^ 'Mine' also watches all my stories, every single one of them, even the most boring work shit I share (and I use social media as a platform for that so I can be obnoxious with it), but if anything 1/ that's a sign you're still on good terms already, so you no longer really need to press any button and 2/ it doesn't get to me in a bad way but I find it ridiculously funny under a certain angle, like how bad can a ghost be, to the point where I have no clue what she's actually trying to provoke and if she had communicated with me instead she would have gotten exactly what she wanted in the first place right off the bat. On the other hand that could also be a sign of issues or at least confusion and mean that she needs quiet time to make sense out of the situation and reevaluate how much she cares. Not being able to explain yourself to a person is frustrating but sometimes it's also for the best. Maybe try to put yourself in her shoes, I think if I were you I'd just try my best not to interfere with her again (except to try and get news if you hear some serious shit is up to show her you care if you sincerely do) but it's probably better to stop trying to cram ingredients into the recipe for now or you'll just fuel a fire no one wants. Then you'll actually be on the best possible terms and who knows what the future may consist of, and in the meantime you can try and get ready to move on. Funnily enough in my case, since I called it quits with this girl, an older crush of mine has spontaneously started talking to me again, right now I'm over everything so it doesn't mean much but it did make me feel like less of a dislikable person (without a specific reason to cut ties with me to reassure myself with, I went really deep in the self-introspection, then I faced it could literally be a combination of a thousand things just like it could be nothing and thought fuck it).
Also remember people are complex in their own ways, I reckon someone who would just block somebody instead of confronting a problem as a defense mechanism is pretty troubled, or doesn't actually care enough to warrant you caring back, in my case the girl actually slept with me for several nights and was inviting me in her bed when I wasn't but then would never let us do anything but some cuddling and kissing despite my smoothest attempts, honestly it was great (I looked as her more as a friend who happened to be a girl and hot than just as a woman, too, I honestly didn't really care what we would do or not do) but this type of behavior isn't exactly normal either, it's logical that some shit will be up after something like this and running away from what one has obviously triggered is never responsible, but some people just aren't responsible. Sometimes we should step back and realize that maybe we're holding some simple humans with their flaws to incredible standards of perfection, and that our understanding of reality isn't absolute and other people function differently, sometimes in funky ways, they should be either accepted or rejected as such depending on one's tolerance.
If she's blocking you and ignoring your messages, you don't owe her shit. And yeah, I think I'm with you too with foreign women but that's because of the exotic side that works both ways, then again maybe the impression of a potentially big adventure is also what can be scary, it's a double edged sword. Situations where you only have a window of time to meet and be with the girl can subconsciously be rather oppressive on both parties as well.
If you think my experience is relatable, really take my word for it and move on, it's a rabbit hole of depression, I did think I came out of it a stronger person but really you don't have time and energy for that shit, keeping caring in the slightest is a bad investment (but who knows, the stock may go up again later, unexpectedly, just avoid bankruptcy by keeping the transactions simple).
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