been lurkin slap for bout a year now, figured this would be a good place to start.
i sell my plasma for 60 dollars a week with crackheads and bums to pay for gas, ciggaretes and beer and now have trackmarks on my arm from doing this so much, this is my only source of income besides sometimes stealing from walmart and returning the shit for a giftcard. i am 20 years old and have been to jail for more than 30 days multiple times since i was 15 even though im a super nice good kid, i just need to survive and would never hurt anyone. this month alone i have to go to 5 court dates for different offenses and tickets. it should be overwhelming for me but its not, and i feel fucked up that it doesnt even effect me, i almost have no feelings pertaining to what happens to my life anymore and cannot cry nomater how hard i try. i feel like people think im weird fuck up kid but i really just want to be everybodys friend and be accepted and loved. the only thing keeping me going is the hope of me having a wife, house, kids, job, and a normal life for myself far away from where i live and learn how to get high airs on quarterpipes
sorry if i sound like a bitch