oh i'm still here, panicking of whether Lee Ralph rides 44s or 55s and if i get 55s should i wait a bit because the hangar width might be shortened and they might invert the kingpin but what if stage 12s come out this summer? fuck then what do i do? and how will the stage 12s be different to 11s? and then if thunder rehash the 151 christ i'll be incapacitated with indecision, sleepless nights concerned with turning geometry, location of manufacturing, dimensions, bushing quality, kingpin exposure but really i'm a 40 yr old man who slaps curbs and slashes pool coping. why does it even matter? am i just trying to avoid thinking about real shit like money, career, family and my steep demise into ineptitude and eventual death? what was it all for? how much time did i consume thinking about something so meaningless? but isn't that what the buddhists say, take things of little matter very seriously and shrug of the big things. its all about the fucking trucks...