real confessions

[finknoos]

I hate living.

think about how well you have it though, im assuming you have a computer with an internet connection as you are posting on slap, therefore i will also assume you live in some kind of shelter be it flat or house. you have enough disposable income to be spending on skateboards.

there are plenty of people who have to physically work really hard every day just to survive in the poorest of conditions with a horrable quality of life.

look for the good things in life even if everything looks bad

[Bronson]

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I hate living.

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think about how well you have it though, im assuming you have a computer with an internet connection as you are posting on slap, therefore i will also assume you live in some kind of shelter be it flat or house. you have enough disposable income to be spending on skateboards.

there are plenty of people who have to physically work really hard every day just to survive in the poorest of conditions with a horrable quality of life.

look for the good things in life even if everything looks bad

For real, that has been a big thought for me lately, having been born into a Nordic welfare country. No abusive/alcoholic parents. Aint got to really worry about survival. Shits a trip actually.

[Zurg]

i get what you're saying and you've got a point to a degree, but its better to use those to get motivated to start doing things to make your life meaningful. reminding yourself that you're slightly better off than other people isnt going to make you enjoy life

[VictoriousOG]

I'm a shitty friend.

I tend to start avoiding friends who get less and less interested in skateboarding. I'm just so obsessed with skating that its all I want to do on my free time. If I'm not skating, its probably because of the weather or an injury. So this leads to getting a new group of friends every year for the past 5 years. And I already see it happening again soon. That's who I am in a nut shell.

[Made In China]

^^Wish I could gnar you for that.

What does that mean?

[Omamori]

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^^Wish I could gnar you for that.

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What does that mean?

See your rep, it's -3. Gnar raises your rep, kook lowers it.

[Hercules Rockefeller]

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^^Wish I could gnar you for that.

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What does that mean?

buttsecks. its all about buttsecks.

[William Jefferson Clinton]

I'm a shitty friend.

I tend to start avoiding friends who get less and less interested in skateboarding. I'm just so obsessed with skating that its all I want to do on my free time. If I'm not skating, its probably because of the weather or an injury. So this leads to getting a new group of friends every year for the past 5 years. And I already see it happening again soon. That's who I am in a nut shell.

Yeah, most of the people I used to skate with quit for Black Ops.

[A.J.K.]

I'm a shitty friend.

I tend to start avoiding friends who get less and less interested in skateboarding. I'm just so obsessed with skating that its all I want to do on my free time. If I'm not skating, its probably because of the weather or an injury. So this leads to getting a new group of friends every year for the past 5 years. And I already see it happening again soon. That's who I am in a nut shell.

I know exactly what you mean.  Not that I necessarily have a new group of friends each year, but my skate group has definitely slimmed down over the last few years and most people that quit, I never really talk to afterwards. 

I've been able to skate for maybe 6 days since mid June, and probably won't be able to get going again till mid November, and I just feel drained of energy and drive to do stuff.  Maybe that belongs in the "not stoked" thread, but i'm already here.

[Rumpleforeskin]

Hang in there Trendy, going through the same friend shit right now.

[apad88]

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I'm a shitty friend.

I tend to start avoiding friends who get less and less interested in skateboarding. I'm just so obsessed with skating that its all I want to do on my free time. If I'm not skating, its probably because of the weather or an injury. So this leads to getting a new group of friends every year for the past 5 years. And I already see it happening again soon. That's who I am in a nut shell.

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Yeah, most of the people I used to skate with quit for Black Ops.

This ^^^

[gutterhead.]

im a shitty boyfriend. I've been with my girl for almost four years and im starting to think the only reason im still with her is my fear of dying alone.

[Bronson]

Trying to quit my SSRI depression medication which I have been on for 4 years. Really hard, I feel so much (formerly suppressed) agression Im afraid that Im just going to loose it and punch some stranger in the face.

[Omamori]

Trying to quit my SSRI depression medication which I have been on for 4 years. Really hard, I feel so much (formerly suppressed) agression Im afraid that Im just going to loose it and punch some stranger in the face.

I know this may sound really out there, but watch the documentary Food Matters. A doctor on there prescribed niacin in high doses and it treated depression. Going the natural way is much better than taking medication. I also suggest you go to therapy if you haven't.

[Bronson]

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Trying to quit my SSRI depression medication which I have been on for 4 years. Really hard, I feel so much (formerly suppressed) agression Im afraid that Im just going to loose it and punch some stranger in the face.

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I know this may sound really out there, but watch the documentary Food Matters. A doctor on there prescribed niacin in high doses and it treated depression. Going the natural way is much better than taking medication. I also suggest you go to therapy if you haven't.

Currenty on my second year of therapy, which has been extremely beneficial. Maybe I will look into the food-thing one of these days but I kinda have some doubts on it. Thanks, though.

[Omamori]

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Trying to quit my SSRI depression medication which I have been on for 4 years. Really hard, I feel so much (formerly suppressed) agression Im afraid that Im just going to loose it and punch some stranger in the face.

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I know this may sound really out there, but watch the documentary Food Matters. A doctor on there prescribed niacin in high doses and it treated depression. Going the natural way is much better than taking medication. I also suggest you go to therapy if you haven't.

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Currenty on my second year of therapy, which has been extremely beneficial. Maybe I will look into the food-thing one of these days but I kinda have some doubts on it. Thanks, though.

I was a skeptic too, but after learning how much a healthy diet can impact the body and mind I had a change of thought. Best of luck with therapy and diet (if you do decided to take that route).

[look]

been lurkin slap for bout a year now, figured this would be a good place to start.
i sell my plasma for 60 dollars a week with crackheads and bums to pay for gas, ciggaretes and beer and now have trackmarks on my arm from doing this so much, this is my only source of income besides sometimes stealing from walmart and returning the shit for a giftcard. i am 20 years old and have been to jail for more than 30 days multiple times since i was 15 even though im a super nice good kid, i just need to survive and would never hurt anyone. this month alone i have to go to 5 court dates for different offenses and tickets. it should be overwhelming for me but its not, and i feel fucked up that it doesnt even effect me, i almost have no feelings pertaining to what happens to my life anymore and cannot cry nomater how hard i try. i feel like people think im weird fuck up kid but i really just want to be everybodys friend and be accepted and loved. the only thing keeping me going is the hope of me having a wife, house, kids, job, and a normal life for myself far away from where i live and learn how to get high airs on quarterpipes
sorry if i sound like a bitch

[Useful Idiot]

Can you go to a halfway house or something? Just as a starting point?

If you're not crazy or strung out, you should be able to get off the streets, granted it's hard, I'm sure.

[Dark Knight]

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Trying to quit my SSRI depression medication which I have been on for 4 years. Really hard, I feel so much (formerly suppressed) agression Im afraid that Im just going to loose it and punch some stranger in the face.

[close]

I know this may sound really out there, but watch the documentary Food Matters. A doctor on there prescribed niacin in high doses and it treated depression. Going the natural way is much better than taking medication. I also suggest you go to therapy if you haven't.

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Currenty on my second year of therapy, which has been extremely beneficial. Maybe I will look into the food-thing one of these days but I kinda have some doubts on it. Thanks, though.

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I was a skeptic too, but after learning how much a healthy diet can impact the body and mind I had a change of thought. Best of luck with therapy and diet (if you do decided to take that route).

B-50 supplement will also help

[Perro Mojado]

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Trying to quit my SSRI depression medication which I have been on for 4 years. Really hard, I feel so much (formerly suppressed) agression Im afraid that Im just going to loose it and punch some stranger in the face.

[close]

I know this may sound really out there, but watch the documentary Food Matters. A doctor on there prescribed niacin in high doses and it treated depression. Going the natural way is much better than taking medication. I also suggest you go to therapy if you haven't.

[close]

Currenty on my second year of therapy, which has been extremely beneficial. Maybe I will look into the food-thing one of these days but I kinda have some doubts on it. Thanks, though.

things that helped me

is a good diet

excersing (skating everyday)

and stopped jacking off that shit drains you more than you think

[Bronson]

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Trying to quit my SSRI depression medication which I have been on for 4 years. Really hard, I feel so much (formerly suppressed) agression Im afraid that Im just going to loose it and punch some stranger in the face.

[close]

I know this may sound really out there, but watch the documentary Food Matters. A doctor on there prescribed niacin in high doses and it treated depression. Going the natural way is much better than taking medication. I also suggest you go to therapy if you haven't.

[close]

Currenty on my second year of therapy, which has been extremely beneficial. Maybe I will look into the food-thing one of these days but I kinda have some doubts on it. Thanks, though.

[close]

things that helped me

is a good diet

excersing (skating everyday)

and stopped jacking off that shit drains you more than you think

Trying to change my diet (I look at food as a source of pleasure too much), Im also fat.

Unfortunately my skating is a bit limited as Im waiting for a hip-surgery. I still go pushing around and keeping it simple but I cant currently do it too much.

Funny thing about the jacking off, I want to taper off that a bit too, porn kinda messes with your brain.

[Omamori]

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Trying to quit my SSRI depression medication which I have been on for 4 years. Really hard, I feel so much (formerly suppressed) agression Im afraid that Im just going to loose it and punch some stranger in the face.

[close]

I know this may sound really out there, but watch the documentary Food Matters. A doctor on there prescribed niacin in high doses and it treated depression. Going the natural way is much better than taking medication. I also suggest you go to therapy if you haven't.

[close]

Currenty on my second year of therapy, which has been extremely beneficial. Maybe I will look into the food-thing one of these days but I kinda have some doubts on it. Thanks, though.

[close]

things that helped me

is a good diet

excersing (skating everyday)

and stopped jacking off that shit drains you more than you think

[close]

Trying to change my diet (I look at food as a source of pleasure too much), Im also fat.

Unfortunately my skating is a bit limited as Im waiting for a hip-surgery. I still go pushing around and keeping it simple but I cant currently do it too much.

Funny thing about the jacking off, I want to taper off that a bit too, porn kinda messes with your brain.

It's hard the first week or two. Overtime your body will adjust and you'll like the taste of healthy foods. You might also lose the urge to get junk food and if you do eat it your stomach might be upset.

[HeadInLionsMouth]

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Trying to quit my SSRI depression medication which I have been on for 4 years. Really hard, I feel so much (formerly suppressed) agression Im afraid that Im just going to loose it and punch some stranger in the face.

[close]

I know this may sound really out there, but watch the documentary Food Matters. A doctor on there prescribed niacin in high doses and it treated depression. Going the natural way is much better than taking medication. I also suggest you go to therapy if you haven't.

[close]

Currenty on my second year of therapy, which has been extremely beneficial. Maybe I will look into the food-thing one of these days but I kinda have some doubts on it. Thanks, though.

[close]

things that helped me

is a good diet

excersing (skating everyday)

and stopped jacking off that shit drains you more than you think

[close]

Trying to change my diet (I look at food as a source of pleasure too much), Im also fat.

Unfortunately my skating is a bit limited as Im waiting for a hip-surgery. I still go pushing around and keeping it simple but I cant currently do it too much.

Funny thing about the jacking off, I want to taper off that a bit too, porn kinda messes with your brain.

[close]

It's hard the first week or two. Overtime your body will adjust and you'll like the taste of healthy foods. You might also lose the urge to get junk food and if you do eat it your stomach might be upset.

Have you talked to the therapist or your doctor about steadily decreasing the amount you're taking?  You have to come down from that slowly, and there might be a better medicine for you if you're in a different place emotionally.

Also, it's been my experience, with stuff like changing eating habits, that if I can commit to something for 30 days or close to it then i'll be able to do it habitually.  Like TPFKACrass said, after the second week, you'll think about it less and less

[Bronson]

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Trying to quit my SSRI depression medication which I have been on for 4 years. Really hard, I feel so much (formerly suppressed) agression Im afraid that Im just going to loose it and punch some stranger in the face.

[close]

I know this may sound really out there, but watch the documentary Food Matters. A doctor on there prescribed niacin in high doses and it treated depression. Going the natural way is much better than taking medication. I also suggest you go to therapy if you haven't.

[close]

Currenty on my second year of therapy, which has been extremely beneficial. Maybe I will look into the food-thing one of these days but I kinda have some doubts on it. Thanks, though.

[close]

things that helped me

is a good diet

excersing (skating everyday)

and stopped jacking off that shit drains you more than you think

[close]

Trying to change my diet (I look at food as a source of pleasure too much), Im also fat.

Unfortunately my skating is a bit limited as Im waiting for a hip-surgery. I still go pushing around and keeping it simple but I cant currently do it too much.

Funny thing about the jacking off, I want to taper off that a bit too, porn kinda messes with your brain.

[close]

It's hard the first week or two. Overtime your body will adjust and you'll like the taste of healthy foods. You might also lose the urge to get junk food and if you do eat it your stomach might be upset.

[close]

Have you talked to the therapist or your doctor about steadily decreasing the amount you're taking?  You have to come down from that slowly, and there might be a better medicine for you if you're in a different place emotionally.

Also, it's been my experience, with stuff like changing eating habits, that if I can commit to something for 30 days or close to it then i'll be able to do it habitually.  Like TPFKACrass said, after the second week, you'll think about it less and less

Yes, I am coming off it very slowly. Mentally I'm in a way better place than a couple of years ago so I'm gonna just reach for the depressiondrug-free state of mind.

 I've been reading about how highly pleasurable and stimulating activity (such as eating fatty foods or looking at porn) actually makes changes in your brain. Thus obese people or porn addicts crave more and more to reach the same levels of pleasure and satiety as before. Just like most drug-addicts. And yes, these cravings are said to ease when you give your brain a while to rewire itself. Really interesting stuff.
  Thanks for the input guys, appreciate it.

[apad88]

I often seriously consider suicide

[Useful Idiot]

Think of all the pussy you're going to miss out on.

[jerrys_kids]

I often seriously consider suicide

I feel you.

[jerrys_kids]

I'm super gay and this is my boy friend.

[Numeral]

awesome

[FART BOY]

I'm definitely with some of the things I've read on here so far. I'm about to turn 19 and still look young, people say it's good but I truly hate it. Every time I skate and do any trick, even if I get props for it I still feel like it's complete shit. No matter how good I land it. Night life isn't cutting it for me anymore, it could be a moved away from people I would be out with a lot or whatever. But I've feel like my time has passed.. waking up with a hangover or drained is just too much of a chore now. Drinking, smoking, and doing whatever else almost every day during the week for a long time did me in. That also put me in a bad mental slump. I'm just starting to get out of it now but back then I could tell it was getting bad. Also, I'm from the north and hate everything about the south. The only time I like the towns or cities I go in is if it has a true feel of back then, which can go hand in hand that I can't let go of the past and regret too much.

More of a rant then a confession