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Please don't take this as a cry for help or as a whine or a sign of crippling depression, or worse, hardcore memery, but on every passing day, I get more and more convinced that I'm going to kill myself. Hopefully not soon, probably in my 50s or 60s in a very subtle, dignified, and filled with plausible deniability-way, but who knows where life might take us 5 minutes from now. My genes are fucked, most of my ancestors are either mentally or neurologically ill, and I don't want to make an ass of myself and I want to control the way I leave. I just hope that I'm still living at a time and age where such a subject is still taboo, and not the duty of every untermensch or elderly citizen.
Ok so I'm going to give you some tips, just beware it's not the cheapest way but it's the best one in the long run:
It's kind of disturbing you think there is a "best way"(for everyone?) and you know it, this is how like 50% of the human emotional spectrum has become medicalized. Pretty arrogant and deluded statement to make. Just because it worked for you doesn't mean it is the best way.
Really??
I'm not sure if you're serious.
Did I sound arrogant and deluded? Of course everything written on this forum is 'some dude on the internet advice', I'm just saying TO ME is the best way to treat certain problems. I'm born with it and the only way for me to get through and living a normal life is ALSO being on SSRI, like (and I know is a stretched comparison) people with diabetes need insuline shots. You're trying to give to your body (brain in this case) normal levels of an element.
Would it be better not to take them? Sure! Is it worse than watching the ceiling every night and not getting out of bed in the mornings? Hell no.
There are some different degrees of depression of course, but our carioca friend 20matar here told, and correct me if I'm wrong, that has had it and also family members have it (which increases the possibility of developing it).
It's a very important topic for me and the only real point I'm trying to make it's that looking for professional help is fundamental, and if you don't there's a chance you're falling back into it harder.
It also doesn't help that I think in one language and type in another one, but the last thing I'm trying to do here is being rude or seem like I'm dropping dogmas.
Edit: Also quoting Camus or any other writer doesn't seem a very appropriate way to theorise the problem.
Edit2: hey tobey hopefully I'm not the idiot who talks without experience lol. All I said it's based on my shitty life haha
Edit3: self 'medication' (fullcab) is a recipe for disaster.