Back in my hometown on winterbreak repping 513 hard as fuck. I love being back here forreal its so nice to see all the old homies and have all my old opportunities to do all the old dumb shit I used to. Ive been back at the restaurant I used to bus at and Ive been actually looking forward to it. Basically tonight someone gave me a kpin for being glad to have me back since the people they got to replace me all suck ass, and I did that shit perfect, I still got it #bruh.
After work I went to chill with the other two kids who bussed who I was friends with, and we went to this kids house who ended up having a party. My phone was all fucked up and I couldnt get ahold of my girl, and since Im trying to be honest with her and set the example of how I want her to be honest with me, I couldnt tell her about me planning on going out to drink and smoke after work.
Well my phone was fucked up still, so when I got there and saw it was a party with some ratchet hoes who always try to get with me when Im back in town, I figure I should dip since I get pissed when shes in a similar situation with douchebags who try to get with her.
Basically I got ahold of my brother who picked me up not too long after I got there, but in that time I drank a few beers, smoked, and did that kpin in a line with literally the purest molly I have ever seen. Shes not cool with pills at all, and Id just rather not tell her about the molly since the ratchets were there.
Basically when I got home, after some fucking around with my phone, I got it to stay on. My girl had sent me a text that said "well I'll let you go you dont seem interested" in the time my phone wouldnt work. I proceeded to text her and tell her exactly what happened minus the kpins/molly and said "I just thought the right thing to do would be to tell you, even though it isnt a bad thing you deserve to hear when i try to make the right decisions just as much as you deserve to know if I make mistakes. I love you and I hope you realize I'm always trying to think about you."
I dont know why Im posting in here, maybe because Im rolling and my brother is too high to give a shit about it, but I still feel like when she wakes up she is going to be pissed at me. I hate this feeling of trying to do the right thing but still fearing her taking it the wrong way. We have been together for almost 3 years and have definitely had some struggles, I cheated on her at the very beginning of our relationship, but she found out about it almost a year later. It sucks feeling like just because I was in the same vicinity of ratchet hos she will automatically assume I couldnt control myself. I dont know, Im sitting here rolling balls and I just wish it were the morning so she would wake up and either understand that even though I was in a bad situation I put our relationship first, or she will just be full rampage like fuckkkkk