This was kind of hard thing to talk about but hopefully this will help people thinking they had a shitty day.
So last year my anxiety was through the roof, I didn't go out unless I had to see my doctor for more pills or to grab a six pack and just drink alone at my house, literally did not go out unless those conditions. I had a job though at a bar and to deal with my anxiety i would bring a tall can of bud ice with me every time i worked, I didn't drink it but just knowing that i can get drunk in 5 minutes made me feel unstoppable. But when they found out i was bringing beer they fired me.Even when i was home i would have panic attacks everyday just by sitting in my house and trying to sleep ( i once stayed up for about 24 hours and yeah that sounds like not a big deal but just imagine laying with your eyes open and focus on the ceiling for 8 hours and having the tv on a shitty sitcom). I also couldn't watch any show that had drugs in it or any violence because it would make my heart pound what seemed like a million beats per minute. I rarely talked to anyone that year so my friends gave up on me or told me to "man up" or call me a pussy, which made me feel depressed about living and i am never depressed. Even dealt with this shitty hand i was never sad about it i made due. Well now the past couple of months i feel great! I am on new pills which make feel like myself again, like at the age of 13 (I first started to have anxiety at age 14). I am also able to watch my favorite tv shows again which was a huge victory to me. I also look forward to see my doctors now to tell them I'm doing so much better. I still have anxiety but am able to actually go out for a couple hours so i signed up for school again for the summer and hopefully i can get my life together.
So just remember if your having a shitty day just remember i had 365 days of shitty days