real confessions

[ice nine]

Some dude told me I was cute tonight and I was so flattered that all I did was laugh and smile. I feel if you're straight and another man hits on you you're supposed to act aggressively but I like compliments too much to react that way.

dont be a tease. i had a couple encounters with gay dudes last year and i was just dancing and treating them like i'd treat my straight male friends, which they took as flirting. one grabbed my dick and the other guy got super mad at me when i told him i wasnt into guys. these were different events a few months apart. i ended up sleeping with them out of guilt

[MuchasGracias]

Some dude told me I was cute tonight and I was so flattered that all I did was laugh and smile. I feel if you're straight and another man hits on you you're supposed to act aggressively but I like compliments too much to react that way.

Or maybe you need to question your sexuality.

[BraveUlysses]

I'M NOT A FAG I ONLY LIKE WOMEN I SWEAR! I'll PROVE IT BY POSTING A PHOTO OF LARGE BREASTS!





Edit: I couldn't find any breasts that appealed to me but check this dude out!

[dillanharp]

If I don't have a few drinks every day I get the shakes.  I've gained 30 pounds in the last year and a half from drinking.  I haven't been skating, other than to the bar or liquor store. I have my first kid on the way and I need to get this shit under control before he pops out and my wife leaves my ass. I've been looking for groups in my area, something without the church element, but nothing seems legit.

[LegendinmyOwnMind]

If I don't have a few drinks every day I get the shakes.  I've gained 30 pounds in the last year and a half from drinking.  I haven't been skating, other than to the bar or liquor store. I have my first kid on the way and I need to get this shit under control before he pops out and my wife leaves my ass. I've been looking for groups in my area, something without the church element, but nothing seems legit.

go to AA dude....I was a shitbag heroin addict for like 5 years, only skated to my dealers house or to the store or whatever, life was completely in shambles. I got to a point where I had to make some changes or die/go to prison forever and started going to meetings. I've got just under 7 months sober now and life is fucking awesome, and my skating is better today than it's ever been

[steve]

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If I don't have a few drinks every day I get the shakes.  I've gained 30 pounds in the last year and a half from drinking.  I haven't been skating, other than to the bar or liquor store. I have my first kid on the way and I need to get this shit under control before he pops out and my wife leaves my ass. I've been looking for groups in my area, something without the church element, but nothing seems legit.

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go to AA dude....I was a shitbag heroin addict for like 5 years, only skated to my dealers house or to the store or whatever, life was completely in shambles. I got to a point where I had to make some changes or die/go to prison forever and started going to meetings. I've got just under 7 months sober now and life is fucking awesome, and my skating is better today than it's ever been

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word up, homie. one of my oldest homies has been clean for about a month now, after another one od'd about a month and a half ago. He was in the same situation and skating seems to be working. stay clean.

I haven't drank in 2 weeks. This is the longest I've got in about 10 years. No greens either. Just mad yoga, raw fruit/veggie smoothies, lentils, beans, and running. I feel like a champ. And I am almost fearful to start drinking again. It's not like i don't hold down a job and take decent care of myself but i spend most of the cash i make on drinking beers and shit. If i start at 1pm it's on until bedtime, if i start at 8pm it's on til 1am. Like i said i feel great, like a fucking champ. Clean and it's a weird place to be in because I started doing this as a cleanse/28th birthday gift to myself and didn't really want to drink until today, but I'm pushing for the end of June anyways, and don't know if i want to start up again because of how i feel clean and sober.

[Beeda Weeda]

I think I like Alabama shakes.

[LegendinmyOwnMind]

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word up, homie. one of my oldest homies has been clean for about a month now, after another one od'd about a month and a half ago. He was in the same situation and skating seems to be working. stay clean.

I haven't drank in 2 weeks. This is the longest I've got in about 10 years. No greens either. Just mad yoga, raw fruit/veggie smoothies, lentils, beans, and running. I feel like a champ. And I am almost fearful to start drinking again. It's not like i don't hold down a job and take decent care of myself but i spend most of the cash i make on drinking beers and shit. If i start at 1pm it's on until bedtime, if i start at 8pm it's on til 1am. Like i said i feel great, like a fucking champ. Clean and it's a weird place to be in because I started doing this as a cleanse/28th birthday gift to myself and didn't really want to drink until today, but I'm pushing for the end of June anyways, and don't know if i want to start up again because of how i feel clean and sober.


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I don't hate on anybody for drinking/partying, lots of people can handle it without having it negatively effecting their life, I'm just not one of them. I encourage anybody who feels that their partying is fucking up their life to get sober though. I tried for a long time just on my own, or trying to only smoke weed and not drink/do hard drugs but honestly the only way I've been able to do it and be happy is by going to AA. Going to meetings isn't for everyone, but it's worked for me.

If things are going good for you and you feel good sober, why go back to drinking? I got to the point where any of the positive aspects of partying were long gone, and every time I'd start getting fucked up again after being sober for a while it wasn't even fun anymore. Anyway I'll end my rant about getting sober and shit, It's just sad because I know of SO many dudes I used to skate with that were gnarly skaters that don't even skate anymore because all they do is drink/do heroin/smoke crack/whatever. Like I said I didn't even really skate for a few years because I was caught up partying/hustling, and now that I'm sober my skating has gotten so much better and I feel like a 14 year old again skating every day and loving every minute of it

[Mundungus]

too much coke 

[69]

i think i have schizophrenia???????????????????????????????????????????????

[MuchasGracias]

You probably do.

[SodaJerk]

too much coke 

Been there, done that. Realised I was just being an asshole pile and never touched it again. Now when I see people hitting it I feel sorry for them, that drug is a straight up lie.

[SodaJerk]

I'm struggling in the friend department as well.

I grew up with a ton of friends. All through highschool, and college. I joined the Marine Corps, and had plenty of friends then too. Now that I have gotten out of the Marine Corps, I moved back to my hometown, and have no friends. I'm not sure if its related to being in the military, but I kind of developed a weird anti-socialness or something. When I first moved back, I completely avoided hanging out with anyone. Now, I'm always looking to go skate with someone, go out on the weekend, or just do something in general, and find myself skating alone, or chilling at home. I do have a great girlfriend that I live with, but I'd like to have friends again. Just seems awkward trying to forcefully make friends at 27 years old.

Geez I feel regular now.

Nearly ten years ago I moved 11000 miles away from where I'd spent most of my life. I hadn't been skating much and when I moved I had to focus on work and getting established in a new city. On the weekends I would drink, do coke and ecstasy and party without sleep for days. I was in a failing relationship and didn't skate for years. Always had a board but never skated more than to the shop and back. Few years back I got a new girl who told me that the drugs had to stop so I did that, and suddenly the majority of my so called friends stopped calling. Wasn't bothered. Started skating a little again and realised how much I'd missed it but didn't know any others skaters even though there were plenty around. Then I'd make weird excuses not to go out skating and chill all day with my dog even with my girlfriend encouraging me to go skate, then a family member clued me into the possibility that my behaviour might be related to anxiety and depression that runs in the family so I waited a few months then finally bit the bullet and saw a doctor. I was diagnosed with severe anxiety and mild depression and sent to Cognative Behavioural Therapy and given anti anxiety medication. The last year I've been going skating mostly by myself at local skateparks and spots and loving it. Now that I'm more present I'm getting to know more of the other guys and skating with them more. They're generally ten years younger than me but that's fine as they're typically good guys. I still go skating by myself but its cool to hook up with crew and I see in the future getting more sessions with a crew but I'd say if you learn to enjoy skating by yourself eventually you'll stumble on someone else to skate with.

[wildbillhiccup]

i have horrible posts on slap:( or do i?

[69]

i have horrible posts on slap:( or do i?

is this a riddle?

[wildbillhiccup]

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i have horrible posts on slap:( or do i?

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is this a riddle?

it cold be a haiku
but im not sure if it is one
can u tell me 69

[69]

looks like a paradox to me

[wildbillhiccup]

looks like a paradox to me

im a fucking walking paradox tehe

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looks like a paradox to me

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im a fucking walking paradox tehe

69 is an enigma. Not to give him too much credit.

[Coastal Fever]

Then I'd make weird excuses not to go out skating and chill all day with my dog even with my girlfriend encouraging me to go skate, then a family member clued me into the possibility that my behaviour might be related to anxiety and depression that runs in the family so I waited a few months then finally bit the bullet and saw a doctor. I was diagnosed with severe anxiety and mild depression and sent to Cognative Behavioural Therapy and given anti anxiety medication.

How does one tell if their anxiety/depression is the cause, or result, of drugs and alcohol?  I've mentioned to friends that maybe if I took meds I wouldn't want to get wasted all the time.  They usually just say something stupid like "everyone's depressed, suck it up".

It's fucked that in Canada, physical health is covered, but mental isn't.  What if I feel I need to talk to a professional, but don't have hundreds of dollars?  It seems the only way to get free mental health care is to turn yourself in as a threat to others/yourself aka get locked up.

[ice nine]

yea, it is pretty shitty, my health coverage only covers 200$ a year for psychiatrist, which is 3 appointments. you can't solve shit in 3 appointments and it felt like half the session was him selling me on his services so id keep coming back, paying out of pocket. he was a nice guy but it's just a flawed system. now I basically have to wait untill 2014 before I can see him/anyone again.

[Merked]

^^ Sometimes just talking with a good friend can have the same benefits as seeing a psychiatrist.  You just have to find the right person.  Someone who will listen and give constructive feedback.  This was actually recommended to me from a psychatric proffessor at my college.  He basically elaborated on the fact that psychiatrics can never hurt, but are really only drasitcally needed in severe cases.  Those cases being when you need meds prescribed.  Meds are rarely the answer in my opinion; but, they have their uses.

I have seen anxiety/depression destroy some of my friends social abilities and I also suffer from bouts of anxiety myself.  I would just suggest finding someone who you can trust to talk to; that is, if you cannot afford a pyschiatrist.  It has helped my friends and I deal with this bullshit.  

Also, interesting theory, I have read articles and studies depicting anxiety and depression as just misplaced fear due to the fact that we live in such comfort.  Anxiety generates itself in the idol atmosphere.  When I am skating or busy with a task at hand, my anxiety seems to dissipate.  It is basically implying that we fear or "become anxious" of something because we have so little to fear in our daily lives.  Think the cavemen were anxious when trying find a fucking mammoth to kill?  No they were scared for their life.  Anxiety is our brains fucking us raw and it sucks.  This train of thought has also helped in reducing my own and my friends anxiety.
 
Sorry for the long post.

Stay up guys.

[nino brown]

this thread is depre$$ing. all yall talk about is crying over ex's, being a crackhead and not getting laid at all.

will somebody start confessing about some dope shit? like finally fucking your girl in the ass or talking your girl into a threesome??finding a sack on chronic??


too much crying and not enough hype






im still down wit depre$$edboiz tho s/o depre$$edboiz

[L33Tg33k]

No worries, Nino. The moment I am no longer depressed and beat up some pussy for the first time, this will be the first place I go. I'll give all the deets.

[69]

i want to suck some cute guys dick but i dont want my friends to find out

[paraquat]

Sharon ya fillinz is gay.

[Turtle Boy]

^^ Sometimes just talking with a good friend can have the same benefits as seeing a psychiatrist.  You just have to find the right person.  Someone who will listen and give constructive feedback.  This was actually recommended to me from a psychatric proffessor at my college.  He basically elaborated on the fact that psychiatrics can never hurt, but are really only drasitcally needed in severe cases.  Those cases being when you need meds prescribed.  Meds are rarely the answer in my opinion; but, they have their uses.

I have seen anxiety/depression destroy some of my friends social abilities and I also suffer from bouts of anxiety myself.  I would just suggest finding someone who you can trust to talk to; that is, if you cannot afford a pyschiatrist.  It has helped my friends and I deal with this bullshit.  

Also, interesting theory, I have read articles and studies depicting anxiety and depression as just misplaced fear due to the fact that we live in such comfort.  Anxiety generates itself in the idol atmosphere.  When I am skating or busy with a task at hand, my anxiety seems to dissipate.  It is basically implying that we fear or "become anxious" of something because we have so little to fear in our daily lives.  Think the cavemen were anxious when trying find a fucking mammoth to kill?  No they were scared for their life.  Anxiety is our brains fucking us raw and it sucks.  This train of thought has also helped in reducing my own and my friends anxiety.
 
Sorry for the long post.

Stay up guys.

Really interesting

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^^ Sometimes just talking with a good friend can have the same benefits as seeing a psychiatrist.  You just have to find the right person.  Someone who will listen and give constructive feedback.  This was actually recommended to me from a psychatric proffessor at my college.  He basically elaborated on the fact that psychiatrics can never hurt, but are really only drasitcally needed in severe cases.  Those cases being when you need meds prescribed.  Meds are rarely the answer in my opinion; but, they have their uses.

I have seen anxiety/depression destroy some of my friends social abilities and I also suffer from bouts of anxiety myself.  I would just suggest finding someone who you can trust to talk to; that is, if you cannot afford a pyschiatrist.  It has helped my friends and I deal with this bullshit.  

Also, interesting theory, I have read articles and studies depicting anxiety and depression as just misplaced fear due to the fact that we live in such comfort.  Anxiety generates itself in the idol atmosphere.  When I am skating or busy with a task at hand, my anxiety seems to dissipate.  It is basically implying that we fear or "become anxious" of something because we have so little to fear in our daily lives.  Think the cavemen were anxious when trying find a fucking mammoth to kill?  No they were scared for their life.  Anxiety is our brains fucking us raw and it sucks.  This train of thought has also helped in reducing my own and my friends anxiety.
 
Sorry for the long post.

Stay up guys.

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Really interesting

Thanks for that merked. I honestly feel most people can get over their anxiety and depression by "pushing through it" or going about they business.

[SodaJerk]

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Thanks for that merked. I honestly feel most people can get over their anxiety and depression by "pushing through it" or going about they business.
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Yeah I thought the same thing too, for years I tried, sometimes succeeded, but I and many others have a chemical imbalance that doesn't allow this to always happen. It can be temporary or ongoing and I was really apprehensive to trying a pharmaceutical option but I was on the verge of destroying a lot of good things in my life and went for it. So far it's been a positive for me. It might not work for everyone and I'd tell people to exhaust other option first but once you have don't be afraid to admit that you might need a little adjusting in the feel good department of the brain.

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Also, interesting theory, I have read articles and studies depicting anxiety and depression as just misplaced fear due to the fact that we live in such comfort.  Anxiety generates itself in the idol atmosphere.  When I am skating or busy with a task at hand, my anxiety seems to dissipate.  It is basically implying that we fear or "become anxious" of something because we have so little to fear in our daily lives.  Think the cavemen were anxious when trying find a fucking mammoth to kill?  No they were scared for their life.  Anxiety is our brains fucking us raw and it sucks.  This train of thought has also helped in reducing my own

Fear is essential and can help you become better by triumphing it. The problem with anxiety can be that the fear is irrational and you can't reason around it. Cognitive Behavioural therapy will help you to reason your way to a solution but in my case it was just the endorphins and neural receptors were misfiring. I also had developed a lifestyle that meant I didn't have people I could trust around to talk through things or distract me long enough for the anxiety to subside.

How does one tell if their anxiety/depression is the cause, or result, of drugs and alcohol?  I've mentioned to friends that maybe if I took meds I wouldn't want to get wasted all the time.  They usually just say something stupid like "everyone's depressed, suck it up".


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I'm fortunate enough to live somewhere where mental health is prioritised just as much as physical health. I often wondered if what I was feeling was a result or cause of drug and alcohol use and after stopping drugs and reducing alcohol to low levels it was pretty but not entirely evident that the problem was most likely internal rather than external. I really feel for you if it's going to cost you to but you might be able to seek help from community funded sources. Seek them out and don't assume that because they are free they are any less valuable. The greatest problem with mental health issues is that they are still taboo and people are quick to judge or ashamed to say.

[Merked]

^^ In my post I was implying that the person did not have any definite physiological causes for their anxiety/depression.  Of course in cases when your brain is overproducing or underproducing chemicals, one needs to seek professional therapy/medication.  From what I understand, a lot of anxiety cases don't amount to such needs, but should always be examined through testing.  CAT Scans and MRI's are crazy.  Our brains are crazy.  Anxiety is a total Mind Fuck in every sense of the term.