Ain't plowin nothing without a hard tool.
i think you're just self-sabotaging yourself & leaving the door open for you to not do shit and take advantage of the situation. All this talk about how you wanna get out & do shit etc. and now you gotta trip to vegas lined up with the potential for a "happy ending" and now you wanna act all high and mighty about not wanting to bang a fat chick. Come on now fam, let's get 110% real here, you're not in prime physical shape your damn self so it'd be ridiculous to act like you're too good for her. bet if she made you laugh a couple times and put her hand on your dick you'd be hard as a mf! Just go into the shit looking for a good time & try to enjoy yourself, instead of coming up with reasons why you SHOULDNT enjoy yourself. Just keep asking yourself "how much better can it get?" throughout the night and i BET you end up having a blast.
you know its all love over here man I'm rootin for ya but I can't cheer from the sidelines without calling you out on your bullshit as well from time to time. Go have a great time in Vegas and stop being a picky. What's that term smokecrack always says? Snootydick? yeah, don't be a snootydick. Beggars don't get to be choosers until they aren't beggars anymore, ya feel me? even if yall just kissed while sloppy drunk & did nothing else I'm sure it'd still do wonders for your self-esteem. progress is progress.
P.S. dont post pictures of girls you're talking to or anything like that. you know these internet lames thirsty as hell for that shit but nah man, trust me, it aint a good look
anywhere outside of SLAP lol.