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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #240 on: March 19, 2022, 09:27:26 AM »
I have identity issues that I guess I never really talk about and don't know how to talk about with my loved ones. I thought I could talk to my wife about it but I understand she isn't my therapist. I spend most days depressed in a fog which may or may not be linked to a neurological disorder that I second guess because I don't think I received a proper diagnosis. Meds help for sure but it feels embarrassing when people compare it to legal meth. Ive been raw dogging life mostly and I have a decent paying job and have health insurance but sitting down and taking calls back to back is so exhausting. I'm too exhausted to clean up after myself only until it gets unbearable. I know therapy would be good for me but its so hard to do anything for myself that I haven't scheduled anything yet, and when I'm in therapy I don't really open up. Maybe I wasn't in it long enough or just didn't vibe w me therapist enough to be completely open. I guess I'm just using this as my journal for right now, not asking for any advice specifically (though a tip or two I'd appreciate).
Any one ever feel trapped? I feel I'll never move out of this small shitty town, go back to school for what I want, or anything really.

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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #241 on: March 22, 2022, 01:30:48 AM »
I have identity issues that I guess I never really talk about and don't know how to talk about with my loved ones. I thought I could talk to my wife about it but I understand she isn't my therapist. I spend most days depressed in a fog which may or may not be linked to a neurological disorder that I second guess because I don't think I received a proper diagnosis. Meds help for sure but it feels embarrassing when people compare it to legal meth. Ive been raw dogging life mostly and I have a decent paying job and have health insurance but sitting down and taking calls back to back is so exhausting. I'm too exhausted to clean up after myself only until it gets unbearable. I know therapy would be good for me but its so hard to do anything for myself that I haven't scheduled anything yet, and when I'm in therapy I don't really open up. Maybe I wasn't in it long enough or just didn't vibe w me therapist enough to be completely open. I guess I'm just using this as my journal for right now, not asking for any advice specifically (though a tip or two I'd appreciate).
Any one ever feel trapped? I feel I'll never move out of this small shitty town, go back to school for what I want, or anything really.

I've been to a therapist and it's kinda mid. I've spent like 100 bucks. It's basically just venting to people. Idk about CBT. If you feel like it would be good for you try it out.

Idk what to say about ur identity issues or whatever. But if you ever feeling trapped in life, you're just in your head. As long as you are motivated and your brain is good you can do anything.
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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #242 on: March 22, 2022, 01:39:01 AM »
Anyone else having trouble adjusting to adulthood? I'm 24 soon to be 25 and the reality that people are basically fighting each other over money to survive has just sunk in. Kinda embarassing how late i realized that. I was in school and doing internships so i was too busy to actually notice until now.

I just be looking at house prices, inflation, and looming issues and it just all seems sort of fucked.

It feels so weird to do anything for fun; like skate and play guitar. I always wanted to be a good skateboarder and play songs just for enjoyments sake. Now it just kinda feels like I'm wasting my time since i don't really want to be sponsored or write my own music.

I just see young people around me like slinging properties as realtors, working 60 hr weeks, commuting to jobs, selling themselves on only fans and it's like damn wtf am i doing?

I'll get strong migraines every once in a while just thinking about that shit. Maybe that's just life i suppose. Maybe i need an ssri subscription. Everything is just so weird.
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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #243 on: March 22, 2022, 09:25:34 AM »
Anyone else having trouble adjusting to adulthood? I'm 24 soon to be 25 and the reality that people are basically fighting each other over money to survive has just sunk in. Kinda embarassing how late i realized that. I was in school and doing internships so i was too busy to actually notice until now.

I just be looking at house prices, inflation, and looming issues and it just all seems sort of fucked.

It feels so weird to do anything for fun; like skate and play guitar. I always wanted to be a good skateboarder and play songs just for enjoyments sake. Now it just kinda feels like I'm wasting my time since i don't really want to be sponsored or write my own music.

I just see young people around me like slinging properties as realtors, working 60 hr weeks, commuting to jobs, selling themselves on only fans and it's like damn wtf am i doing?

I'll get strong migraines every once in a while just thinking about that shit. Maybe that's just life i suppose. Maybe i need an ssri subscription. Everything is just so weird.

Ha, yeah. I heard it qouted as:

"kind of a bummer to have been born at the very end of the Fuck Around century just to live the rest of my life in the Find Out century"

I'm never going to own a house or have kids (not from lack of trying, and adoption is way too expensive). Simply can't afford it, and we're in the lower middle class. I don't know how everyone else is getting by. The economy is so brutal, somethings gotta give.
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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #244 on: March 22, 2022, 03:42:46 PM »
Anyone else having trouble adjusting to adulthood? I'm 24 soon to be 25 and the reality that people are basically fighting each other over money to survive has just sunk in. Kinda embarassing how late i realized that. I was in school and doing internships so i was too busy to actually notice until now.

I just be looking at house prices, inflation, and looming issues and it just all seems sort of fucked.

It feels so weird to do anything for fun; like skate and play guitar. I always wanted to be a good skateboarder and play songs just for enjoyments sake. Now it just kinda feels like I'm wasting my time since i don't really want to be sponsored or write my own music.

I just see young people around me like slinging properties as realtors, working 60 hr weeks, commuting to jobs, selling themselves on only fans and it's like damn wtf am i doing?

I'll get strong migraines every once in a while just thinking about that shit. Maybe that's just life i suppose. Maybe i need an ssri subscription. Everything is just so weird.

I had no concept of a future until I was 30 and even then it was vague. Got a degree in my late 20s, but prior to that I worked like a motherfucker at low paying jobs and got fucked up all the time kinda because there was no idea of a future and when it came up, there was nothing, so the cycle continued. I stopped skating and playing guitar during my 20s. Those were really bad choices that took me til I was 35/36 to get back into.

I've been pretty bare minimum living most of my adult life and always, always hustling to make extra scratch. I don't come from a place where there's anything to be given or gifted to me in a financial or property sort of way, so it's make it work or don't do a damn thing.

I'm saying all this because if you give up on the things you love and enjoy because they're not making you $, you will be more unhappy than if you keep at it. Maybe take a break, but try to not quit. Music and skating have helped me so damn much.

While the world is fuxked up, especially right now, I don't envy folks your age who have grown up with the social media sphere and post 9/11 news world. Can't escape the doom scroll and that takes a toll. Its traumatic to be told we won't succeed or that things were better before and won't get better now. I honor that, homie but life got better for me after 24.. Shit at 24, I had so much dread and hopelessness that in tried to join the Navy. I'm a yoga and meditation teacher and social worker/counselor, and I tried to go in the military because the world seemed so fucked up. Shits real, trying to keep up. I can't keep up. Can't keep up. Can't keep up. Out of step!

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Gx6_wrFZcu0

Real talk, there's times when I question my path and wish I had that govt health insurance or was making a good salary instead of finishing grad school and making $19/hr at 36, but all the people, most of em that I knew who didn't follow their heart but make the big bucks and have a big house, man, they're not living.

You got this.
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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #245 on: March 25, 2022, 07:40:09 AM »
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Anyone else having trouble adjusting to adulthood? I'm 24 soon to be 25 and the reality that people are basically fighting each other over money to survive has just sunk in. Kinda embarassing how late i realized that. I was in school and doing internships so i was too busy to actually notice until now.

I just be looking at house prices, inflation, and looming issues and it just all seems sort of fucked.

It feels so weird to do anything for fun; like skate and play guitar. I always wanted to be a good skateboarder and play songs just for enjoyments sake. Now it just kinda feels like I'm wasting my time since i don't really want to be sponsored or write my own music.

I just see young people around me like slinging properties as realtors, working 60 hr weeks, commuting to jobs, selling themselves on only fans and it's like damn wtf am i doing?

I'll get strong migraines every once in a while just thinking about that shit. Maybe that's just life i suppose. Maybe i need an ssri subscription. Everything is just so weird.
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I had no concept of a future until I was 30 and even then it was vague. Got a degree in my late 20s, but prior to that I worked like a motherfucker at low paying jobs and got fucked up all the time kinda because there was no idea of a future and when it came up, there was nothing, so the cycle continued. I stopped skating and playing guitar during my 20s. Those were really bad choices that took me til I was 35/36 to get back into.

I've been pretty bare minimum living most of my adult life and always, always hustling to make extra scratch. I don't come from a place where there's anything to be given or gifted to me in a financial or property sort of way, so it's make it work or don't do a damn thing.

I'm saying all this because if you give up on the things you love and enjoy because they're not making you $, you will be more unhappy than if you keep at it. Maybe take a break, but try to not quit. Music and skating have helped me so damn much.

While the world is fuxked up, especially right now, I don't envy folks your age who have grown up with the social media sphere and post 9/11 news world. Can't escape the doom scroll and that takes a toll. Its traumatic to be told we won't succeed or that things were better before and won't get better now. I honor that, homie but life got better for me after 24.. Shit at 24, I had so much dread and hopelessness that in tried to join the Navy. I'm a yoga and meditation teacher and social worker/counselor, and I tried to go in the military because the world seemed so fucked up. Shits real, trying to keep up. I can't keep up. Can't keep up. Can't keep up. Out of step!

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Gx6_wrFZcu0

Real talk, there's times when I question my path and wish I had that govt health insurance or was making a good salary instead of finishing grad school and making $19/hr at 36, but all the people, most of em that I knew who didn't follow their heart but make the big bucks and have a big house, man, they're not living.

You got this.

as someone who is trying to get back into my hobbies at 30 I feel this post.

I never quit but I barely skated, made art, surfed since I got my first "big boy" job for 19 an hour... whats the point if I cant enjoy life. Plus im making a whopping 39k a year and am broker than ever. treadmill dang ole

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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #246 on: March 25, 2022, 09:27:48 AM »
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Anyone else having trouble adjusting to adulthood? I'm 24 soon to be 25 and the reality that people are basically fighting each other over money to survive has just sunk in. Kinda embarassing how late i realized that. I was in school and doing internships so i was too busy to actually notice until now.

I just be looking at house prices, inflation, and looming issues and it just all seems sort of fucked.

It feels so weird to do anything for fun; like skate and play guitar. I always wanted to be a good skateboarder and play songs just for enjoyments sake. Now it just kinda feels like I'm wasting my time since i don't really want to be sponsored or write my own music.

I just see young people around me like slinging properties as realtors, working 60 hr weeks, commuting to jobs, selling themselves on only fans and it's like damn wtf am i doing?

I'll get strong migraines every once in a while just thinking about that shit. Maybe that's just life i suppose. Maybe i need an ssri subscription. Everything is just so weird.
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I had no concept of a future until I was 30 and even then it was vague. Got a degree in my late 20s, but prior to that I worked like a motherfucker at low paying jobs and got fucked up all the time kinda because there was no idea of a future and when it came up, there was nothing, so the cycle continued. I stopped skating and playing guitar during my 20s. Those were really bad choices that took me til I was 35/36 to get back into.

I've been pretty bare minimum living most of my adult life and always, always hustling to make extra scratch. I don't come from a place where there's anything to be given or gifted to me in a financial or property sort of way, so it's make it work or don't do a damn thing.

I'm saying all this because if you give up on the things you love and enjoy because they're not making you $, you will be more unhappy than if you keep at it. Maybe take a break, but try to not quit. Music and skating have helped me so damn much.

While the world is fuxked up, especially right now, I don't envy folks your age who have grown up with the social media sphere and post 9/11 news world. Can't escape the doom scroll and that takes a toll. Its traumatic to be told we won't succeed or that things were better before and won't get better now. I honor that, homie but life got better for me after 24.. Shit at 24, I had so much dread and hopelessness that in tried to join the Navy. I'm a yoga and meditation teacher and social worker/counselor, and I tried to go in the military because the world seemed so fucked up. Shits real, trying to keep up. I can't keep up. Can't keep up. Can't keep up. Out of step!

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Gx6_wrFZcu0

Real talk, there's times when I question my path and wish I had that govt health insurance or was making a good salary instead of finishing grad school and making $19/hr at 36, but all the people, most of em that I knew who didn't follow their heart but make the big bucks and have a big house, man, they're not living.

You got this.
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as someone who is trying to get back into my hobbies at 30 I feel this post.

I never quit but I barely skated, made art, surfed since I got my first "big boy" job for 19 an hour... whats the point if I cant enjoy life. Plus im making a whopping 39k a year and am broker than ever. treadmill dang ole

Exactly, man. We gotta feed the soul. I try to figure out ways to go to a job as little as possible so that I'm not glued to the grind like my old man. Then I see rich old people who have these high paying gigs, 6 figures plus, who work until 65+. They got nice shit and fat houses but I don't know what they're doing. If I was a money making dude id be stoked to save 500k or even less, but 500 is a nice #, buy a property with a rental unit on it and rent that shit out to pay the taxes.

I have a friend who did that, but w less saved, like nothing saved, but has DIYed his way and its taken him 15 years and there arent crazy extras, but he doesn't have to work for anyone and with all the skills he has developed (Learning solar, construction, mechanics, etc) he fixes his owns shit and can contract himself out to a few bigger jobs per year and be good. That's the attainable dream.

But what I also don't get, I mean I get the social brainwash, but people needing to go to a job for a "sense of purpose." My old man is like "I don't know what I'll do when I retire," and I'm like "dude, what did you do when you were growing up? What do you do on the weekend?" Dude never takes vacation, so that's a non question, but man, fuck going to a job. I got a cool job right now and I'm finishing this masters degree. All my classmates are rushing to find a shitty job and I'm like not. I'm not gonna kill myself to make a paycheck again. I'm good with rice lentils and black coffee =)

Glad you are still skating, surfing, and making art, even a little bit.
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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #247 on: March 28, 2022, 09:17:59 PM »
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Anyone else having trouble adjusting to adulthood? I'm 24 soon to be 25 and the reality that people are basically fighting each other over money to survive has just sunk in. Kinda embarassing how late i realized that. I was in school and doing internships so i was too busy to actually notice until now.

I just be looking at house prices, inflation, and looming issues and it just all seems sort of fucked.

It feels so weird to do anything for fun; like skate and play guitar. I always wanted to be a good skateboarder and play songs just for enjoyments sake. Now it just kinda feels like I'm wasting my time since i don't really want to be sponsored or write my own music.

I just see young people around me like slinging properties as realtors, working 60 hr weeks, commuting to jobs, selling themselves on only fans and it's like damn wtf am i doing?

I'll get strong migraines every once in a while just thinking about that shit. Maybe that's just life i suppose. Maybe i need an ssri subscription. Everything is just so weird.
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I had no concept of a future until I was 30 and even then it was vague. Got a degree in my late 20s, but prior to that I worked like a motherfucker at low paying jobs and got fucked up all the time kinda because there was no idea of a future and when it came up, there was nothing, so the cycle continued. I stopped skating and playing guitar during my 20s. Those were really bad choices that took me til I was 35/36 to get back into.

I've been pretty bare minimum living most of my adult life and always, always hustling to make extra scratch. I don't come from a place where there's anything to be given or gifted to me in a financial or property sort of way, so it's make it work or don't do a damn thing.

I'm saying all this because if you give up on the things you love and enjoy because they're not making you $, you will be more unhappy than if you keep at it. Maybe take a break, but try to not quit. Music and skating have helped me so damn much.

While the world is fuxked up, especially right now, I don't envy folks your age who have grown up with the social media sphere and post 9/11 news world. Can't escape the doom scroll and that takes a toll. Its traumatic to be told we won't succeed or that things were better before and won't get better now. I honor that, homie but life got better for me after 24.. Shit at 24, I had so much dread and hopelessness that in tried to join the Navy. I'm a yoga and meditation teacher and social worker/counselor, and I tried to go in the military because the world seemed so fucked up. Shits real, trying to keep up. I can't keep up. Can't keep up. Can't keep up. Out of step!

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Gx6_wrFZcu0

Real talk, there's times when I question my path and wish I had that govt health insurance or was making a good salary instead of finishing grad school and making $19/hr at 36, but all the people, most of em that I knew who didn't follow their heart but make the big bucks and have a big house, man, they're not living.

You got this.

Damn. Your personal stories and words always end up making me feel uplifted. I also feel like everything's going to be alright. Thank you for sharing your Light brother.

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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #248 on: March 29, 2022, 12:20:15 AM »
Anyone else having trouble adjusting to adulthood? I'm 24 soon to be 25 and the reality that people are basically fighting each other over money to survive has just sunk in. Kinda embarassing how late i realized that. I was in school and doing internships so i was too busy to actually notice until now.

I just be looking at house prices, inflation, and looming issues and it just all seems sort of fucked.

It feels so weird to do anything for fun; like skate and play guitar. I always wanted to be a good skateboarder and play songs just for enjoyments sake. Now it just kinda feels like I'm wasting my time since i don't really want to be sponsored or write my own music.

I just see young people around me like slinging properties as realtors, working 60 hr weeks, commuting to jobs, selling themselves on only fans and it's like damn wtf am i doing?

I'll get strong migraines every once in a while just thinking about that shit. Maybe that's just life i suppose. Maybe i need an ssri subscription. Everything is just so weird.

absolutely.

i'm at the tail end of my 30s now and other than finishing school i basically have zero traditional milestones under my belt. at this point starting a family is highly unlikely. even having a life partner seems highly unlikely. i don't even know if i want one. i have worked a couple of cool and interesting jobs and also had positions of responsibility, but that doesn't count for much where i live. where i live you are supposed to finish an apprenticeship while still living with your parents or finish studying in your early 20s. i always lacked money to focus on studying. it was always a money problem for me, i had to work too much on the side for rent, had no access to government funds and it was important to cut any material support from my parents when i moved out because that would always end up straining our relationship. i have a low sense of self worth resulting from how my parents brought me up. they were kind of negative and dismissive cause they thought that was better than positive reinforcement. they were not the motivational type... so i never learned to negotiate my way up. i basically change jobs every few years and then work my way up from the bottom because i have no idea how to sell myself. my friends have families, two of my school buds are actual millionaires, while i owe my bank a couple thousand because i got mad depressed during covid and maxed out all my credit within a few months where i wasn't able to work, just by ignoring the fact that i'm basically pummeling myself into bankruptcy. i was always dirt poor and whenever i have money i end up buying all the shit i needed the whole time and end up zero summed again.

look, you have more than ten years ahead to do way better at my age than i do now. and i still feel like i have it pretty ok. because while i'm sort of poor, i'm not really starving, and luckily, because i live in a welfare state, if i get too sick or poor there's still ways so i can keep my housing.

and then apart from financial or material aspects, there's my theory that you become an adult when your reflex to identifying a problem isn't mainly emotional anymore, but rather analytical. like being afraid of the dark as a child because of fear of the unknown vs caution in the dark as an adult, not because there's monsters, but because you can't see shit and don't want to hurt yourself. you change irrational fears and concerns against problem solving. imo you have become an adult when your brain mainly works in problem solving mode. that is still very hard for me as i often react to problems way too emotional still to the point where i have to check out for a while before i can get my shit together and get to the problem analysis.

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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #249 on: March 29, 2022, 11:14:52 AM »
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« Reply #250 on: March 30, 2022, 06:10:24 AM »
Been a while since I visited this thread, don't really expect or require much response just wanted a vaguely anonymous place to say how I feel.


Me and my gf aren't seeing each other ATM, we aren't seeing anyone else either so I am almost dealing with this okay, but everything else in the world is kind of a bummer. My mum and brother are both struggling with their mental health because of my dad leaving (I am 18 just FYI) I don't really care about him leaving but my mum and brother being hurt by it puts pressure on me lol. My dad is generally not that bad but his head is shot from drug use in his 20s so sometimes he isn't the greatest.


I just got a new car that I love but had to drive around for a week without tax or insurance on it which sucked a lot of the enjoyment out, I don't deal with breaking rules very well lol. It is also running on worn tyres so I need to get new ones which is putting a bit of financial strain on me, I really shouldn't have got the car but my old one is literally cursed and I justified the purchase.


Work fucking blows, I am bored, don't have enough to do, have nothing in common with the people I work with and shit. I drink 2-3 tins of monster a day just so time moves faster, which means I can't sleep and it makes me feel super emotional during, and super fucking bummed after.


I can't really skate much due to working hours and my mood and the fact I am fucking terrible at it. Not really a scene up here and I'm sure I wouldn't fit in anyway. It's a shame because I love the whole scene and I do love skating and trying to do shit, but I just get bummed that I suck and probs won't improve for a variety of reasons.


All of this has led me to be really grumpy, which means I am mean to my gf who has been nothing but good to me and is my favourite thing in the world.


IDK I'm just in a rut and will probably delete this later lol.


My bad if this is the wrong place or whatever,


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« Reply #251 on: April 11, 2022, 08:24:30 PM »
I relapsed recently and I feel like a huge piece of shit. This is my umpteenth time trying to stay clean. Any pals have experience here? Iím working on identifying triggers and it seems like for me itís work stress > booze > coke bender. I was doing alright for awhile but I got hurt and havenít been able to skate so itís just me alone with my feelings as of late

Feelings of depression and anxiety have been overwhelming and they donít go away until Iím fucked up on something

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« Reply #252 on: April 12, 2022, 08:28:27 AM »
I relapsed recently and I feel like a huge piece of shit. This is my umpteenth time trying to stay clean. Any pals have experience here? Iím working on identifying triggers and it seems like for me itís work stress > booze > coke bender. I was doing alright for awhile but I got hurt and havenít been able to skate so itís just me alone with my feelings as of late

Feelings of depression and anxiety have been overwhelming and they donít go away until Iím fucked up on something

Try not to beat yourself up. Since this is a skate forum, look at it like learning a trick - you make more as you get better at it; it takes a while to get it on lock.
Are you going it alone or are you seeking professional or peer help for substances or depression/anxiety? Iíve benefited from treatment for anxiety and depression and  I know theyíre not for everyone, but 12 step groups helped a ton for me.
Good insight seeing that work stress is a trigger. Do you have any resources to reduce that?
I hear you on getting hurt. I started skating a lot when I first got sober. I remember being crushed when I realized I needed to slow down and let some chronic injuries heal. It seems like itís fairly common to replace one addictive behavior with a less harmful one early on. Is there a low impact activity you can do while healing?  Iím a big believer in walking. And itís so played out and stale and woo-woo and even corporate at this point, but meditation, too.

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« Reply #253 on: April 12, 2022, 06:11:36 PM »
I don't know how to put this, but hopefully I can keep it short. My niece takes the same train as the shooting in BK, it was a stop before her, and she was already in school. She is a teenager, but it really struck close to home. I don't know why but it makes me feel better that at least she wasn't younger when this happened...today.

I don't think I can pretend to care about people and the stupid problems they complain about anymore. I'm not running around telling everyone about my niece. Yet some asshat is going yammer on about how they are bent about something that doesn't even matter. I almost lost my niece and it has affected me.

The joblow/gader thing really bothered me too.

WTF is wrong with people? I of course am broken inside myself but fuck man.

I needed to vent, sorry and also thank you.


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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #254 on: May 07, 2022, 12:12:20 AM »
im 29 and planning on kms soon maybe this year, depending on how things go. i am at the point where ive rationalized to myself that it isnt so tragic, suicide - ive been interested in movements like Death with Dignity and the Right to Die. its a lot of mixed feelings but i feel at peace with the thought of finally getting to bow out on my own terms.

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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #255 on: May 08, 2022, 08:25:07 AM »
im 29 and planning on kms soon maybe this year, depending on how things go. i am at the point where ive rationalized to myself that it isnt so tragic, suicide - ive been interested in movements like Death with Dignity and the Right to Die. its a lot of mixed feelings but i feel at peace with the thought of finally getting to bow out on my own terms.

I hope you will consider speaking with a psychiatrist. I canít speak for what youíre going through, but depression (and other mental illnesses) can really warp oneís perspective. Iím currently struggling with my own. It makes it difficult to acknowledge that there are high points, despite the abysmal lows that feel permanent and unending. Iíve found that therapy, meds, and regular sleep and exercise have helped me a lot. I dunno, my apologies if this isnít helpful at all.
If you can't handle me at my Marc Johnson, you don't deserve me at my Bobby Puleo.

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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #256 on: May 09, 2022, 04:34:52 PM »
im 29 and planning on kms soon maybe this year, depending on how things go. i am at the point where ive rationalized to myself that it isnt so tragic, suicide - ive been interested in movements like Death with Dignity and the Right to Die. its a lot of mixed feelings but i feel at peace with the thought of finally getting to bow out on my own terms.

Godspeed. Sending some good energy your way, maybe things will turn around before then. 🌌
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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #257 on: May 13, 2022, 11:13:05 AM »
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im 29 and planning on kms soon maybe this year, depending on how things go. i am at the point where ive rationalized to myself that it isnt so tragic, suicide - ive been interested in movements like Death with Dignity and the Right to Die. its a lot of mixed feelings but i feel at peace with the thought of finally getting to bow out on my own terms.
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Double on that. When I get down thought's I dont usually have are right at the forefront. Talk to someone. It's not as hard as it seems trust me.

I hope you will consider speaking with a psychiatrist. I canít speak for what youíre going through, but depression (and other mental illnesses) can really warp oneís perspective. Iím currently struggling with my own. It makes it difficult to acknowledge that there are high points, despite the abysmal lows that feel permanent and unending. Iíve found that therapy, meds, and regular sleep and exercise have helped me a lot. I dunno, my apologies if this isnít helpful at all.

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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #258 on: May 15, 2022, 07:24:31 AM »
I also found it was very encouraging to meet people who were genuinely interested in helping others just for the sake of helping. While I understand itís their job and they get paid for it, it still made me feel more positively about humanity.
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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #259 on: Today at 09:56:30 AM »
im 29 and planning on kms soon maybe this year, depending on how things go. i am at the point where ive rationalized to myself that it isnt so tragic, suicide - ive been interested in movements like Death with Dignity and the Right to Die. its a lot of mixed feelings but i feel at peace with the thought of finally getting to bow out on my own terms.
Before you do this I recommend going out skateboarding if thatís something you still do or if not go paintballing. The chances of getting hurt or hit while doing either activity is pretty high up there so do one of them for a bit like a month. Once you experience physical pain a bit it can make you grateful just to be here and be alive. This is all if your mental health issues donít stem from a chronic pain issue, if so Iím sorry for that I sympathize. But if whatís going on with you is solely mental then try it out. Getting the body into a little physical stress can sometimes take the mental stress away because the pain is external and happening right now.