On the other end of the relationship spectrum, I've been in a relationship for a little over a year now and I don't think I want to be in it anymore. I don't know what it is. Whatever was there when the relationship started just isn't there for me anymore. The only thing is that I feel like it would really fuck her up if I broke up with her. She seems a lot more invested in the relationship than I still am, but the bigger problem is that she's had self-harm issues and suicidal thoughts in the past. I think she's past all that, but I feel like those are things that could come back very quickly. She also says that I helped a lot with all the problems she was dealing with. It's probably also bad that I recently discovered that I like going to parties and shit and I feel like I'm going to drunkenly break up with her one of these times. I feel like a jerk amongst many other things, but I'm sick of being the white knight. I'm sick of feeling tied down. I'm in college. I should be putting myself out there, exploring different options, maybe hooking up with some girls here and there if I'm lucky. I have a messy situation on my hands and I really don't know what to do about it.