Thanks man and to well everyone for the advice. Hopefully, I don't blow up your inbox. Kidding, but in all seriousness thanks.
To PB and Soda, I have considered looking into it, but the main reason I haven't pursued it is because I like and own guns. Where I'm from, the second you start going down that path they take em away. I see my gun collection as a kind of symbol of my hard work, and getting those taken away would just make my mental state worse. One of my favorite things that I do is go hit the range with my dad and my brother, two of the people that really make me honestly forget my problems I'm having. They're some of the few people that make me feel as if though my existence alone is enough for them to be happy. Not to say that too many people in my life ask something of me, but that there are certain people that do ask so much of me. And because the constantly ask so much, it stretch me thin between their wants and needs and that of the others who do the same. Again another story for another time.
For the record, I never ever intend to harm another person, animal, or myself with them. The only time the first two will ever have to happen is if it's a no other option situation for defending myself/someone else.
Thanks for hearing me out, and making me feel better Slap.