Made a conscientious plan to try to get healthier a couple months ago. Did 45 days with no alcohol, working out every day, walking at least 12,500 steps a day and trying to eat healthier. Went from 196 lbs to 178 and gained some noticeable muscle (I was working out a little since about 3 months ago). The wife and I had an overnight away from the kiddos and had drinks again for the first time. I feel like when I don't have a plan, I just fall back into similar patterns before, so I kind of want to do another bigger stretch of no alcohol and working out. The only bummer is I think my workouts are causing a back injury I had in January flare up because I'm having a decent amount of daily back pain. Not sure what the next step is, but felt good to make a plan and stick to it in the short term.
Props to you for sticking to it but 45 days of working out is insanity, even the world's best athletes schedule rest days and mix up intense with recovery days to avoid recovery. You need to schedule time to recover, and if you're antsy about that then do low-intensity work outs like yoga or stretching during your off days.
The back pains are a clear sign that something isn't right and as someone still living with a teenage back injury, you need to manage that before you live with it for the rest of your life. Future you will be thankful you took it down a notch.
You're here for the marathon, not the sprint - when it comes to fitness consistency beats insanity. I can't speak to your relationship with alcohol / substances but for most people its about self-control and pacing out your drinking. You don't have to go on a blackout bender every time you taste beer, but there's nothing wrong with enjoying a drink on occasion.