real confessions

[nocomply]

didn't get into any of the grad schools i applied to (huge waste of time and money), have been looking for a job for a month and a half now, running out of money blah blah.

what's really got me bummed is my dad. he was going to go visit my brother in hong kong but when he was getting checked out by the travel doctor they found a small tear in his aorta. if it rips he'll be dead in a couple seconds. needless to say he can't go see my brother (which is no huge deal) but there's nothing you can really do about this thing. it freaks me the fuck out because i don't know what i'd do without my dad and he could be gone in an instant. like all this bullshit with school and work is nothing if i don't have my dad. he's got to get his blood pressure down to heal this tear but trying to get him to chill out is impossible. he's got this attitude like if he doesn't live life at 100% there's no reason to live, which i sympathize with but he's not that old, he's just got to slow down and watch to make sure he's doesn't put too much stress on this thing. when his mom died he was convinced she just gave up so now i feel like he can't look this thing in the face and just wants to keep going full speed but i'm scared for him. he always told me when i was little that if he was ever incapacitated or super sick to snuff him out in the hospital, which is really only half a joke. i feel like i'm losing my dad either way.

What kind of stuff is he refusing to slow down with? Does he know you feel this way?

[rawbertson.]

man i have nothing to look foward to i want to do the rawb show but i keep getting bummed on doing it. i cant wait til the nice weather is here then ill be more hyped. lots of people are pissin me off just little things but some people are cool as fuck.

there is this 1 girl who we always hang out with, all my friends have a girlfriend and she is the only other one who is single and she is only 18 or 19 and she doestn want nothing to d o with me. i asked her to just hang out to get coffee so i could just get to know her even but nope she wasnt having it... she was complaining to her friend how she didnt have a boyfriend and she said "What about mike?" and she said "he hardly knows me.." mad weak why cant she just say "i dont like him"

i hate that. girls always say that shit to me like "oh i like you but i just dont want anything right no0w" or whatever. that is such shit obviously she doesnt like you she is just saying that so you wont feel as bad but i think i would feel better knowing what it was that was inadequate so i could imrpove on it for future bitches.

i was thinking i had shit on lock i had like three girls all lined up to go out on coffee dates and they all turned out shit. never ended up going for coffee once. i thought it was the perfect thing cause then it just seems like you are trying to hang out and get to know and be friends and not just hangin out for a chance to fuck.

[busey]

man i have nothing to look foward to i want to do the rawb show but i keep getting bummed on doing it. i cant wait til the nice weather is here then ill be more hyped. lots of people are pissin me off just little things but some people are cool as fuck.

there is this 1 girl who we always hang out with, all my friends have a girlfriend and she is the only other one who is single and she is only 18 or 19 and she doestn want nothing to d o with me. i asked her to just hang out to get coffee so i could just get to know her even but nope she wasnt having it... she was complaining to her friend how she didnt have a boyfriend and she said "What about mike?" and she said "he hardly knows me.." mad weak why cant she just say "i dont like him"

i hate that. girls always say that shit to me like "oh i like you but i just dont want anything right no0w" or whatever. that is such shit obviously she doesnt like you she is just saying that so you wont feel as bad but i think i would feel better knowing what it was that was inadequate so i could imrpove on it for future bitches.

i was thinking i had shit on lock i had like three girls all lined up to go out on coffee dates and they all turned out shit. never ended up going for coffee once. i thought it was the perfect thing cause then it just seems like you are trying to hang out and get to know and be friends and not just hangin out for a chance to fuck.

rawb! you're doing it all wrong. you don't go on coffee dates, you ask them to come over and watch a movie/tv/listen to music and buy a ton of booze for you and her to get loaded off of. then near the end of the night work that rawbcat magic. get paid!

[rawbertson.]

that is normally what i do but i cant even get em to my apt i am just having brutal luck was tryin to take it back a step but fuckk

[DevilOnEnzyte]

I have clamydia

[TheHyphyVelociraptor]

I like some of the Birdman & Lil Wayne songs...

[DeerTay]

I fell in love with a girl in my math class who i spoke to for the first time today, that happens to have a british accent. She's so fucking hot...

[TheFreshSC]

monogamy seems like it will be a real bummer (unless i marry jayden james). I get tired of girls after about a month and soon end up finding another girl who's more rad than the last.

[jack burton]

^ sounds like something to be in the stoked thread.

[Mackattack]

I have a thing for slightly overweight middle aged women with fat asses.
If i could choose i might only pork these types of women.

[skate_bored]

this morning i took some of that KY his and hers lube that my girlfriend bought us to use and jacked off. we've used it a few times(just figured it'd be fun, i think i joked about it in the store and she came home with it a few nights later)....anyways, i never really felt anything from it when we have sex but this morning I jacked off with HERs instead, and wow...shit feels super good. almost reminds me of icy hot but in a good way. i used like half the bottle haha.

[DevilOnEnzyte]

this morning i took some of that KY his and hers lube that my girlfriend bought us to use and jacked off. we've used it a few times(just figured it'd be fun, i think i joked about it in the store and she came home with it a few nights later)....anyways, i never really felt anything from it when we have sex but this morning I jacked off with HERs instead, and wow...shit feels super good. almost reminds me of icy hot but in a good way. i used like half the bottle haha.

Must try this...
 

[rawbertson.]

this morning i took some of that KY his and hers lube that my girlfriend bought us to use and jacked off. we've used it a few times(just figured it'd be fun, i think i joked about it in the store and she came home with it a few nights later)....anyways, i never really felt anything from it when we have sex but this morning I jacked off with HERs instead, and wow...shit feels super good. almost reminds me of icy hot but in a good way. i used like half the bottle haha.

fuck lube, my girls squirt

[TheHyphyVelociraptor]

I never understood this ad...

[Upgrayedd]

I never understood this ad...

peter went from regular circa, to circa combat.

[CUDDLEMONSTER]

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didn't get into any of the grad schools i applied to (huge waste of time and money), have been looking for a job for a month and a half now, running out of money blah blah.

what's really got me bummed is my dad. he was going to go visit my brother in hong kong but when he was getting checked out by the travel doctor they found a small tear in his aorta. if it rips he'll be dead in a couple seconds. needless to say he can't go see my brother (which is no huge deal) but there's nothing you can really do about this thing. it freaks me the fuck out because i don't know what i'd do without my dad and he could be gone in an instant. like all this bullshit with school and work is nothing if i don't have my dad. he's got to get his blood pressure down to heal this tear but trying to get him to chill out is impossible. he's got this attitude like if he doesn't live life at 100% there's no reason to live, which i sympathize with but he's not that old, he's just got to slow down and watch to make sure he's doesn't put too much stress on this thing. when his mom died he was convinced she just gave up so now i feel like he can't look this thing in the face and just wants to keep going full speed but i'm scared for him. he always told me when i was little that if he was ever incapacitated or super sick to snuff him out in the hospital, which is really only half a joke. i feel like i'm losing my dad either way.

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What kind of stuff is he refusing to slow down with? Does he know you feel this way?

it's a long story but basically he worked all his life in IT doing computer work and he fucking hated it. he retired a little early because the economy was doing good and my mom was making a ton of money. well needless to say my mom left (nothing bad on her, they didn't mesh and she had to start doing her own thing) and a lot his investments went south. he's been trying to fix up the house so he can he move into a condo now that me and my brothers moved out but i can tell he feels like he's not going to get a deal on a house he's worked super hard on. he has always been super handy- we built a deck together when i was 10 and have constantly been working on shit around the house- but it's a big strain hauling all that shit around and doing an entire project by yourself. taking a cover off a pool after it's had a chicago winters worth of wet leaves and half frozen mud dumped on top off it by yourself is some incredible hulk type strength. not to mention now he's got 5 nephews to take care of a lot of the time because both my brothers are trying to move and things are just kind of crazy. it sounds like an insane amount to take on (which it is) but all of this kind of shit is what makes my dad happy. he never really had a hobby like skateboarding or music he just wanted a really rad huge family with a nice place to live.

anyway, now i gotta drive him to the hospital on monday because they spotted something in his pancreas. they think it's just a tumor but i can tell it's freaking him out. yesterday he pointed out some of the valuable art up around the house, which just seemed super odd to me. blah. good news is bound to show up. i applied today for a photo archivist job at playboy and that has him psyched. my dad used to work for them in the 60's and still "reads" every issue.

[Brewseph]

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didn't get into any of the grad schools i applied to (huge waste of time and money), have been looking for a job for a month and a half now, running out of money blah blah.

what's really got me bummed is my dad. he was going to go visit my brother in hong kong but when he was getting checked out by the travel doctor they found a small tear in his aorta. if it rips he'll be dead in a couple seconds. needless to say he can't go see my brother (which is no huge deal) but there's nothing you can really do about this thing. it freaks me the fuck out because i don't know what i'd do without my dad and he could be gone in an instant. like all this bullshit with school and work is nothing if i don't have my dad. he's got to get his blood pressure down to heal this tear but trying to get him to chill out is impossible. he's got this attitude like if he doesn't live life at 100% there's no reason to live, which i sympathize with but he's not that old, he's just got to slow down and watch to make sure he's doesn't put too much stress on this thing. when his mom died he was convinced she just gave up so now i feel like he can't look this thing in the face and just wants to keep going full speed but i'm scared for him. he always told me when i was little that if he was ever incapacitated or super sick to snuff him out in the hospital, which is really only half a joke. i feel like i'm losing my dad either way.

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What kind of stuff is he refusing to slow down with? Does he know you feel this way?

[close]

it's a long story but basically he worked all his life in IT doing computer work and he fucking hated it. he retired a little early because the economy was doing good and my mom was making a ton of money. well needless to say my mom left (nothing bad on her, they didn't mesh and she had to start doing her own thing) and a lot his investments went south. he's been trying to fix up the house so he can he move into a condo now that me and my brothers moved out but i can tell he feels like he's not going to get a deal on a house he's worked super hard on. he has always been super handy- we built a deck together when i was 10 and have constantly been working on shit around the house- but it's a big strain hauling all that shit around and doing an entire project by yourself. taking a cover off a pool after it's had a chicago winters worth of wet leaves and half frozen mud dumped on top off it by yourself is some incredible hulk type strength. not to mention now he's got 5 nephews to take care of a lot of the time because both my brothers are trying to move and things are just kind of crazy. it sounds like an insane amount to take on (which it is) but all of this kind of shit is what makes my dad happy. he never really had a hobby like skateboarding or music he just wanted a really rad huge family with a nice place to live.

anyway, now i gotta drive him to the hospital on monday because they spotted something in his pancreas. they think it's just a tumor but i can tell it's freaking him out. yesterday he pointed out some of the valuable art up around the house, which just seemed super odd to me. blah. good news is bound to show up. i applied today for a photo archivist job at playboy and that has him psyched. my dad used to work for them in the 60's and still "reads" every issue.

Did I miss the day in class where they told everyone that tumors are not a big deal? Hope everything works out man.

[able]

I'm depressed

of course you are! You need to open a window, let the sun come in!
Look at you avatar! He looks so sad!


Liven him up a little man! It's a small step in the right direction 

[skate_bored]

able you just made my fucking day haha

[mandibleclaw]

i'm secretly terrified right now.  i've basically lived in florida my whole life, first in stuart and now in gainesville (for college).  well, i graduate in a few weeks, and this summer i'm moving to NYC for grad school.  so the problem--i've always had a lot of friends, and i've never had a hard time getting girls or anything, but suddenly i feel like i'm moving way out of my comfort zone.  i've never lived in anything but a small/midsized florida town, and suddenly i'm going to be in a giant city with only a few people i know. i have this irrational fear i won't make any friends.  i feel totally lost already.

i know that i'll find some skate spots and make friends with people skating, and plus there's all the people i'll have school with, but i'm completely weirded out.  maybe i need people a lot.

add to this, i have a horrible sense of direction, i get lost in my hometown somehow, so i think i'm going to be totally fucked in new york.  as it is now, i basically let my friends do the navigating.  i'm always asking, "so how do we get there again?" even though we've been there a thousand times.

[magicstickyhand]

able you just made my fucking day haha

thank you
 
it made me laugh

[CigaretteBeer]

I drank at least a bottle of whiskey everyday for ten days. At one point I went into the kitchen and got a knife to slit my wrist but decided that was too painful and hard of a death. Then I wept to a girl on the phone and felt a little better. Once I stopped drinking, I woke up and was vomiting every few minutes and shaking violently and moaning from the pain. I thought I probably needed medical treatment for withdrawal and dehydration, but I can't afford it so I just felt horrible for two days. I guess that was a pretty pathetic situation ha.

[kevbo999]

My city has an all ages/young adult kinda forum that covers everything from music to skating to whatever else.  Countless friendships and good times have come to fruition because of this social outlet.  Though just recently it got shut down for the 3rd or 4th time because the admin doesn't give a fuck and gives powers to idiots for fun.

I've received some criticism so far, but I made a new board that I really hope will continue to gain attention and take off.  I guess it's kinda pathetic to care so much about a message board.  It's just I know how much good it can do for people, and I think having that little bit of power/involvement in the community would motivate me and others in positive ways.

[TheHyphyVelociraptor]

I still don't know how to drive. 

[Smurph]

I still don't know how to drive. 

Me neither and its seriously deterring me from getting a job and building skate spots in the middle of nowhere.

[zipzinger666]

I hate myself and every stupid thing ive done lately. i've never been this self loathing and its awful. i have seriously considered cutting off all ties with my close friends recently because i cant handle my shit and im going to make things worse...

and on a side note, i spend way too much time on this messageboard, i should focus and never come back because i have contributed nothing productive to this place and never will...

edit: im just having a rough day, ill quit my bitching. kook if you care too much...

[BriDen]

[zipzinger666]

you know what? i do thoroughly enjoy this place on good days, I dont think i will. Briden, i dont know what I ever did to you but I've always appreciated your posts. but i could really care less at this point...

[BriDen]

Oh nah dude it was just a joke. If you're really, and i mean REALLY serious about this, then you very well may need professional help that you cannot get on this or any message board. Everybody has their rough patches and sometimes it's too much to go through alone, but a forum won't be able to help you. You're a quality poster and skater from what I remember seeing posted here. I like you, slight chance of homo.

[sparksandblood]

I hate myself and every stupid thing ive done lately. i've never been this self loathing and its awful. i have seriously considered cutting off all ties with my close friends recently because i cant handle my shit and im going to make things worse...

and on a side note, i spend way too much time on this messageboard, i should focus and never come back because i have contributed nothing productive to this place and never will...

edit: im just having a rough day, ill quit my bitching. kook if you care too much...

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