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All these 26 year olds with the mid-twenties crisis in full effect. Hang tight boys, it gets better. This is the time to get your
Game tight. Start to get your health in order. Start to get your career in order. Just do it gradually. You got
Time.
Thanks Para.
Funny, I wasn't trying to convey a sense of crisis, the age was just a coincidence [I had that crisis at like 20/21 & came through a bit stronger].
Really, I'm a 26 year old with the mind of disillusioned 56 year old; which I really resent sometimes.
But alas this is a really confusing age/period, but like you & my aforementioned ex noted (who was 2-3 years older than me), it does get better.
I was a wreak at 26. I had my first real job, but struggled with other things. During a dark period, I was staying in my deceased grandmothers apartment with nothing but a bed, all her books, and her personal recipes. Her books were all over the place..like Italian romance novels, poetry, and some self help shit. Out of boredom I read a Dr. Phil book. It was all about you being the cause of your problems, not other people. A lot of housewife fluff, but still I had never thought about my life in that way. I started to make better decisions on a small scale, which has taken me to a more positive place. Now jokingly, when the chips are down, I say to myself in dr Phil's voice "the only personal you can control is you"
That's pretty heavy Para, thank's for sharing.
It's kind of funny, I had taken that embolden attitude after I sobered up the first time after a solid 8 + year run of madness; I'm sure to fault at some degree.
But like you said, making better decisions on a smaller scale as opposed to trying to jump into a 100% life changing mentality (which was always so overwhelming & did nothing but keep me in the cycle that I had become accustomed to), has made a lot of difference.
Although I'm not 100% where I would like to be (if I truly even recognize
what &
where I would like to be), I do recognize that my situation is far better than a lot of people locally, regionally, globally; which is very humbling at times & is a constant source of grounding when my ego inflates & takes over.
I've learned to live with my depression for the most part, it's fully part of my personality, intrinsically tied to my world view & maybe in a weird way, has led me to be able to see & articulate things in a unique manner, oft far beyond the scope of my peers (College was a big eye-opener).
Life is definitely full of surprises when you never expected to live past the age of 18 . . . And then 21 . . . And then 24 . . .