girls.

[close]

Pardon if I'm intruding or being insensitive, but can you elaborate on wanting to live as a girl who likes girls?

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Not being intrusive or insensitive in the slightest. What I mean is my outward appearance is most at ease with my internal wellbeing when I resemble a female / a woman and I want to "appear feminine" all of the time. But I like having sex with girls. Alot.
That's probably as succinct as I can be right now.

And to the other guy, I'm not thinking dick chopping and I do like myself somewhat the way I am. I am however looking at HRT and whatnot.

Sounds like what a lot of my lesbian trans women friends feel like. Not sure if you feel that's a good description but just an observation. Not sure if you have it in your city but if you're thinking of HRT, having a transgender community clinic is super helpful and supportive if you need a spot to answer questions etc.

[spilledwine]

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I really fucking miss my mom

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I'm sorry to hear that.  I can't imagine how painful it must feel to miss her.

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I can only echo this guys statement too. I hope it's not too hard and if you wanna talk about it or shoot the shit holla at me.

My confession for the month is this.
I'm pretty sure I'm straight but I'm also pretty sure I want to live as a girl, and something I'm going to have to come to terms with is that what I want may / will seriously impact my dating / hook up options with girls.

The confession I actually sought this thread to post was this though;
I genuinely get emotional to the point of my eyes tearing up when I watch or start to watch (or even listen to the songs) Heath parts. Sight Unseen. Minefield. This Is Skateboarding . Stay Gold.

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Crossdressing is fun but dont let the fantasy controll your mind.

You can do it full time but its still only a look. But some girls do like chicks with dicks.

If your thinking hormones and dick chopping, please fucking dont do that. Just love yourself how you are.

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yikes, can you not be transphobic. There's Drag and there's being transgender. Both are more than just a "look". Hormones help a lot of trans folks to not be dysphoric about their bodies. You really don't have to speak on stuff that you know nothing about.

Opposite of transphopic xir, Im well versed in all things tranny. But Im even more well versed in mental warfare. I just think reconsideration is always good no matter the subject. I mean this stuff is more serious than a tattoo.

If it is dysphoria I think it should be dwelled on as to why that is, get deep understanding, and would suggest trying to fix it mentally first instead of it first being positively encouraged to feed it through body modification. Dysphoria of any kind is not a good thing. And honestly if you just cant pull it off, others will just not view you as a woman (ITS MAAM!!). Which is fine depending on why or what one wants to be a girl, a boy, inbeetween.

Then just personally I think you should wait till around age 25 to decide go full into hrt, cause kids are dumb, which is a conundrum for my boner cause the younger you do it the better it works. Unless you still keep feminine body traits as you get older.

But if you wanna grow tits n shit for the fuck of it without having any dysphoric issues go ahead, still pretty serious though, shits kinda permenant bro.

Seriously not being mean, just trying to help with serious stuff. Everyone is free to make thier own decisions. Not saying poor alice doesnt have themselves figured out already either. Some people end up up happy, but its just a heavy path to go down filled with unknowns.

But you can always just crossdress and fingerblast ur buthole or even get pegged by a freaky chick untill u cum, preferably on meth, like me. Its reversible but with all the fun included. The ol reliable.

And if that sounds weird to anyone, just dont start watching tranny porn, you will probably try it eventually one day when you realize "Hey I can do that too!"

Real confession I shoulda fuckin never watched those thailand travel videos when I was younger.

[givecigstosurfgroms]

I really fucking miss my mom

   Aw shit dude.  Thats so sad.  Id be hard pressed to keep living without my mother. God help us.

[iKobrakai]

Correct me if I'm wrong but are people now competing over who's being least transphobic?

[spilledwine]

Correct me if I'm wrong but are people now competing over who's being least transphobic?

Well what have you done with your butt you homophobe?! Nah, I just felt like shutting down some self righteousness real quick.

[iKobrakai]

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Correct me if I'm wrong but are people now competing over who's being least transphobic?

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Well what have you done with your butt you homophobe?! Nah, I just felt like shutting down some self righteousness real quick.

Were you on meth when you wrote all that?

[spilledwine]

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Correct me if I'm wrong but are people now competing over who's being least transphobic?

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Well what have you done with your butt you homophobe?! Nah, I just felt like shutting down some self righteousness real quick.

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Were you on meth when you wrote all that?

Addys, but honestly I dont even really like meth besides for that kinda stuff, kinda steals your soul when your on it, hence why the gays use that shit for next level grossness.

Im just a pervert

[DaSk8D00D]

A buddy of mine and I have been in some real talks these past few weeks about starting a skate podcast and I’m super hyped on the idea but at the same time I got other shit going on in my life right now (relationship’s been a lil rocky lately and I’d like to find a new job, to keep it brief) and I kinda fear that it’ll be another one of those things that I start but don’t finish or follow through on. I’ve been really into podcasts for a while now and I have experience with recording, public speaking, etc so when I brainstorm the ideas just flow out of me. True inspiration, if you’re a creative type then you know what that feels like. It’s like I KNOW it would be kick ass and is totally doable for me if I put in the planning/effort but I just got that sliver in the back of my mind making me hesitate a bit. I dunno. We’re gonna do this shit tho at least 5 episodes or so. I wanna take a real crack at it and give people another quality skate show to listen to