real confessions

[posguy]

Trouble staying hard with a new girlfriend, even when taking viagra while having not masturbated in two weeks. Most likely related to anxiety.

Anxiety about what? Maybe talk to her about it?

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I spend my 26th birthday alone. My only real friend since I've moved to Baltimore didn't want to hangout, and my man worked late. It was a month ago, but it still makes me feel unworthy of real human connection. I guess I'm awkward, most people make me nervous. Social anxiety sucks.

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Happy Birthday!

Happy birthday man(my apologies)! I've spent 3 out of my last 5 birthdays alone in my apartment opening presents from my parents and then going out to skate if it's nice, it's usually not in January, or playing video games and jackin it. People suck, they take your time for themselves and they ask for help when they need it but neglect to help you or give you their time. I find most "friends" I have are friends of convenience. Friends when you're around. Nowhere to be found when you're not. I was discussing this last night with my girlfriend, I only have 5 friends that I would invite to my wedding if I were to get married tomorrow. Sometimes we're destined to only have a few select friends but it's not a bad thing. At least you're not wasting your time with bullshit people. Hope this helps man!

[JB]

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Trouble staying hard with a new girlfriend, even when taking viagra while having not masturbated in two weeks. Most likely related to anxiety.

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Anxiety about what? Maybe talk to her about it?

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I spend my 26th birthday alone. My only real friend since I've moved to Baltimore didn't want to hangout, and my man worked late. It was a month ago, but it still makes me feel unworthy of real human connection. I guess I'm awkward, most people make me nervous. Social anxiety sucks.

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Happy Birthday!

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Happy birthday man! I've spent 3 out of my last 5 birthdays alone in my apartment opening presents from my parents and then going out to skate if it's nice, it's usually not in January, or playing video games and jackin it. People suck, they take your time for themselves and they ask for help when they need it but neglect to help you or give you their time. I find most "friends" I have are friends of convenience. Friends when you're around. Nowhere to be found when you're not. I was discussing this last night with my girlfriend, I only have 5 friends that I would invite to my wedding if I were to get married tomorrow. Sometimes we're destined to only have a few select friends but it's not a bad thing. At least you're not wasting your time with bullshit people. Hope this helps man!

Happy birthday Tay! hey, after around 22 or 23, friends stop coming around to birthdays. its sucks being alone for one, but its just one of those things that happens as you get older. i think i ate sushi alone on my 24th. and i wouldn't just to saying that your awkward if most people make you nervous. im pretty quiet and i dont usually speak up in groups of people i dont know very well, or if i have to spend time with one or two people who i dont know well, i usually am really quiet which makes things a bit awkward. i just know that i dont like bullshit conversations and its hard for me to pretend to be interested in small talk among people, but i dont think that makes me an awkward person at all. I wouldn't get too down on yourself if you dont like being around strangers.

and natek, Tay is a girl. 

[JB]

Trouble staying hard with a new girlfriend, even when taking viagra while having not masturbated in two weeks. Most likely related to anxiety.

you'll get over it dude. i was like that for a while. it would always feel like my heart was about to pound out of my chest; id be that nervous. if i couldnt get hard, id always spend more time eating her out. it feels good for her and it turned me on enough for me to get it up. just find something that you like to do and spend a little more time with that instead of rushing it. and you should be fine with letting her know youre a little nervous. girls get nervous too, so dont worry about her getting offended or upset. if anything, that should be her que to try a little harder to make you feel relaxed so that you both can enjoy it.

[shark tits]

i've got a bunch of friends scattered across the country but in my hometown i've demoted everyone to acquaintances. i got one buddy but he's a letdown all the time but i'll take responsibility and say if i were a better person i'd have a better quality of friends. not projecting on anyone else, maybe you just live around shitty people and not to say that i don't but part of it is on me.
doesn't drag me down too much, i've got my health, a skate and obstacles. everyone can get fucked.

[posguy]

and natek, Tay is a girl. 

good looking out man!

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Trouble staying hard with a new girlfriend, even when taking viagra while having not masturbated in two weeks. Most likely related to anxiety.

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you'll get over it dude. i was like that for a while. it would always feel like my heart was about to pound out of my chest; id be that nervous. if i couldnt get hard, id always spend more time eating her out. it feels good for her and it turned me on enough for me to get it up. just find something that you like to do and spend a little more time with that instead of rushing it. and you should be fine with letting her know youre a little nervous. girls get nervous too, so dont worry about her getting offended or upset. if anything, that should be her que to try a little harder to make you feel relaxed so that you both can enjoy it.

One good thing about being alone? You can do whatever you want to on your birthday and not have to worry about it vibing someone in your group.

i've got a bunch of friends scattered across the country but in my hometown i've demoted everyone to acquaintances. i got one buddy but he's a letdown all the time but i'll take responsibility and say if i were a better person i'd have a better quality of friends. not projecting on anyone else, maybe you just live around shitty people and not to say that i don't but part of it is on me.
doesn't drag me down too much, i've got my health, a skate and obstacles. everyone can get fucked.

I hear ya, got a friend in Seattle, couple in Philly, New York and a few here in Portland.

[JB]

i was tying out a story about what happened last weekend when i ran into a few of my old friends and one dude who was one of my best friends for years. ill save you the time, but what i really wanted to say is that you can know someone for years and have a great friendship, but some people get their heads stuck up their ass and once you stop coming around and paying attention to them, then they act like they dont know you. its best to just shrug it off and move on.

[posguy]

nice man, it's always great running into old friends. I haven't seen my friend Leaf cause I always come up when he's away at drill for the national guard which is a pain but the last time I was up I was talking to him on the phone and right before he clicked off he said love you babe, like he always did when we would hang and skate every day, just best friend stuff ya know, and it caught me off guard for a sec and my girl was sitting right there and then said love you too and she looked at me funny and I just laughed. That's how I knew he was a life friend and I'm glad cause he's a funny as guy and a great person... and now dating my sisters friend from middle school so that's kinda interesting.

[Prince Nelson]

I posted in here on September 20th that I wasn't going to drink alcohol anymore. Unfortunately I slipped up one night at a wedding. There was an open bar and I had 5 beers. But that's been almost a month ago. Aside from that I've been eating super healthy, riding my bike, skating more, and feeling good. There's been a very noticeable difference in the way I feel, mentally and physically. Happy times are here to stay.

[shit_for_brains]

I posted in here on September 20th that I wasn't going to drink alcohol anymore. Unfortunately I slipped up one night at a wedding. There was an open bar and I had 5 beers. But that's been almost a month ago. Aside from that I've been eating super healthy, riding my bike, skating more, and feeling good. There's been a very noticeable difference in the way I feel, mentally and physically. Happy times are here to stay.

I was hard on myself after I quit drinking if I would slip up. I beat myself up so bad after the first time that it made the second time inevitable.  Once I got out of that way of thinking quitting completely was really easy. Don't think about how you fucked up last night, think about how you aren't fucking up today.

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I posted in here on September 20th that I wasn't going to drink alcohol anymore. Unfortunately I slipped up one night at a wedding. There was an open bar and I had 5 beers. But that's been almost a month ago. Aside from that I've been eating super healthy, riding my bike, skating more, and feeling good. There's been a very noticeable difference in the way I feel, mentally and physically. Happy times are here to stay.

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I was hard on myself after I quit drinking if I would slip up. I beat myself up so bad after the first time that it made the second time inevitable.  Once I got out of that way of thinking quitting completely was really easy. Don't think about how you fucked up last night, think about how you aren't fucking up today.

im an alcoholic. ive been drinking everyday for 10 years straight.  longest i have gone is ten days and then i fuck up. i hope i can one day beat this shit. im having a baby boy in 5 months and i hope that will motivate me.  i needed to let that out. thanks slap

[L33Tg33k]

I hate that this is the only place I have to say anything meaningful about my state of being. Still, I've become less comfortable with it as there's not much more to say. Blah blah, I'm sad, blah blah, I want real friends, yadda yadda, I don't have a future, blah blah, I want sex, wah wah, I can't get a job. I just wish I wasn't such a fucking coward. I should be done with this already.

[tobey]

I hate that this is the only place I have to say anything meaningful about my state of being. Still, I've become less comfortable with it as there's not much more to say. Blah blah, I'm sad, blah blah, I want real friends, yadda yadda, I don't have a future, blah blah, I want sex, wah wah, I can't get a job. I just wish I wasn't such a fucking coward. I should be done with this already.

Hey you went to Vegas and im pretty sure you live in California, im jealous of that so at least you can travel to places. I still have a hard time if i have to drive 10 minutes from my house so at least you got me on that. Change your meds i remember saying you were on Prozac and I was on the highest dose of that and that honestly made me feel worst. I am on paxil now and only on 40mg of it and i have improved so much this year. So i would try talking to your doctor about your meds, i had to go through a couple SSRI's to get the right one

[shark tits]

quit [only had 3.5] cigs today and i'm on da warpath. stay outta my way or i'll bite your fingers!
nah, but i woke up wheezing and had 3 tubes so i rolled those and borrowed a patch from my neighbor. fuckin thing fell off skating so i took a few drags off the butt of his fag then i got another patch on. figure if i make tomorrow i'll be looking good. i usedta quit all the time in jail but it's harder in freedomland. hopefully it's not too late and i die tomorrow, i'd be so pissed!

[nice_guy_2]

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I hate that this is the only place I have to say anything meaningful about my state of being. Still, I've become less comfortable with it as there's not much more to say. Blah blah, I'm sad, blah blah, I want real friends, yadda yadda, I don't have a future, blah blah, I want sex, wah wah, I can't get a job. I just wish I wasn't such a fucking coward. I should be done with this already.

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Hey you went to Vegas and im pretty sure you live in California, im jealous of that so at least you can travel to places. I still have a hard time if i have to drive 10 minutes from my house so at least you got me on that. Change your meds i remember saying you were on Prozac and I was on the highest dose of that and that honestly made me feel worst. I am on paxil now and only on 40mg of it and i have improved so much this year. So i would try talking to your doctor about your meds, i had to go through a couple SSRI's to get the right one

shut up, no one cares it took a few  ***Ss Ss ArE EyeS***  for you to fool your EGO

add each other on msn

[abudabi]

I hate that this is the only place I have to say anything meaningful about my state of being. Still, I've become less comfortable with it as there's not much more to say. Blah blah, I'm sad, blah blah, I want real friends, yadda yadda, I don't have a future, blah blah, I want sex, wah wah, I can't get a job. I just wish I wasn't such a fucking coward. I should be done with this already.

eh man, im in the same boat, this is the only place where i talk about myself. or talk at all.
are you saying you feel less comfortable posting in here because you feel like youre repeating yourself? saying the same thing, and then going through the same discussion with other posters?

[AnotherHardDayAtTheOffice]

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I posted in here on September 20th that I wasn't going to drink alcohol anymore. Unfortunately I slipped up one night at a wedding. There was an open bar and I had 5 beers. But that's been almost a month ago. Aside from that I've been eating super healthy, riding my bike, skating more, and feeling good. There's been a very noticeable difference in the way I feel, mentally and physically. Happy times are here to stay.

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I was hard on myself after I quit drinking if I would slip up. I beat myself up so bad after the first time that it made the second time inevitable.  Once I got out of that way of thinking quitting completely was really easy. Don't think about how you fucked up last night, think about how you aren't fucking up today.

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im an alcoholic. ive been drinking everyday for 10 years straight.  longest i have gone is ten days and then i fuck up. i hope i can one day beat this shit. im having a baby boy in 5 months and i hope that will motivate me.  i needed to let that out. thanks slap

Wow! You don't have any illusions and you're pretty straightforward about it. Having a kid should be a pretty strong motivation. I've never been in that situation, but it must be super tough. It might sound corny, but there's something about your realism that makes me believe you can do it. Keep your head up, man!

[shark tits]

i've been borrowing one cig a day from the dirtnek. otherwise i 'quit' smoking. went 2 days w/ none but had one each of the last 3 days. hopefully it's casual and not some slippery slope of bullshit. i'm 4 yrs of not drinking so i should have this [though i'm less than a wk dope free].

[abudabi]

i really miss the girl ive made a few posts about in here. theres nothing riding on me anymore. i dont feel like ive got it in me to try to be anything. ive got the things i want to do and it doesnt matter if they get done or not. i dont understand keats' fear of death. imagine having to care about everything that ever happened? by the tone of my post i guess im pretty fried but i dont feel anything

[Early Hokus Pokus]

I hate that this is the only place I have to say anything meaningful about my state of being. Still, I've become less comfortable with it as there's not much more to say. Blah blah, I'm sad, blah blah, I want real friends, yadda yadda, I don't have a future, blah blah, I want sex, wah wah, I can't get a job. I just wish I wasn't such a fucking coward. I should be done with this already.

I think about this everyday.

[abudabi]

yo early hokus pokus, how is your diet? i find when im eating decently i think much more positively. ive been dealing with depression ever since i can remember, ive felt many a suicidal urge.

[hufs calve muscles]

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I posted in here on September 20th that I wasn't going to drink alcohol anymore. Unfortunately I slipped up one night at a wedding. There was an open bar and I had 5 beers. But that's been almost a month ago. Aside from that I've been eating super healthy, riding my bike, skating more, and feeling good. There's been a very noticeable difference in the way I feel, mentally and physically. Happy times are here to stay.

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I was hard on myself after I quit drinking if I would slip up. I beat myself up so bad after the first time that it made the second time inevitable.  Once I got out of that way of thinking quitting completely was really easy. Don't think about how you fucked up last night, think about how you aren't fucking up today.

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im an alcoholic. ive been drinking everyday for 10 years straight.  longest i have gone is ten days and then i fuck up. i hope i can one day beat this shit. im having a baby boy in 5 months and i hope that will motivate me.  i needed to let that out. thanks slap

Having a kid won't stop it. Well it didn't for me.  If anything the months leading up to it were the worst.

[abudabi]

^my dad quit drinking as soon as he knew he was going to be a father, just to provide an example of a time where having a kid helped someone.

the girl is killing me, my shits all fucked. ran into her today, she stared at me but i didnt say anything because what the fuck am i gonna say about anyhing. im really mad at at myself for causing the whole situation but ive been told its not my fault, but it really feels like its my fault. i havent had a real conversation with anyone since me and her stopped talking. i have shit i have to do and shit i want to do thats hard to get done when i feel too fucked up to do anything. ive been having a pretty hard time taking care of myself (ie eating and sleeping) recently. im fine tho, shit just sucks

[fulltechnicalskizzy]

HAHAHA

[abudabi]

what, have you never been shit on by a chick before? or are you laughing at my father? either way i dont really like you but whatever im curious about this

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Having to take care of a screaming kid hungover made me not want to drink as much.

[Early Hokus Pokus]

yo early hokus pokus, how is your diet? i find when im eating decently i think much more positively. ive been dealing with depression ever since i can remember, ive felt many a suicidal urge.

I pretty much only eat vegetables, brown rice and chicken breast and stuff like that since I decided to work out a bit. I wouldn't say I'm depressed, well, depression is different for everyone, so I guess being scared and lacking motivation or finding a reason to take charge of my life and take on new things that make me come out of my shell and be a mature person could be some kind of depression.

[abudabi]

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yo early hokus pokus, how is your diet? i find when im eating decently i think much more positively. ive been dealing with depression ever since i can remember, ive felt many a suicidal urge.

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I pretty much only eat vegetables, brown rice and chicken breast and stuff like that since I decided to work out a bit. I wouldn't say I'm depressed, well, depression is different for everyone, so I guess being scared and lacking motivation or finding a reason to take charge of my life and take on new things that make me come out of my shell and be a mature person could be some kind of depression.

shit, you sound like me. i just use depression as a general term for detachment from people/life, i dont necessarily identify with other people who say they are depressed. its definitely different for everyone.

[Jim and Dan]

[tobey]

if you remember one of my posts in this thread, i think it was a couple months ago. Well the first post was saying that my good friend who i haven't talked to in awhile cause he ignores me, called me and then i texted him back cause my phone doesn't work for calls and he said oh i called the wrong kevin. Well same thing fucking happened again, some random number texted me and i said who is this? They got offended and i said again who is this and they texted back saying they texted the wrong kevin. Like really? its fucking horse shit delete my number you obviously don't want to talk to me so why make me feel like shit. I hate it and i still don't know who the fucking person is who texted me tonight

[tobey]

if you remember one of my posts in this thread, i think it was a couple months ago. Well the first post was saying that my good friend who i haven't talked to in awhile cause he ignores me, called me and then i texted him back cause my phone doesn't work for calls and he said oh i called the wrong kevin. Well same thing fucking happened again, some random number texted me and i said who is this? They got offended and i said again who is this and they texted back saying they texted the wrong kevin. Like really? its fucking horse shit delete my number you obviously don't want to talk to me so why make me feel like shit. I hate it and i still don't know who the fucking person is who texted me tonight

HOLY SHIT!! its the first girl i met on tinder, lol she blocked me on facebook and ignored everyone of my texts but she still has my number? girls are seriously confusing