sorry for a long post
my main problems stem from high school because until I was just turning 17 I was 5 foot tall, 100 pounds, and looked 13 years old. I mean I looked like I just wandered in to see what high school was like during my 15 minute recess at the middle school next door. I had very few friends in early high school years (or at my high school in general), got ripped on constantly, and had absolutely no confidence in myself because of it.
I would never tell anyone this, but I had a benign tumor on my pituitary gland that blocked every good hormone from reaching my brain and start the growth process. I didnt learn this until I was 14 and the only way I could help myself was to take a series injections every night. one would slowly burn through the dead growth in my brain and the other also pump more testosterone and various chemicals into my body.
I took these shots every night from about 14 to just before my 18th birthday. It cost an absolute fortune as well, which definitely put a strain on my parents im sure due to them having to put their futures on hold just to help me out. Im very glad I got the treatment I needed (im 5'11" now, but still skinny as fuck) but at the same time im still that self-conscious teenager that has no solid confidence in himself due to being stuck in that mindset when I was in school. I still view myself as a small, quiet kid who shouldnt say anything due to being chastised by my peers.
This girl Jenny ive been hanging out with almost every day literally thinks the world of me. She thinks Im smart, funny, creative, attractive, and awesome in general and I simply cannot get over this mental mindest and make a move. I am absolutely fucked...
thats my life situati0n in a nutshell...
edit: and FreshSC, Im not lying when I say this, you look pretty damn good on a skateboard...