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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3300 on: March 13, 2012, 10:36:37 PM »
the lost mind/schizo feeling will fade with time. tripping to mask anxieties, fear, and depression only furthers those feelings of existence. I've kicked it like that when i was around your age. I was hit by a car at 19, broke my legs, brain damage, the works. Ate a lot of drugs in the interim. nothing worked at that time... PM me if you want to level out. either way, keep a PMA.
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« Reply #3301 on: March 13, 2012, 10:36:59 PM »
dude toughen up. your problems are infinitely small, im depressed and have no friends/social disorder, its extremely hard but why would you ever want to die? you shouldnt need others validation either, and stop blaming others too. no one made you do drugs. plus your 'sick life' sounded pretty fucking lame. theres so much out there, and if you live in america or canada you are extremely lucky. didnt you notice in peru how everyone was happier and they live such simple lives? imagine how they would react if you explained your petty problems to them.
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« Reply #3302 on: March 14, 2012, 03:20:23 AM »
the lost mind/schizo feeling will fade with time. tripping to mask anxieties, fear, and depression only furthers those feelings of existence. I've kicked it like that when i was around your age. I was hit by a car at 19, broke my legs, brain damage, the works. Ate a lot of drugs in the interim. nothing worked at that time... PM me if you want to level out. either way, keep a PMA.

your definitely right about time fading that stuff but its rough man, still get these auditory hallucinations but ive been 6 months clean upstairs from the hard stuff and i have noticed some improvement.
That accident sounds shitty as fuck man how long has it been since?

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« Reply #3303 on: March 14, 2012, 03:34:06 AM »
dude toughen up. your problems are infinitely small, im depressed and have no friends/social disorder, its extremely hard but why would you ever want to die? you shouldnt need others validation either, and stop blaming others too. no one made you do drugs. plus your 'sick life' sounded pretty fucking lame. theres so much out there, and if you live in america or canada you are extremely lucky. didnt you notice in peru how everyone was happier and they live such simple lives? imagine how they would react if you explained your petty problems to them.

you do make some valid points and ill admit im not the only person with these kind of problems but ive never blamed anyone else for anything throughout these experiences.. my 'sick life' was pretty satisfying to me at that age, sorry if my happiness doesnt fit your description? and how the fuck would you know about anyone's life in Peru? have you been there? do you know anything about how they live? there exactly like us for the most part dude.. and why the fuck would i tell anyone my problems in real life? thats why im doing this here in the first place, to vent and possibly reach out to whoever cares enough to gives some positive feedback..

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3304 on: March 14, 2012, 09:16:44 AM »
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the lost mind/schizo feeling will fade with time. tripping to mask anxieties, fear, and depression only furthers those feelings of existence. I've kicked it like that when i was around your age. I was hit by a car at 19, broke my legs, brain damage, the works. Ate a lot of drugs in the interim. nothing worked at that time... PM me if you want to level out. either way, keep a PMA.
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your definitely right about time fading that stuff but its rough man, still get these auditory hallucinations but ive been 6 months clean upstairs from the hard stuff and i have noticed some improvement.
That accident sounds shitty as fuck man how long has it been since?

the accident was gnar, but in the long run, it's been an experience in perseverance, learning, and confidence. It was 8 years ago on Saturday. Which is strange because I hadn't thought about it in a while. Saturday was a beautiful night too, almost subconsciously celebratory!

Also, hallucinations can take YEARS to fade away. If you're smoking ganja they will be far more pronounced and prevalent in your daily life. For me anyways, I hit a point where tripping a little bit, without taking anything, from time to time (trails, noises, etc) became the norm and i realized why it was happening. I learned that although it felt strange and inconvenient, there was nothing permanently wrong. I  just let myself move with it.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3305 on: March 14, 2012, 10:51:01 AM »
I think Im picking bad girls to fall for . Girls already involved with somebody , girls with drug problems / on drugs , girls who dont have a good career or job at all , Girls that live far away . Not sure why I keep getting interested in these women cause nothing good ever really comes from it .

I should prob find some cute chick with a nice job who likes to go out but isnt a total pile , but it never seems to work out like that ...

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« Reply #3306 on: March 14, 2012, 11:42:34 PM »
I think Im picking bad girls to fall for . Girls already involved with somebody , girls with drug problems / on drugs , girls who dont have a good career or job at all , Girls that live far away . Not sure why I keep getting interested in these women cause nothing good ever really comes from it .

I should prob find some cute chick with a nice job who likes to go out but isnt a total pile , but it never seems to work out like that ...

i fam i feel you on that shit. too many nickels and not enough dimes. you gotta really be on your shit to get a REAL woman nowadays, and theres a lot more hoes in pretty clothing as well

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3307 on: March 15, 2012, 03:22:40 AM »
I think Im picking bad girls to fall for . Girls already involved with somebody , girls with drug problems / on drugs , girls who dont have a good career or job at all , Girls that live far away . Not sure why I keep getting interested in these women cause nothing good ever really comes from it .

I should prob find some cute chick with a nice job who likes to go out but isnt a total pile , but it never seems to work out like that ...

count me in. for some reason i am always attracted to difficult women, whether its their life situation or if they are crazy or shit like that. maybe because its more challenging. or maybe because my dick is regular.

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« Reply #3308 on: March 15, 2012, 10:22:42 PM »
ok round 3 of DaSk8D00D confessions. again im just typing off the top of the dome so bear with me here.

ok real talk im bout to stop postin on slap for a while. im also gonna stop smokin weed, getting on facebook, and playing video games. ive withdrawn from college due to a draining financial situation between my divorced parents (verrry long story) and after my mom had a minor stroke that was stress related, i just said fuck it im handle my bidness on my own. im working full time now, fully focused (or at least thats what i want to be) on my music career. all the stars are aligning right now i just gotta put in work on this mixtape to finish it up. itll really be some next level shit, but anyway im taking a break from all that shit i mentioned earlier cuz its all distractions. i feel like for the next few weeks i needa use my free time only on writing music, skateboarding when i can, and reading books. ive gotta pretty big collection already but ive also bought two new books on communication. ones just the general conversation type book and the other is one on the art of verbal self-defense. im stoked on these shits forreal.  im tryna become more self-disciplined, charismatic (even more) and able to adapt to any given situation at any given time. i feel like working full time (almost been my first week doing so) is gonna help me get more used to being on the grind everyday, and my schedule is fairly good for how i want to manage my time.

with the weed its still the same ol battle. shit makes me lazy. and even when i try not to i STILL end up smokin. someone once said i should only smoke when friends smoke me out or whatever, but that shit happens so much it wouldnt make a difference. im really tryna get on my grind at this point in my life, follow my dreams & accomplish as many goals as possible, but the habit of smoking weed everyday REALLY gets in the way of that, not to mention payin for that funky dank all the time can really empty my wallet. i feel like a clear mind would do me good, i just gotta have to the willpower to do it. been sober all day so i might as well ima start now. as far as slap and all that other shit, its really just a distraction. like i said earlier i could spend all the time i spend on here on something more productive, and even tho this shits a great time killer at work i just gotta leave it alone for a while. what i really wanna do is get on twitter more cuz my tweets be fire and i know i can use that shit as a great networking tool, i just be fuckin around on facebook or whatever instead tho. im just tryna put all these distractions to the side and really get on my shit ya know? so after tonight, i aint gon be on the forums for a while. the flame wars were fun while they lasted but now its just whatever, another waste of time & energy.

i dunno if ive said everything ive wanted to say yet cuz i dont really know all what i just typed, but i guess thatll do for now. see ya later SLAP, ill be M.I.A. soon...

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3309 on: March 16, 2012, 04:45:19 PM »
you're like a black rawbertson

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3310 on: March 16, 2012, 04:45:45 PM »
thats not an insult btw

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« Reply #3311 on: March 16, 2012, 06:05:13 PM »
my ex-girlfriend and i finally decided things just aren't gonna work anymore after trying again a couple of times, and kinda said our goodbyes today. i don't know if i'll find someone like her again.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3312 on: March 16, 2012, 06:19:16 PM »
my ex-girlfriend and i finally decided things just aren't gonna work anymore after trying again a couple of times, and kinda said our goodbyes today. i don't know if i'll find someone like her again.

Well, if it didn't work out, hopefully you won't.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3313 on: March 16, 2012, 06:25:56 PM »
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my ex-girlfriend and i finally decided things just aren't gonna work anymore after trying again a couple of times, and kinda said our goodbyes today. i don't know if i'll find someone like her again.
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Well, if it didn't work out, hopefully you won't.
Precisely.

My uncle is an asshole but he has said one thing profound to me that helped me get over the one big break-up I had to deal with last May - You never know what you are looking for until you find it.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3314 on: March 16, 2012, 07:48:54 PM »
sk8dood you cant leave slap the game needs you!

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« Reply #3315 on: March 16, 2012, 08:33:38 PM »
sk8dood you cant leave slap the game needs you!

you know what fam? i think you right. im about 200 posts away from PAL-dom so i might as well go for the gold. SOMEBODY gotta be the voice of reason round here and it might as well be me...the Brock Lesnar of SLAP

and to Beer Keg Peg Leg, thank you i take that as a compliment of the highest caliber.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3316 on: March 16, 2012, 11:52:27 PM »
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sk8dood you cant leave slap the game needs you!
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you know what fam? i think you right. im about 200 posts away from PAL-dom so i might as well go for the gold. SOMEBODY gotta be the voice of reason round here and it might as well be me...the Brock Lesnar of SLAP

and to Beer Keg Peg Leg, thank you i take that as a compliment of the highest caliber.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3317 on: March 17, 2012, 01:59:16 PM »
sk8dood you cant leave slap the game needs you!

Yeah, don't leave.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3318 on: March 18, 2012, 10:51:13 PM »
ok round 3 of DaSk8D00D confessions. again im just typing off the top of the dome so bear with me here.

ok real talk im bout to stop postin on slap for a while. im also gonna stop smokin weed, getting on facebook, and playing video games. ive withdrawn from college due to a draining financial situation between my divorced parents (verrry long story) and after my mom had a minor stroke that was stress related, i just said fuck it im handle my bidness on my own. im working full time now, fully focused (or at least thats what i want to be) on my music career. all the stars are aligning right now i just gotta put in work on this mixtape to finish it up. itll really be some next level shit, but anyway im taking a break from all that shit i mentioned earlier cuz its all distractions. i feel like for the next few weeks i needa use my free time only on writing music, skateboarding when i can, and reading books. ive gotta pretty big collection already but ive also bought two new books on communication. ones just the general conversation type book and the other is one on the art of verbal self-defense. im stoked on these shits forreal.?  im tryna become more self-disciplined, charismatic (even more) and able to adapt to any given situation at any given time. i feel like working full time (almost been my first week doing so) is gonna help me get more used to being on the grind everyday, and my schedule is fairly good for how i want to manage my time.

with the weed its still the same ol battle. shit makes me lazy. and even when i try not to i STILL end up smokin. someone once said i should only smoke when friends smoke me out or whatever, but that shit happens so much it wouldnt make a difference. im really tryna get on my grind at this point in my life, follow my dreams & accomplish as many goals as possible, but the habit of smoking weed everyday REALLY gets in the way of that, not to mention payin for that funky dank all the time can really empty my wallet. i feel like a clear mind would do me good, i just gotta have to the willpower to do it. been sober all day so i might as well ima start now. as far as slap and all that other shit, its really just a distraction. like i said earlier i could spend all the time i spend on here on something more productive, and even tho this shits a great time killer at work i just gotta leave it alone for a while. what i really wanna do is get on twitter more cuz my tweets be fire and i know i can use that shit as a great networking tool, i just be fuckin around on facebook or whatever instead tho. im just tryna put all these distractions to the side and really get on my shit ya know? so after tonight, i aint gon be on the forums for a while. the flame wars were fun while they lasted but now its just whatever, another waste of time & energy.

i dunno if ive said everything ive wanted to say yet cuz i dont really know all what i just typed, but i guess thatll do for now. see ya later SLAP, ill be M.I.A. soon...

Wait you are leaving SLAP because you could be doing more productive things with your time....like "tweeting" more?


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« Reply #3319 on: March 19, 2012, 08:37:07 AM »
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ok round 3 of DaSk8D00D confessions. again im just typing off the top of the dome so bear with me here.

ok real talk im bout to stop postin on slap for a while. im also gonna stop smokin weed, getting on facebook, and playing video games. ive withdrawn from college due to a draining financial situation between my divorced parents (verrry long story) and after my mom had a minor stroke that was stress related, i just said fuck it im handle my bidness on my own. im working full time now, fully focused (or at least thats what i want to be) on my music career. all the stars are aligning right now i just gotta put in work on this mixtape to finish it up. itll really be some next level shit, but anyway im taking a break from all that shit i mentioned earlier cuz its all distractions. i feel like for the next few weeks i needa use my free time only on writing music, skateboarding when i can, and reading books. ive gotta pretty big collection already but ive also bought two new books on communication. ones just the general conversation type book and the other is one on the art of verbal self-defense. im stoked on these shits forreal.?  im tryna become more self-disciplined, charismatic (even more) and able to adapt to any given situation at any given time. i feel like working full time (almost been my first week doing so) is gonna help me get more used to being on the grind everyday, and my schedule is fairly good for how i want to manage my time.

with the weed its still the same ol battle. shit makes me lazy. and even when i try not to i STILL end up smokin. someone once said i should only smoke when friends smoke me out or whatever, but that shit happens so much it wouldnt make a difference. im really tryna get on my grind at this point in my life, follow my dreams & accomplish as many goals as possible, but the habit of smoking weed everyday REALLY gets in the way of that, not to mention payin for that funky dank all the time can really empty my wallet. i feel like a clear mind would do me good, i just gotta have to the willpower to do it. been sober all day so i might as well ima start now. as far as slap and all that other shit, its really just a distraction. like i said earlier i could spend all the time i spend on here on something more productive, and even tho this shits a great time killer at work i just gotta leave it alone for a while. what i really wanna do is get on twitter more cuz my tweets be fire and i know i can use that shit as a great networking tool, i just be fuckin around on facebook or whatever instead tho. im just tryna put all these distractions to the side and really get on my shit ya know? so after tonight, i aint gon be on the forums for a while. the flame wars were fun while they lasted but now its just whatever, another waste of time & energy.

i dunno if ive said everything ive wanted to say yet cuz i dont really know all what i just typed, but i guess thatll do for now. see ya later SLAP, ill be M.I.A. soon...
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Wait you are leaving SLAP because you could be doing more productive things with your time....like "tweeting" more?



among other things like writing more & reading books. twitter is an excellent networking tool for up & coming artists. ive got homies who ended up getting "twitter famous" w/ like 50,000+ followers and whenever they drop some new shit they have that audience to promote it to. dont underestimate that shit.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3320 on: March 19, 2012, 10:58:45 AM »
you're like a black rawbertson
thats not an insult btw

I can't think of a worse way of offending Rawb.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3321 on: March 20, 2012, 02:29:46 PM »
Today, I had way too much coffee and had crazy watershits in the public bathroom. I clogged that motherfucker and just left. Toilet all filled with shit soup. I feel bad for whoever has to clean that up. My bad.
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« Reply #3322 on: March 20, 2012, 04:18:01 PM »
real confession: i find slap to be alot more fun as a troll

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« Reply #3323 on: March 22, 2012, 04:20:12 PM »
Today, I had way too much coffee and had crazy watershits in the public bathroom. I clogged that motherfucker and just left. Toilet all filled with shit soup. I feel bad for whoever has to clean that up. My bad.

this is how this thread should be utilized

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« Reply #3324 on: March 25, 2012, 01:13:21 PM »
Got really drunk last night and woke up this morning naked on my back porch, feeling surprisingly not hungover and refreshed. Then i stepped in my neighbor's dog's shit barefoot walking back into the house. Had to hose my foot off outside in the garage, naked.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3325 on: March 25, 2012, 03:33:09 PM »
Cats aren't funny

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« Reply #3326 on: March 26, 2012, 07:34:39 AM »
Got really drunk last night and woke up this morning naked on my back porch, feeling surprisingly not hungover and refreshed. Then i stepped in my neighbor's dog's shit barefoot walking back into the house. Had to hose my foot off outside in the garage, naked.

Hahaha.  Naked and outdoors?  Good work.

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« Reply #3327 on: March 27, 2012, 06:43:59 PM »
Had a dream last night where I had to get across town, and my only means of transportation was a pair of rollerblades... and it was fun as hell.

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« Reply #3328 on: March 27, 2012, 11:54:56 PM »
I lead a boring as fuck life, but I'm content with it.

I've got a routine, which I like. I work 5 days a week, and the other 2 days I'm studying. I lied to get my job. Basically I'd worked a few jobs here & there, but nothing really all that long to get a reference out of it. It was for a experienced  customer service role, I bluffed my way through the phone interview then the 2nd interview. I almost got found out in the first month that I hadn't done customer service before. I was shy, didn't know how to deal with customers, and they would complain about me. 18 months on I'm probably the most treasured staff member and am looking to move up the organisation. I'm 21, and all of my disposable is income. I make 54K a year & I still live at home, so I pay no rent. The only thing I pay for is mobile phone, Internet & landline bill. I blow a lot of my money on shoes, clothes, cab rides, food, records and books. Only in the last 10 or so months have I really started to save (In the first  8 or so months, I blew 34K and I had nothing to show for it besides a wardrobe full of shoeboxes). I hate people. I wish I didn't. But I always look for the negatives in people. I find myself sitting on Facebook reading peoples status updates and talk out aloud when something posts something really generic. 'Why are you telling everyone this? What is wrong with you?. I can count friends on one hand who don't annoy me at all. The other 22 people I work with are fucking plebs. I can't engage in conversation with them about anything, as usually they talk about how hung over they are or the movie fast & furious. I thank god I wasn't born with their brain. Why am I telling you guys this?

I've been skating on & off since 1999. I've had Eczema on my left foot my whole life. It comes & goes, when it goes, it's great I'll skate constantly. When it comes, I don't skate for months, when I try to skate when I have it, usually within 5 mins I have to stop.

& yeah that's basically it! I'M A BORING DUDE  :P :P

Oh, I have about 10 girls I can sext at any given time. I have a good wank bank.

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« Reply #3329 on: March 28, 2012, 12:07:54 AM »
I lead a boring as fuck life, but I'm content with it.

I've got a routine, which I like. I work 5 days a week, and the other 2 days I'm studying. I lied to get my job. Basically I'd worked a few jobs here & there, but nothing really all that long to get a reference out of it. It was for a experienced  customer service role, I bluffed my way through the phone interview then the 2nd interview. I almost got found out in the first month that I hadn't done customer service before. I was shy, didn't know how to deal with customers, and they would complain about me. 18 months on I'm probably the most treasured staff member and am looking to move up the organisation. I'm 21, and all of my disposable is income. I make 54K a year & I still live at home, so I pay no rent. The only thing I pay for is mobile phone, Internet & landline bill. I blow a lot of my money on shoes, clothes, cab rides, food, records and books. Only in the last 10 or so months have I really started to save (In the first  8 or so months, I blew 34K and I had nothing to show for it besides a wardrobe full of shoeboxes). I hate people. I wish I didn't. But I always look for the negatives in people. I find myself sitting on Facebook reading peoples status updates and talk out aloud when something posts something really generic. 'Why are you telling everyone this? What is wrong with you?. I can count friends on one hand who don't annoy me at all. The other 22 people I work with are fucking plebs. I can't engage in conversation with them about anything, as usually they talk about how hung over they are or the movie fast & furious. I thank god I wasn't born with their brain. Why am I telling you guys this?

I've been skating on & off since 1999. I've had Eczema on my left foot my whole life. It comes & goes, when it goes, it's great I'll skate constantly. When it comes, I don't skate for months, when I try to skate when I have it, usually within 5 mins I have to stop.

& yeah that's basically it! I'M A BORING DUDE  :P :P

Oh, I have about 10 girls I can sext at any given time. I have a good wank bank.

you seem like somebody i could get along with.