good luck young pen. just know that getting clean and staying clean is a life long commitment and not just a new phase. get yourself healthy and do what you need to do to set your future up the best that you can. you're at the point in life where the things you do have the potential to effect the rest of your life, so make the best of it and dont blow it.
perfect time to talk about my brother. i know i talk about him way too much, but hes always giving me a reason to talk about him. hes back in rehab for the millionth time. the second time at this in-patient place that he "graduated" from a little more than a year ago. it was a 13 month program, and the longest hes ever stayed on any kind of sobriety program. after he finished, my parents sent him to cosmetology school, which he finished earlier this year, got his certification, landed a job and found a place to live with one of his friends. unfortunately the only friends he has back home are all burn out losers, so seeing him relapse right after moving into that house is no surprise to me. so now hes back in the same place he was two years ago. hes either been in rehab or on drugs for the past six years, and it still upsets me every time because all me and my family want is for him to grow up and stop using, but at this point i just feel really bad for him. he has no since of self respect or self confidence left. even on his good days, hes miserable because he cant take back all the shitty decisions hes made. his life either revolves around doing drugs or being forced to not do drugs. he hasnt lived like a normal person since he was like 14. doctors have told us that major parts of his brain have been damaged to the point where he cant feel happiness like a normal person can, and he might never gain a maturity level of someone older than their late teens or early 20s because his brain was so fried during that development. i dont know how many more times my parents are going to bail him out, and i know once they stop he wont make it. hes too soft to live on the streets and not mature enough to take care of himself. at this point, i really have no faith in him turning his life around and the only way i can see him staying clean for the rest of his life is if he permanently moves into the in-patient facility, and that probably wont stop him since he used once while he was in there. its pretty sad. i love him, but theres nothing that i or anyone else can do to help him anymore.
pencil, you dont want to be like my brother. take this opportunity seriously and set your self up for a successful life. there is no better time than now. you dont want to let year after year blow by you while you get fucked up. before you know it, it might be too late to turn it around completely.
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