A few months back I read the whole thread so it's my turn
I want to go back home, almost two years ago my gf was transfered to the country were I currently reside, at the time I didn't want to go, but I asked my boss for a transfer and on my way I was.
we are in a better situation, but I just don't like it here and I'm depressed and miserable all the time. I miss my friends, I miss my band, I miss the spots I used to skate.
I was supposed to do a masters degree but I've had so many problems I haven't been able to go through with this, I haven't even started, this is something I need to get done if I want to get a better job or move to a different deparment within the company I work for, as it is I'm stuck doing something I dislike and the money even though its good its not a big enough motivating factor.
I'm having anxiety attacks because I feel trapped and typecast in a role I don't want to play, it's like I feel my life is running out and I can't escape this noose
I'm starting to recent my gf a little for making me move down here, I went back home for the holidays and had a blast hangin out with my friends, jammin with the band, I even smoked weed again, something I haven't done since the move because it was going to affect my already low motivation.
in my mind I know I'm way better, but my heart is not agreeing and it is really hard for me, I can't even stay in touch with nobody because the time zones make so that by the time I'm back home from work everybody back home is about to go to bed.
I don't like the food, I don't like the people, I don't like their views on life in general these people live their lives thinking they're always right and that everybody else in the world behaves exactly like they do, which is funny in a sad and ironic kind of way because it's the opposite.
I find myself holding my tongue just to be polite when I want to tell them to shut the fuck up and stop behaving like fucking illiterates.
worst of all, my gf seems to be adjusting rather well and has no intention of going back, which makes me even more miserable.
The skate spots are horrible and the skateparks are even worse, the beaches are the worse I've seen in the world, and I can't even distract myself checking out other chicks because women in this country are horrible and dress so bad that even if their hot it won't matter, I also hate their accent it's not english but I hate their specific accent.