School brings me down probably more than anything else. Ever since elementary school I just never really saw a reason to try hard and now I don't even do good enough for any grants whatsoever. I even cut work down to two days a week and still find myself finding skate and car videos on YouTube worth more time than getting pretty good grades and getting the fuck out of college.
I suck at skating. It's been 9 years since I started skating yet I'm no better than a 15 year old who's been skating for 2 years.
I'm too pussy to pick up girls. I'm always thinking about things I could say to chicks if at a party or just approaching a chick in school or something but then flake completely.
The whole combo of sucking at school, lack of vagina, and lack of money has me wicked down lately. The fact that winter is coming isn't helping that either because it seems like every winter I just get more and more down. Last winter I had just started dating some chick and ended up rushing that way too fast, probably why she broke up with me a month later. Icant wait to just finish school and move to New York and start meeting new people.