@EdLawndale The part about bars being emptier post-covid is something I've read from a lot of bar staff on Reddit about. Times are changing and it's hard to point out just one thing. I quit 21 months ago, have bumped into a lot of acquaintances who have also quit in the past few years. On Saturday, I went skating with a buddy who used to bartend at the bars I would frequent. He quit and said a huge chunk of the staff quit as well. I know a decent chunk of early 20's kids through skating and NEVER hear them talk about drinking, rarely see pictures on social media.
A friend of mine moved back from the east coast and is going through detox right now. I'm very proud of him. Can't wait to see him in a couple of months and have a chill skate session. I just don't want to be an enabler since I'm still pounding back liquor daily. Every time I consider quitting I just get so anxious an hour before the liquor store closes and have to pick something up. Things are not going well in my life but I'm putting all my energy into skateboarding to distract myself so that's something at least.
@Steely Daniel How's your buddy detoxing? Is he in a facility or some shit? I"m only asking cause they don't teach you this shit in school and will always take an opportunity to talk about it. I was lucky enough to get medically detoxed my final time, took a good 5 days to get me off the shit. This is a quick guide for tapering off booze. For the record, WITHDRAWAL IS EXTREMELY DANGEROUS, IF YOU'RE HEARING SHIT/HALLUCINATING DRINK SOME BOOZE OR GO TO A HOSPITAL DON'T TRY TO TOUGH IT OUT.
https://hams.cc/taper/And Steely I can definitely relate. When I used to drink the thought of going 3 days without it was terrifying. It took quite a while to rewire my brain. I used to wake up still a bit drunk, and the only think I could think about was immediately getting to the store to get more beer. Waiting again till that night to get drunk again was torture, so usually I'd just start day drinking. It took me a few weeks of not drinking, until it wasn't constantly on my mind. After about 6 months, the thoughts got a lot less intrusive. Had a ton of anxiety the first few months, skating/working out helped a bit, but I kinda just had to sit there with it.
I"m not going to preach at you because I know this shit's not easy. The alcohol did a number on my mental health. It's hard to not have anxiety and depression when you're constantly liquored up. I didn't exactly quit on a winning streak either, but it was much easier for me to fix the problems in my life when I wasn't giving 90 percent of my physical and mental energy to alcohol. It's good to hear you're skating though, if it weren't for shit I'm passionate about I would have just kept drinking or pulled the plug. Best of luck to you man.