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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4320 on: January 03, 2014, 10:19:19 PM »
I was the David Schwimmer poster a couple years ago if you guys remember that.. Sorry.


I tried to at least be a funny troll. Didn't work so well.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4321 on: January 05, 2014, 08:21:33 AM »
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I was the David Schwimmer poster a couple years ago if you guys remember that.. Sorry.


I tried to at least be a funny troll. Didn't work so well.
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I'm always curious about troll posters and whether they regular post. You're forgiven poorlatino.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4322 on: January 06, 2014, 03:35:33 AM »
jesus you were a bad fucking poster

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4323 on: January 06, 2014, 09:19:39 AM »
jesus you were a bad fucking poster

 SORRY gentlemen, I hope we can move past this.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4324 on: January 06, 2014, 01:53:51 PM »
I've never seen The Godfather. Mostly because I dislike Italians

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4325 on: January 06, 2014, 02:01:10 PM »
i kinda liked schwimmer

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4326 on: January 06, 2014, 02:16:22 PM »
my other account is Brooklyn Brawler

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4327 on: January 08, 2014, 11:23:56 AM »
i kinda liked schwimmer


Dude shit went down with the Schwim..


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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4328 on: January 08, 2014, 11:28:58 AM »
a little too much c&p for me

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4329 on: January 08, 2014, 01:19:50 PM »
a little too much c&p for me

It was roughly 75% authentic.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4330 on: January 09, 2014, 07:51:01 AM »
Finally got health insurance 6 months after that accident where I got fired from a job on the first day and had a nervous breakdown. She chalked it up as "extreme malaise" and that it would go away eventually. Still finding it hard to function like my old chipper self but it has gotten better over the months. My floaters are still there which is fucking annoying but the wrist pains have all but gone away. No choice but to get back on the horse at this point.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4331 on: January 09, 2014, 11:35:45 AM »
I'm 32 and my life soley revolves around skateboarding, nothing else remotely interests me enough to stick with it, I'd like to have some other interest but I just can't hang.

i used to be addicted to weed and gained over 40 pounds in 3 years from eating too much and not skating enough. now im obsessed with my weight and diet. i feel like some alcoholics anonomyous guy where every conversation i have revolves around how much weight ive lost(50#'s+) and what I do to keep it off. basically i stopped doing anything fun, eating shitty and going out(not that i ever did). but being fat was miserable.

I'm pretty stupid, i barely went to school and it took me an extra year to graduate highschool. I have some street smarts but my school smarts are lacking for sure. anytime my friends start discussing anything political or scientific i feel like thi 12 year old that can't understand what the adults are discussing.

being obsessed with death is miserable. often times i have panic attacks when my wife is at work(she's a teacher ) and worry something bad has happened to her, wondering how ill deal with everything, how ill manage taking care of our animals,house,car payment etc. i sometimes dwell on it so much that my brain almost thinks it's happening. i have to step back and listen to some happy music in my headphones to drown the negativity out.

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Its one day at a time. Take it slow, dont worry

Skateboarding is your life. This is a good thing

Take at least 30 minutes to yourself every day to just be by yourself and push all worries out of your mind

make a gratitude list of all the things you are grateful for. It could be anything...wife, house, your deck, computer, skate shoes etc

Dont worry about not being smart enough. You can type right? you know whats 2 plus 2? do you know where you are right now? If you answered yes to any of these questions YOU ARE PRETTY FUCKING SMART.  Some people cant do this. THINK ABOUT IT.

Your panic attacks are a message.  Its telling you that you should e doing something. The worry i hear from you, is that you are DEPENDENT on your wife for everything.  Maybe its time to start looking after number 1.

Make sure to get good sleep and get out in the sun.  Being obsessed with death is miserable, but at the same time its UP TO YOU. 
Its your choice your life man. Whatever you dwell upon grows.  Dont worry everything will be ok.  Just keep skating

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4332 on: January 09, 2014, 11:49:24 AM »
Finally got health insurance 6 months after that accident where I got fired from a job on the first day and had a nervous breakdown. She chalked it up as "extreme malaise" and that it would go away eventually. Still finding it hard to function like my old chipper self but it has gotten better over the months. My floaters are still there which is fucking annoying but the wrist pains have all but gone away. No choice but to get back on the horse at this point.

What got you fired?

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4333 on: January 09, 2014, 01:52:40 PM »
love is the answer

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4334 on: January 09, 2014, 01:58:37 PM »
Just realized I'm basically the Jereme Rogers of SLAP now I'm feeling some type of way

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4335 on: January 09, 2014, 02:04:09 PM »
Just realized I'm basically the Jereme Rogers of SLAP now I'm feeling some type of way

You're more like our Trayvon Martin

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« Reply #4336 on: January 09, 2014, 02:18:47 PM »
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Just realized I'm basically the Jereme Rogers of SLAP now I'm feeling some type of way
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You're more like our Trayvon Martin

LOL yeah you prolly right

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4337 on: January 09, 2014, 03:58:05 PM »
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Just realized I'm basically the Jereme Rogers of SLAP now I'm feeling some type of way
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You're more like our Trayvon Martin
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LOL yeah you prolly right

To be honest, I read everything you post in Cam'ron's voice.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4338 on: January 10, 2014, 09:11:46 PM »
A friend who just moved to Montreal recently died today, Hes the second one to move there and pass away.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4339 on: January 11, 2014, 01:53:09 AM »
A friend who just moved to Montreal recently died today, Hes the second one to move there and pass away.

Death never pierces the heart so much as when it takes someone we love; cleaving the heart they held with their passing.?
― Brandon M. Herbert, Walking Wolf Road

I'm sincerely sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine what you are going through right now.  You need to take as much time as you need to grieve.  Remember that they are in a better place.  If you need counseling get it. If you need to cry do it.  If you need to write write.  Get it out of your chest.  Remember the good times you shared and the lessons they taught you.  And if you might think what lessons?  Everyone we meet in public or personal closeness teaches us something. If you can keep this, you haven't lost two friends, they are still there in your mind and heart for as long as you live. Good Luck man.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4340 on: January 12, 2014, 02:45:13 AM »
I started the Berra/Bronze beef.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4341 on: January 12, 2014, 10:26:42 AM »
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My girlfriend of four years and 7 months cheated on me. She goes to UCSB (fuck that dumb ass party school) and she was at a party and a guy kissed her and she let it happen. She went to another party the next day, same guy was there, he did the same thing, kissed her and let it happen. She then told him she had a boyfriend. It doesn't matter now, she broke up with me 2 days ago because of what happened. It devastated me, I never thought she would be the kind of person to do that. Her reasoning is that she doesnt see me as a boyfriend anymore, but more of a best friend. So pretty much, I got friendzoned in a relationship. This is some bullshit, we've invested and spent so much time together and got through a lot of things together for it to end over some lousy kiss. I keep thinking in my head this happened because I am her first boyfriend and she wants to experience other things. I'm being selfish and thinking to myself that I dont want any other fucking guy to be with her or even have some kind of relation to her.This is really the first time it's ever happened to me and it's a terrible feeling. For the first time in my life I feel so down. I know most of you will laugh at my misfortune and crack jokes about it, it's alright, its the internet. But if anybody wants to give me some words to get by, that would be cool.

I know its not the end of the world for me, but my thoughts and emotions are clouding my judgment and I can't think straight.
Fuck UC Santa Barbara.
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Holy fuck that sucks dude. Honestly don't even trip out too hard over what may or may not have happened if you can, you don't wanna get into a space where every time you try to watch porn or see a sex scene in movie you just see her getting fucked, try not think about that aspect if you can. As much as it sucks it sounds like she wants to be with other people, and is more than likely being spurred on by a new group of slutty drunken friends, and the best friend shit is just a lie and a cowardly way out imo. �Cut and run for a while anyway, she sounds like she's more into her "new life" thing than being with you for the time being and if your not cool with that, which I'm sure you're not, there is really no point in trying to be friends imo. All that being said Im not sure how valid it is for me to be giving advice, since all my experience has only shown what not to do lol. If you have creative outlets pursue them to the the fullest or do something you've wanted to do but have been putting off. Good luck with it though man, just remember on the shittiest days the next one will probably be better!
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I sincerely do appreciate your words man. I'm sure it will take a lot of time. But if we're really supposed to be together, maybe time will work its way back to us and rekindle things. Or maybe Im just too stupid enough to believe in fairy tales. It's ridiculous, I've had 3 girlfriends before her and had sexual relations with 2 other girls before her but this is the only time that I've ever felt like she was the only girl in the world for me.
Thank you man, I really do appreciate it.
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I'm sorry for what happened to you. I can relate to your story. Listen If I were you, I would cut all contact, because in the end, she still hurt you. You feel hurt. She cheated on you due to a kiss. You dont need that in your life.  If you become her friend or anything thats totally fucking disrespect to you. She is demoting you.  And you shouldnt take that shit. Just let her know how you feel, by just cutting contact, leave her alone. Go skate, chill with the homies, crack the books, fuck some bitches or hit the gym. Do whatever you gotta do, but don't let any girl walk all over you. I don't know you man, but i know you're better than that shit.

Really though, it's going to be tough. I know I'm probably not saying anything you haven't heard already, but do not talk to her. Cut contact, not to give her the silent treatment or anything like that, but to protect yourself. 

I've been there man. Getting cheated on sucks so hard, but talking to her is going to make it worse. Trying to reason it out will make you feel even worse. Definitely talk it out with other people though. You gotta get it out, but she's not someone you should bother with. It's the worst, but time is really what you need. Hang in there.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4342 on: January 12, 2014, 03:05:55 PM »
Finally got health insurance 6 months after that accident where I got fired from a job on the first day and had a nervous breakdown. She chalked it up as "extreme malaise" and that it would go away eventually. Still finding it hard to function like my old chipper self but it has gotten better over the months. My floaters are still there which is fucking annoying but the wrist pains have all but gone away. No choice but to get back on the horse at this point.

I haven't read the older post you made about getting fired on the same day, but I can tell you what you are going through is absolutely normal. Its about rejection.  I can relate after being fired from a job the same day i got a apartment, with next to no money saved up. Long story short i eventually lost the place, but the point is after dozens of jobs later i am just getting over that incident, and that was 2 years ago.  So don't be hard on yourself, just take it a day at a time and if you need to, a minute at a time.  And what exactly is causing those floaters?  I took psychology in college and thought floaters were normal....right?

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4343 on: January 13, 2014, 10:13:39 AM »
I'm at that point in life where you're friends are doing something else and it's up to you to keep skating. I never want to stop skating cause it's the only thing I'm good at and I enjoy. I'm having serious motivational issues to pick up the board and go at it myself. I feel like the spark isn't the same anymore, and I wanna keep going but It hasn't been easy for me, plus, my park is horrible it has the worst vibes to it, theres just random sketchy people smoking weed there all day.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4344 on: January 13, 2014, 10:31:20 AM »
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Finally got health insurance 6 months after that accident where I got fired from a job on the first day and had a nervous breakdown. She chalked it up as "extreme malaise" and that it would go away eventually. Still finding it hard to function like my old chipper self but it has gotten better over the months. My floaters are still there which is fucking annoying but the wrist pains have all but gone away. No choice but to get back on the horse at this point.
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I haven't read the older post you made about getting fired on the same day, but I can tell you what you are going through is absolutely normal. Its about rejection.  I can relate after being fired from a job the same day i got a apartment, with next to no money saved up. Long story short i eventually lost the place, but the point is after dozens of jobs later i am just getting over that incident, and that was 2 years ago.  So don't be hard on yourself, just take it a day at a time and if you need to, a minute at a time.  And what exactly is causing those floaters?  I took psychology in college and thought floaters were normal....right?
Yeah, that's what the doctor told me. Floaters are genuinely normal but they made me more freaked out about already being extremely depressed and just made things worse. I didn't go outside for months. I spiraled out of control and was just not psychically well for a second. You're right though... I've been getting continually better and in some ways it's impacted my personality in a lot of good ways.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4345 on: January 13, 2014, 10:35:06 AM »
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Finally got health insurance 6 months after that accident where I got fired from a job on the first day and had a nervous breakdown. She chalked it up as "extreme malaise" and that it would go away eventually. Still finding it hard to function like my old chipper self but it has gotten better over the months. My floaters are still there which is fucking annoying but the wrist pains have all but gone away. No choice but to get back on the horse at this point.
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I haven't read the older post you made about getting fired on the same day, but I can tell you what you are going through is absolutely normal. Its about rejection.  I can relate after being fired from a job the same day i got a apartment, with next to no money saved up. Long story short i eventually lost the place, but the point is after dozens of jobs later i am just getting over that incident, and that was 2 years ago.  So don't be hard on yourself, just take it a day at a time and if you need to, a minute at a time.  And what exactly is causing those floaters?  I took psychology in college and thought floaters were normal....right?
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Yeah, that's what the doctor told me. Floaters are genuinely normal but they made me more freaked out about already being extremely depressed and just made things worse. I didn't go outside for months. I spiraled out of control and was just not psychically well for a second. You're right though... I've been getting continually better and in some ways it's impacted my personality in a lot of good ways.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4346 on: January 13, 2014, 12:46:50 PM »
I'm at that point in life where you're friends are doing something else and it's up to you to keep skating. I never want to stop skating cause it's the only thing I'm good at and I enjoy. I'm having serious motivational issues to pick up the board and go at it myself. I feel like the spark isn't the same anymore, and I wanna keep going but It hasn't been easy for me, plus, my park is horrible it has the worst vibes to it, theres just random sketchy people smoking weed there all day.

I have the same issue. Because of financial reasons I had to move to a different part of my city, and lost connection with my old skate buddies, lots of them stopped and many dont take is seriously anymore, others are hard to reach.  Now I feel like I'm a man on a mission Here's some advice: Just Do you.  Skate wherever you need to skate. Pretty soon if you just focus on you, you will find new skaters.  Sometimes I find it hard to keep my motivation, but I just try to remember, that WE WON'T SKATE FOREVER.  Time is funny in how it waits for no man. Are you going to let some sketchy fools fuck with your happiness? Go there when they arent, skate in the mornings, afternoons, whatever, I'm sure there are some downtown spots where you are.... If not, find something. Skating is something we all need to appreciate while we can.  Don't let anything fuck with your happiness. Watch videos, read quotes, listen to music pump yourself up. Do you.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4347 on: January 13, 2014, 12:47:26 PM »
I'm at that point in life where you're friends are doing something else and it's up to you to keep skating. I never want to stop skating cause it's the only thing I'm good at and I enjoy. I'm having serious motivational issues to pick up the board and go at it myself. I feel like the spark isn't the same anymore, and I wanna keep going but It hasn't been easy for me, plus, my park is horrible it has the worst vibes to it, theres just random sketchy people smoking weed there all day.
Where do you live? What's the weather like? If its ok or you have somewhere undercover to skate you should definitely go out this week. Would it help if I Internet threatened you?

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4348 on: January 14, 2014, 12:36:54 PM »
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I'm at that point in life where you're friends are doing something else and it's up to you to keep skating. I never want to stop skating cause it's the only thing I'm good at and I enjoy. I'm having serious motivational issues to pick up the board and go at it myself. I feel like the spark isn't the same anymore, and I wanna keep going but It hasn't been easy for me, plus, my park is horrible it has the worst vibes to it, theres just random sketchy people smoking weed there all day.
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I have the same issue. Because of financial reasons I had to move to a different part of my city, and lost connection with my old skate buddies, lots of them stopped and many dont take is seriously anymore, others are hard to reach.  Now I feel like I'm a man on a mission Here's some advice: Just Do you.  Skate wherever you need to skate. Pretty soon if you just focus on you, you will find new skaters.  Sometimes I find it hard to keep my motivation, but I just try to remember, that WE WON'T SKATE FOREVER.  Time is funny in how it waits for no man. Are you going to let some sketchy fools fuck with your happiness? Go there when they arent, skate in the mornings, afternoons, whatever, I'm sure there are some downtown spots where you are.... If not, find something. Skating is something we all need to appreciate while we can.  Don't let anything fuck with your happiness. Watch videos, read quotes, listen to music pump yourself up. Do you.

very well put. im at the same point sort of. coming out of it actually because ive actually been skating lately instead of being bummed that i have no one to skate with. for me, i just have to remind myself that i dont always have to do something thats difficult to have fun. if that means skating curbs and doing powerslides instead of trying the same ledge trick for 2 hours, then thats what ill do. i pretty much only skated one skatepark and my flatbar for the past few years, so just going to a spot ive never been before is always fun for me, no matter how stupid or shitty the spot might be.

but i know what anyone means when they say they lose the motivation once their friends quit and they have no one to skate with. if i want to get my friends to skate with me, its like i have to plan it with them a week in advance, and if they bail on me then the next time i ask them to go i feel like im being a pest. its not like how it was when we all skated regularly and all you had to do was send a few texts saying "hey, im thinking about skating here at around this time" and just go from there. id get excuses from them all the time and eventually i just stopped asking as much. i still hit my friends up once in a while, but id say i get 1 yes for ever 5 no's, which is lame.

i think the worst thing about all my friends quitting is that im not a very outgoing person, so meeting new skate friends is really hard for me. theres people i know at the park, but thats about as far as the friendships go. if were not at the park at the same time, ive got no way of getting ahold of these people.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #4349 on: January 14, 2014, 09:54:19 PM »
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I'm at that point in life where you're friends are doing something else and it's up to you to keep skating. I never want to stop skating cause it's the only thing I'm good at and I enjoy. I'm having serious motivational issues to pick up the board and go at it myself. I feel like the spark isn't the same anymore, and I wanna keep going but It hasn't been easy for me, plus, my park is horrible it has the worst vibes to it, theres just random sketchy people smoking weed there all day.
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I have the same issue. Because of financial reasons I had to move to a different part of my city, and lost connection with my old skate buddies, lots of them stopped and many dont take is seriously anymore, others are hard to reach.  Now I feel like I'm a man on a mission Here's some advice: Just Do you.  Skate wherever you need to skate. Pretty soon if you just focus on you, you will find new skaters.  Sometimes I find it hard to keep my motivation, but I just try to remember, that WE WON'T SKATE FOREVER.  Time is funny in how it waits for no man. Are you going to let some sketchy fools fuck with your happiness? Go there when they arent, skate in the mornings, afternoons, whatever, I'm sure there are some downtown spots where you are.... If not, find something. Skating is something we all need to appreciate while we can.  Don't let anything fuck with your happiness. Watch videos, read quotes, listen to music pump yourself up. Do you.
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very well put. im at the same point sort of. coming out of it actually because ive actually been skating lately instead of being bummed that i have no one to skate with. for me, i just have to remind myself that i dont always have to do something thats difficult to have fun. if that means skating curbs and doing powerslides instead of trying the same ledge trick for 2 hours, then thats what ill do. i pretty much only skated one skatepark and my flatbar for the past few years, so just going to a spot ive never been before is always fun for me, no matter how stupid or shitty the spot might be.

but i know what anyone means when they say they lose the motivation once their friends quit and they have no one to skate with. if i want to get my friends to skate with me, its like i have to plan it with them a week in advance, and if they bail on me then the next time i ask them to go i feel like im being a pest. its not like how it was when we all skated regularly and all you had to do was send a few texts saying "hey, im thinking about skating here at around this time" and just go from there. id get excuses from them all the time and eventually i just stopped asking as much. i still hit my friends up once in a while, but id say i get 1 yes for ever 5 no's, which is lame.

i think the worst thing about all my friends quitting is that im not a very outgoing person, so meeting new skate friends is really hard for me. theres people i know at the park, but thats about as far as the friendships go. if were not at the park at the same time, ive got no way of getting ahold of these people.

That's exactly one of my problems. I'm not outgoing, in fact, I get annoyed of people easily. There's still "friends" that go to the park so I'm not skating alone but they're not my immediate friends, they're cool though, but it's still not the same vibe you get from the homies you grew up skating with. But if skating alone is whats new on my plate, then it is what is. I won't stop skating. Only downside is not being able to film as much as you'd like and all of those side things that come with skating but that's not important.