Only two things can come out of me staying in this city and living with the people I currently live with: Suicide or literally drinking myself death. Most likely, the latter. The past 4 days I have spent drinking while taking various sleeping medications. I usually pass out for around 12-14 hours which isn't too bad I guess. I start working full-time this weekend. I'll be making around $9-$10 an hour which isn't bad for a summer job. The people I live with are disgusting. They don't clean up anything at all, all they do is eat the food I buy and fuck their slutty daddy-issue girlfriends. They never leave! Its such a shame that these were people I grew up and considered friends. Me getting a place and sharing it with these fuckers was supposed to be a pretty great opportunity for all of us. All you have to do is pay rent/utility and not fuck up school, and they end up doing the complete opposite. Its like you give these people one inch of freedom and they completely pile out. Its pathetic. The fact they see nothing wrong with any of that is horrifying to me, they even throw it in my face time to time as a way of bragging. If I leave here I sacrifice leaving a fairly prestigious university and missing out on decent job opportunities that might arise after graduating college, but at this point it just doesn't seem worth it. I feel like I'm going crazy, man. Never felt so alone in my life. The only thing I ever leave the house for is to go skate occasionally.. Thank god for skating.