ok round 3 of DaSk8D00D confessions. again im just typing off the top of the dome so bear with me here.
ok real talk im bout to stop postin on slap for a while. im also gonna stop smokin weed, getting on facebook, and playing video games. ive withdrawn from college due to a draining financial situation between my divorced parents (verrry long story) and after my mom had a minor stroke that was stress related, i just said fuck it im handle my bidness on my own. im working full time now, fully focused (or at least thats what i want to be) on my music career. all the stars are aligning right now i just gotta put in work on this mixtape to finish it up. itll really be some next level shit, but anyway im taking a break from all that shit i mentioned earlier cuz its all distractions. i feel like for the next few weeks i needa use my free time only on writing music, skateboarding when i can, and reading books. ive gotta pretty big collection already but ive also bought two new books on communication. ones just the general conversation type book and the other is one on the art of verbal self-defense. im stoked on these shits forreal. im tryna become more self-disciplined, charismatic (even more) and able to adapt to any given situation at any given time. i feel like working full time (almost been my first week doing so) is gonna help me get more used to being on the grind everyday, and my schedule is fairly good for how i want to manage my time.
with the weed its still the same ol battle. shit makes me lazy. and even when i try not to i STILL end up smokin. someone once said i should only smoke when friends smoke me out or whatever, but that shit happens so much it wouldnt make a difference. im really tryna get on my grind at this point in my life, follow my dreams & accomplish as many goals as possible, but the habit of smoking weed everyday REALLY gets in the way of that, not to mention payin for that funky dank all the time can really empty my wallet. i feel like a clear mind would do me good, i just gotta have to the willpower to do it. been sober all day so i might as well ima start now. as far as slap and all that other shit, its really just a distraction. like i said earlier i could spend all the time i spend on here on something more productive, and even tho this shits a great time killer at work i just gotta leave it alone for a while. what i really wanna do is get on twitter more cuz my tweets be fire and i know i can use that shit as a great networking tool, i just be fuckin around on facebook or whatever instead tho. im just tryna put all these distractions to the side and really get on my shit ya know? so after tonight, i aint gon be on the forums for a while. the flame wars were fun while they lasted but now its just whatever, another waste of time & energy.
i dunno if ive said everything ive wanted to say yet cuz i dont really know all what i just typed, but i guess thatll do for now. see ya later SLAP, ill be M.I.A. soon...