i have no fucking clue on what i'm gonna do for a job once school is completely finished, that's in about a week. i've thought for so long about it and ended up just been stressed and depressed over it. then i forgot all about it for a year or so and everything was fine, then my dad full lays this career bullshit on me. i want to leave this town but i have nowhere to go, like, somewhere where the scene is good, i have more people to skate with, i can actually progress, shit id be actually happy then. i'd probably have to leave the country for that to happen (usa baby...). but i dont know, i dont know how to get there, how would i survive.. no friends or family, nothing. im thinking about going to a community college, but again, ive got no fucking clue what i'd do there. i'm thinking chef but thatll just end up becoming a no no cause of the hours or lack of interest. its fucked. i've got a shitty job at a fast food place which pays alright, but im 18 and feel like i need something better yknow. ah, fuck, least ive still got plenty of time to skate, but its all these other fucking things which just fuck with me. haven't had a girl in god knows how long, fuck, graduation is this weekend and im just gonna get so fucked up that i really dont care. i think its going to be an emotional weekend, one of the last times ill see all the people from school i hardly talked to... but ill have my friends there, i guess thats all that counts huh