real confessions

[J.R.]

I hate when people say suicide is for cowards. That's such fucking bullshit. Suicide is frightening and to go through with it shares no aspects in common with the term cowardice. Suicide is for the hopeless, not the cowardly.

They say that it's for cowards because in essence, we all choose our own destinies. Even if we are faced with some horrible shit to deal with, there are usually a set of circumstances and options we can undertake to better our situation, albeit extremely tough and arduous. Going with the right option is usually going with the tough option, and suicide as an "easy way out" is an attempt at doing your best to avoid the right option. The key is to remind yourself that the feeling of hopelessness is temporary, and that you can choose to get out of it. It sounds a lot easier than it is, but it's doable. They also say suicide is cowardly because of the fact that you end up taking your own life without regard to how badly it will damage the people that love and care for you. I've seriously contemplated suicide on more than one occasion, but the main thing that brought me from doing it is thinking about how badly it would hurt my mother. She worked so hard to be able to bring me to this earth and did everything she could to make sure I was provided for, she sacrificed a lot to make sure I was good. Me escaping this world through suicide would bring her so much pain, so much guilt, so many thoughts of what she did or did not do that allowed me to take my own life. Most people in this world can fuck off for all I care, but I love my mom too much to hurt her like that.

After that realization, it bought me enough time to stop thinking about killing myself, and I realized that me and everyone else that has contemplated suicide is more or less thinking about going with a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Everything in our lives that bothers us is temporary. The things that bothered me 5, 10 years ago are not what's bothering me now. And lets face it, this life is full of problems that we were put on this earth to manage as best as we can. We can't control every aspect of our being, but we can manage the events we're in to the best of our abilities and make the most of it. None of us are perfect, but I feel like everyone should be entitled to give themselves a shot at happiness, however high the stakes are. Just remember that you're an inherently good person, and chances are there are more people that care for you than you actually realize.

[BraveUlysses]

Beat off to a picture of my friend's fine ass mom and I'll probably do it again soon.

[J.R.]

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Most people on slap dont know this about me , but Im serving a life sentence at Folsom prison . The isolation is hard enough to deal with , my dreams are often about trains , going other places , taking me away from folsom . What really kills me in the dreams  is all the rich people in the other cars living their lifes , eating fancy food ...

My mom always told me not to play with guns , and I guess thats my message for you guys .  I dont even know why I did it . I just did it to do it I guess . too see what it was like to see somebody die


Dont go down my path ,   sorry for venting but sometimes its just too hard .

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Johnny Cash references?

My dude are you for real with all that?

[J.R.]

Feeling really low. After being off drugs for over a year now, my girlfriend tells me that she doesn't trust me to stay sober. She says I'm not the same person I used to be, that I'm overly self-centered, I think I'm better than everyone else, etc. She doesn't support me skateboarding or any endeavors that I have. It's getting to the point that I don't want to be around her, but I really don't have anywhere to go. I don't have a single friend in this state. The only friends I have are 1500 miles away. It's not fun being lonely.

She is holding you back. I can relate to your situation completely, struggling with sobriety is a daily struggle that I wish I never knew. If you are like me, skateboarding is one of the things in your life that you can fill your time with that helps you stay off of drugs, and the stress that your girl is giving you could very well lead you to a relapse. I was with a girl that would have me relapsing because she said the SAME EXACT SHIT, making me feel like I was a shitty person when I wasn't under the influence. You have over a year under your belt, that is a blessed thing. It takes a lot more than people realize to keep something like that going, but being around the wrong people make that fight even harder than it should be to endure. Get from around that girl, sure you'll be lonely for a bit but it'll grant you the opportunity to meet new people that will better enhance your life. I really hope that you maintain and stay positive, good things will definitely come your way if you stay up and do right by yourself. The person that you used to be was dependent on substance, if she likes that person better then she is not right for you. I bring you this advice from pure experience.

[noone1234]

I'm 23 and I haven't had a real human friend since I was 11.

[MuchasGracias]

I'm 23 and I haven't had a real human friend since I was 11.

Why not?

[SodaJerk]

Beat off to a picture of my friend's fine ass mom and I'll probably do it again soon.

So you wanna share this picture of your friends fina ass mom? Come on, do it.

[noone1234]

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Beat off to a picture of my friend's fine ass mom and I'll probably do it again soon.

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So you wanna share this picture of your friends fina ass mom? Come on, do it.

yeah dood, don't be selfish

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I'm 23 and I haven't had a real human friend since I was 11.

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Why not?

because.

[MuchasGracias]

So I made a thread about Chris Nieratko doing and interview on Riley Hawk, thought I'd share it with SLAP just for the sole reason that the dude was interviewing a skater. Saw the interview and thought what the fuck is wrong with the guy. Ive honestly never heard of him prior to reading that interview and im getting called out by everyone hahaha it's actually quite funny, people giving me shit just because I've never heard of him or whether he was being sarcastic or not (which apparently he was). Yeah I admit I fucked up, whatever, it was an honest mistake.

[SEAN PABLO]

So I made a thread about Chris Nieratko doing and interview on Riley Hawk, thought I'd share it with SLAP just for the sole reason that the dude was interviewing a skater. Saw the interview and thought what the fuck is wrong with the guy. Ive honestly never heard of him prior to reading that interview and im getting called out by everyone hahaha it's actually quite funny, people giving me shit just because I've never heard of him or whether he was being sarcastic or not (which apparently he was). Yeah I admit I fucked up, whatever, it was an honest mistake.

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[Merked]

I'm 23 and I haven't had a real human friend since I was 11.

I'm your friend.

[nino brown]

im gonna go rob these 2 guys that i got in a fight with last week
hopefully it doesnt take long to set them up ..i seriously cant fucking wait.

ive been wanting to rob someone for the longest anywayz, cuz a player is broke as fuck rite now  

retaliation is a must 

[ice nine]

im gonna go rob these 2 guys that i got in a fight with last week
hopefully it doesnt take long to set them up ..i seriously cant fucking wait.

ive been wanting to rob someone for the longest anywayz, cuz a player is broke as fuck rite now  

retaliation is a must 

quoting this so it hopefully sends u to jail someday

[ROCKxADIO420]

[paraquat]

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im gonna go rob these 2 guys that i got in a fight with last week
hopefully it doesnt take long to set them up ..i seriously cant fucking wait.

ive been wanting to rob someone for the longest anywayz, cuz a player is broke as fuck rite now  

retaliation is a must 

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quoting this so it hopefully sends u to jail someday

Just in case yours gets deleted.

[L33Tg33k]

I'm 23 and I haven't had a real human friend since I was 11.

Never had any real friends and I'm 24. I win....Or lose. Do associates that you can't speak to about anything important count? Did you also hangout in the library at lunchtime throughout school?

[noone1234]

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I'm 23 and I haven't had a real human friend since I was 11.

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Never had any real friends and I'm 24. I win....Or lose. Do associates that you can't speak to about anything important count? Did you also hangout in the library at lunchtime throughout school?

no that don't count. and i was fortunate enough to attend a school that had off campus lunch so i would hangout at the skatepark during then. how many women, men, or whatever you're into, have you been with? this will decide who the real winner is.

[shitsandwich]

I can't see myself  being happy in the future but I can't tell if that's too much to ask for. I'm getting more and more  anti social and awkward as I get older, which I thought was supposed to decrease with age. I can't feel comfortable around people unless I'm drinking and the only thing I find fun these days is getting shitfaced with a couple close friends.

[noone1234]

I can't see myself  being happy in the future but I can't tell if that's too much to ask for. I'm getting more and more  anti social and awkward as I get older, which I thought was supposed to decrease with age. I can't feel comfortable around people unless I'm drinking and the only thing I find fun these days is getting shitfaced, with a couple close friends. skating, and wrenching.

we should go bowling sometime.

[The Human Condom]

Did you also hangout in the library at lunchtime throughout school?

Sometimes, I would eat lunch in the bathroom during high school.

[nino brown]

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im gonna go rob these 2 guys that i got in a fight with last week
hopefully it doesnt take long to set them up ..i seriously cant fucking wait.

ive been wanting to rob someone for the longest anywayz, cuz a player is broke as fuck rite now  

retaliation is a must 

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quoting this so it hopefully sends u to jail someday

sad to say, but right now i could care less about going to jail.

aint takin no shit whoodie

[smokecrack]

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im gonna go rob these 2 guys that i got in a fight with last week
hopefully it doesnt take long to set them up ..i seriously cant fucking wait.

ive been wanting to rob someone for the longest anywayz, cuz a player is broke as fuck rite now  

retaliation is a must 

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quoting this so it hopefully sends u to jail someday

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sad to say, but right now i could care less about going to jail.

aint takin no shit whoodie

you're willing to lose your freedom over some petty shit.

don't let your anger get the best of you.

i never understood this till recently, but retaliation/revenge is useless. move on and let it go.

be the bigger man here.

[nino brown]

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im gonna go rob these 2 guys that i got in a fight with last week
hopefully it doesnt take long to set them up ..i seriously cant fucking wait.

ive been wanting to rob someone for the longest anywayz, cuz a player is broke as fuck rite now  

retaliation is a must 

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quoting this so it hopefully sends u to jail someday

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sad to say, but right now i could care less about going to jail.

aint takin no shit whoodie

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you're willing to lose your freedom over some petty shit.

don't let your anger get the best of you.

i never understood this till recently, but retaliation/revenge is useless. move on and let it go.

be the bigger man here.

ya this shit is petty as fuck too, its all just a big misunderstanding. when the shit went down we were all wasted (or atelast i was pretty much blackedout/sleepwalking at 6 in the morn). i tried to be the bigger man and have a talk but they wanted to throw hands.

i mean i might not have enough to time to take they shit after i beat or stab these bitches.

[L33Tg33k]

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I'm 23 and I haven't had a real human friend since I was 11.

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Never had any real friends and I'm 24. I win....Or lose. Do associates that you can't speak to about anything important count? Did you also hangout in the library at lunchtime throughout school?

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no that don't count. and i was fortunate enough to attend a school that had off campus lunch so i would hangout at the skatepark during then. how many women, men, or whatever you're into, have you been with? this will decide who the real winner is.

Everyone on this forum knows the answer to that is zero.

[noone1234]

and L33Tg33k is our champion!!!!!!!!!!! you gotta git in dere doe! and you can also get some luvin on craigslist too, yo.

[doomstation55]

Yo nino, the best advice I can give you is don't let this happen to you.

[paraquat]

I can't see myself  being happy in the future but I can't tell if that's too much to ask for. I'm getting more and more  anti social and awkward as I get older, which I thought was supposed to decrease with age. I can't feel comfortable around people unless I'm drinking and the only thing I find fun these days is getting shitfaced with a couple close friends.

No, what you are describing is called "getting older" You stop wanting to party all crazy and "mellow out" a little.

[nino brown]

haha i feel you^^ after the shit went down i definitely came back to where we were fighting with the AK and other weapons...they werent there tho.

[busey]

congratulations you're what's wrong with the world.

good idea, asshole... bring a gun to shoot a bunch of other dumb pieces of shit and endanger everyone around the area all because you couldn't come to an agreement on who was funnier on friends.
 
i want nothing but the worst for you and i hope they tie you to a chair and shock your peener and veggies like an evil villain.

[nino brown]

that was the funniest shit anyone ever told me, "hope they tie you in a chair" was the best thank you

people who usually say shit like that are pussies in real life

ha you act like i said i was gonna go rape and kill kids or something

did i ever say i was gonna shoot them? no. i just wanna catch'em slippin then scare the living shit out of them so they know i aint one to be fucked with