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[poorlatino]

Sorry to hear that escapistfool. Bitches man... Let her go. Have a beer and push down the street and take some deep breaths and be glad you are capable of feeling things this complex, things that are non existent for many. Life, huh.

[escapistfool]

Sorry to hear that escapistfool. Bitches man... Let her go. Have a beer and push down the street and take some deep breaths and be glad you are capable of feeling things this complex, things that are non existent for many. Life, huh.

Thanks for the kind words. I really appreciate it. I just wish things were different.

[pencil]

Back in my hometown on winterbreak repping 513 hard as fuck.  I love being back here forreal its so nice to see all the old homies and have all my old opportunities to do all the old dumb shit I used to.  Ive been back at the restaurant I used to bus at and Ive been actually looking forward to it.  Basically tonight someone gave me a kpin for being glad to have me back since the people they got to replace me all suck ass, and I did that shit perfect, I still got it #bruh.

After work I went to chill with the other two kids who bussed who I was friends with, and we went to this kids house who ended up having a party.  My phone was all fucked up and I couldnt get ahold of my girl, and since Im trying to be honest with her and set the example of how I want her to be honest with me, I couldnt tell her about me planning on going out to drink and smoke after work. 

Well my phone was fucked up still, so when I got there and saw it was a party with some ratchet hoes who always try to get with me when Im back in town, I figure I should dip since I get pissed when shes in a similar situation with douchebags who try to get with her. 
Basically I got ahold of my brother who picked me up not too long after I got there, but in that time I drank a few beers, smoked, and did that kpin in a line with literally the purest molly I have ever seen.  Shes not cool with pills at all, and Id just rather not tell her about the molly since the ratchets were there.

Basically when I got home, after some fucking around with my phone, I got it to stay on.  My girl had sent me a text that said "well I'll let you go you dont seem interested" in the time my phone wouldnt work.  I proceeded to text her and tell her exactly what happened minus the kpins/molly and said "I just thought the right thing to do would be to tell you, even though it isnt a bad thing you deserve to hear when i try to make the right decisions just as much as you deserve to know if I make mistakes.  I love you and I hope you realize I'm always trying to think about you."

I dont know why Im posting in here, maybe because Im rolling and my brother is too high to give a shit about it, but I still feel like when she wakes up she is going to be pissed at me.  I hate this feeling of trying to do the right thing but still fearing her taking it the wrong way.  We have been together for almost 3 years and have definitely had some struggles, I cheated on her at the very beginning of our relationship, but she found out about it almost a year later.  It sucks feeling like just because I was in the same vicinity of ratchet hos she will automatically assume I couldnt control myself.  I dont know, Im sitting here rolling balls and I just wish it were the morning so she would wake up and either understand that even though I was in a bad situation I put our relationship first, or she will just be full rampage like fuckkkkk

[poorlatino]

Back in my hometown on winterbreak repping 513 hard as fuck.  I love being back here forreal its so nice to see all the old homies and have all my old opportunities to do all the old dumb shit I used to.  Ive been back at the restaurant I used to bus at and Ive been actually looking forward to it.  Basically tonight someone gave me a kpin for being glad to have me back since the people they got to replace me all suck ass, and I did that shit perfect, I still got it #bruh.

After work I went to chill with the other two kids who bussed who I was friends with, and we went to this kids house who ended up having a party.  My phone was all fucked up and I couldnt get ahold of my girl, and since Im trying to be honest with her and set the example of how I want her to be honest with me, I couldnt tell her about me planning on going out to drink and smoke after work. 

Well my phone was fucked up still, so when I got there and saw it was a party with some ratchet hoes who always try to get with me when Im back in town, I figure I should dip since I get pissed when shes in a similar situation with douchebags who try to get with her. 
Basically I got ahold of my brother who picked me up not too long after I got there, but in that time I drank a few beers, smoked, and did that kpin in a line with literally the purest molly I have ever seen.  Shes not cool with pills at all, and Id just rather not tell her about the molly since the ratchets were there.

Basically when I got home, after some fucking around with my phone, I got it to stay on.  My girl had sent me a text that said "well I'll let you go you dont seem interested" in the time my phone wouldnt work.  I proceeded to text her and tell her exactly what happened minus the kpins/molly and said "I just thought the right thing to do would be to tell you, even though it isnt a bad thing you deserve to hear when i try to make the right decisions just as much as you deserve to know if I make mistakes.  I love you and I hope you realize I'm always trying to think about you."

I dont know why Im posting in here, maybe because Im rolling and my brother is too high to give a shit about it, but I still feel like when she wakes up she is going to be pissed at me.  I hate this feeling of trying to do the right thing but still fearing her taking it the wrong way.  We have been together for almost 3 years and have definitely had some struggles, I cheated on her at the very beginning of our relationship, but she found out about it almost a year later.  It sucks feeling like just because I was in the same vicinity of ratchet hos she will automatically assume I couldnt control myself.  I dont know, Im sitting here rolling balls and I just wish it were the morning so she would wake up and either understand that even though I was in a bad situation I put our relationship first, or she will just be full rampage like fuckkkkk

I've had a lot of the same experiences. Don't worry too much man. She might be mad for a little but she won't hold a grudge. She obviously loves you  if you guys have been together for 3 years. Especially if you cheated on her before and she got over that. If anything get her a present like some jewelry or flowers or something cute, whatever you think she would like, don't forget to be sappy and tell her how much you love her over and over, at the same time play your cool and make her think your the one she really wants, just be confident. Not really good advice but I tried to help  haha. Best of luck to you and your girl man. Don't let her go.

[pencil]

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Back in my hometown on winterbreak repping 513 hard as fuck.  I love being back here forreal its so nice to see all the old homies and have all my old opportunities to do all the old dumb shit I used to.  Ive been back at the restaurant I used to bus at and Ive been actually looking forward to it.  Basically tonight someone gave me a kpin for being glad to have me back since the people they got to replace me all suck ass, and I did that shit perfect, I still got it #bruh.

After work I went to chill with the other two kids who bussed who I was friends with, and we went to this kids house who ended up having a party.  My phone was all fucked up and I couldnt get ahold of my girl, and since Im trying to be honest with her and set the example of how I want her to be honest with me, I couldnt tell her about me planning on going out to drink and smoke after work. 

Well my phone was fucked up still, so when I got there and saw it was a party with some ratchet hoes who always try to get with me when Im back in town, I figure I should dip since I get pissed when shes in a similar situation with douchebags who try to get with her. 
Basically I got ahold of my brother who picked me up not too long after I got there, but in that time I drank a few beers, smoked, and did that kpin in a line with literally the purest molly I have ever seen.  Shes not cool with pills at all, and Id just rather not tell her about the molly since the ratchets were there.

Basically when I got home, after some fucking around with my phone, I got it to stay on.  My girl had sent me a text that said "well I'll let you go you dont seem interested" in the time my phone wouldnt work.  I proceeded to text her and tell her exactly what happened minus the kpins/molly and said "I just thought the right thing to do would be to tell you, even though it isnt a bad thing you deserve to hear when i try to make the right decisions just as much as you deserve to know if I make mistakes.  I love you and I hope you realize I'm always trying to think about you."

I dont know why Im posting in here, maybe because Im rolling and my brother is too high to give a shit about it, but I still feel like when she wakes up she is going to be pissed at me.  I hate this feeling of trying to do the right thing but still fearing her taking it the wrong way.  We have been together for almost 3 years and have definitely had some struggles, I cheated on her at the very beginning of our relationship, but she found out about it almost a year later.  It sucks feeling like just because I was in the same vicinity of ratchet hos she will automatically assume I couldnt control myself.  I dont know, Im sitting here rolling balls and I just wish it were the morning so she would wake up and either understand that even though I was in a bad situation I put our relationship first, or she will just be full rampage like fuckkkkk

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I've had a lot of the same experiences. Don't worry too much man. She might be mad for a little but she won't hold a grudge. She obviously loves you  if you guys have been together for 3 years. Especially if you cheated on her before and she got over that. If anything get her a present like some jewelry or flowers or something cute, whatever you think she would like, don't forget to be sappy and tell her how much you love her over and over, at the same time play your cool and make her think your the one she really wants, just be confident. Not really good advice but I tried to help  haha. Best of luck to you and your girl man. Don't let her go.

I think I was just rolling super fucking hard, which is something I havent done in months same with benzos, but she was not pissed in the slightest.  She was happy that I told her and agreed that had I been able to get ahold of her she wouldve given me the option to stay but ultimately was uncomfortable with the sluts there.  Shes happy I thought of her, and that my course of actions was the right one to take.  She feels bad that I didnt get to drink with my friends just cause they like to chill with skanks so she asked me if I wanted to get a couple bottles of cheap champagne, make mimosas, and have her model the new stuff she got from victorias secret for me.  All in all things turned out okay, for once in my life.

[JB]

I started taking opiates like any other kid would, surgeries, broken bones, the typical way. That was about 6 or or 7 years ago. Today December 20th, 2013. I can't go a day without taking Methadone or Heroin. I can't watch a movie, go on a walk, shower, brush my teeth, fill out an application unless I'm high. This opiate devil has ruined many good relationships I've had with beautiful girlfriends who really cared about me and stuck around even though I would steal their money or blow them off because I'm waiting for my dealer or laying in my bed sick and sneezing and shitting every 5 minutes. I used to skate everyday it was my life and in many ways it still is. I daydream about me being clean and ripping like I used to. Having a normal day without a sore body hanging out with friends and sharing 2 liters of coke. I miss those days. I miss the people I had in my life, I miss the potential I showed and the the smart witty kid I once was. I was voted class clown over 3 times in different school, won spelling bees and was popular. Now days I'm known as the kid who will rip you off or the one who "used" to be a really cool kid. I don't have days anymore I have sickness and when i'm not sick I'm clouded by opiate abuse, blankly sitting on a couch in my moms basement watching movies and reading books. I don't talk as much as I used to, I don't do anything like I was able to. I miss the person I was and the person I was certain I would become. I've hurt my family �in many ways, and take advantage of anyone I can. Deep down i know it's wrong but these drugs that have tied me down won't let me leave. I'm scared to get clean because I still love getting high. It's scary and I wonder if I will ever be able to see myself in the mirror again, that bright young beautiful kid I was with a huge smile ready to take on the world. I'm only 22 so in the distance I can see the light of hope, I just hope I make it in time before I'm dead or in jail. I'm sorry friends for taking your parents medicine out of their cabinet I'm sorry Hayden (my first awesome girlfriend) for stealing your moms pills (I never got caught but I know drugs are the reason were not together anymore) I'm sorry to all my family for taking money from you and feeding you lies. I'm Sorry Danny (me) for doing this to you, you hd a rough childhood I didn't mean to make life worse as you got older. I'll see you soon buddy. Stay Golden

i have a 21 year old brother who has been through all of the same shit you have since hes been 18. i dont know what addiction feels like, but from seeing how his life has been, i know opiate addiction is one of the hardest things for someone to kick. if your parents and family dont know about it, suck it up and tell them you need help. i know rehab is really fucking expensive, but the most success my brother has had and his longest sober stints have been because of treatment. if your parents can help you out, its going to give you a way better chance of recovery. after that, make going to AA and NA meetings part of your life. its not like you can be sober for a few weeks or even months, then your totally cured. you need to always stay up on it and make soberiaty your priority. one of my moms friends is an alcoholic and shes been going to AA meetings for probably 20 something years and she said if she didnt work that hard at it, she'd probably be dead. just keep your head up because it can get better. id advise against getting on something like suboxin or another opiate replacement for a long period of time. its just supposed to help you ween off, not take over as your new addiction. my brother has been on that shit for years, and im pretty sure he still uses.

Sorry to hear that escapistfool. Bitches man... Let her go. Have a beer and push down the street and take some deep breaths and be glad you are capable of feeling things this complex, things that are non existent for many. Life, huh.

and escapistfool, im sorry to hear about your girl. 4 years is a long time to be with someone, so i can imagine youre pretty devastated about the whole thing. but it sounds like you did nothing wrong and youve been a pretty good boyfriend to her, so dont beat yourself up too bad. younger girls, especially when theyre in college want freedom to do whatever they want and if thats the case, there really isnt anything you can do to keep her. it will be really hard to get over her, but its part of life. just remember that you were a good boyfriend to her, and its not your fault. and as hard as it might be, dont get back together with her. nothing will ever erase the fact that she was the one who cheated on you and didnt value your relationship the first time, and youll always be stressing out about whether or not shes going to leave you again. like l33t said, you had a girl before, you can get another. shit happens and sometimes you just gotta roll with it. and this is just my suggestion, but maybe you should give the disney land tickets to some little kid who would be really psyched. maybe a cousin of yours or something. it might make you feel good to take off on vacation with a new chick, but it sounds like a spiteful move, and disney land to me feels like youd have to kind of force yourself to have fun with a new girl, when you will probably be thinking about your old girl the whole time. im just trying to suggest keeping things positive instead of spiteful. ive gotten bitter and spiteful towards an ex before and after a while it just makes you feel like an asshole. randomly making some kids day by giving them tickets to disney land, that would be something you have the rest of your life to remember and feel good about. keep your head up dude.

[escapistfool]

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I started taking opiates like any other kid would, surgeries, broken bones, the typical way. That was about 6 or or 7 years ago. Today December 20th, 2013. I can't go a day without taking Methadone or Heroin. I can't watch a movie, go on a walk, shower, brush my teeth, fill out an application unless I'm high. This opiate devil has ruined many good relationships I've had with beautiful girlfriends who really cared about me and stuck around even though I would steal their money or blow them off because I'm waiting for my dealer or laying in my bed sick and sneezing and shitting every 5 minutes. I used to skate everyday it was my life and in many ways it still is. I daydream about me being clean and ripping like I used to. Having a normal day without a sore body hanging out with friends and sharing 2 liters of coke. I miss those days. I miss the people I had in my life, I miss the potential I showed and the the smart witty kid I once was. I was voted class clown over 3 times in different school, won spelling bees and was popular. Now days I'm known as the kid who will rip you off or the one who "used" to be a really cool kid. I don't have days anymore I have sickness and when i'm not sick I'm clouded by opiate abuse, blankly sitting on a couch in my moms basement watching movies and reading books. I don't talk as much as I used to, I don't do anything like I was able to. I miss the person I was and the person I was certain I would become. I've hurt my family �in many ways, and take advantage of anyone I can. Deep down i know it's wrong but these drugs that have tied me down won't let me leave. I'm scared to get clean because I still love getting high. It's scary and I wonder if I will ever be able to see myself in the mirror again, that bright young beautiful kid I was with a huge smile ready to take on the world. I'm only 22 so in the distance I can see the light of hope, I just hope I make it in time before I'm dead or in jail. I'm sorry friends for taking your parents medicine out of their cabinet I'm sorry Hayden (my first awesome girlfriend) for stealing your moms pills (I never got caught but I know drugs are the reason were not together anymore) I'm sorry to all my family for taking money from you and feeding you lies. I'm Sorry Danny (me) for doing this to you, you hd a rough childhood I didn't mean to make life worse as you got older. I'll see you soon buddy. Stay Golden

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i have a 21 year old brother who has been through all of the same shit you have since hes been 18. i dont know what addiction feels like, but from seeing how his life has been, i know opiate addiction is one of the hardest things for someone to kick. if your parents and family dont know about it, suck it up and tell them you need help. i know rehab is really fucking expensive, but the most success my brother has had and his longest sober stints have been because of treatment. if your parents can help you out, its going to give you a way better chance of recovery. after that, make going to AA and NA meetings part of your life. its not like you can be sober for a few weeks or even months, then your totally cured. you need to always stay up on it and make soberiaty your priority. one of my moms friends is an alcoholic and shes been going to AA meetings for probably 20 something years and she said if she didnt work that hard at it, she'd probably be dead. just keep your head up because it can get better. id advise against getting on something like suboxin or another opiate replacement for a long period of time. its just supposed to help you ween off, not take over as your new addiction. my brother has been on that shit for years, and im pretty sure he still uses.

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Sorry to hear that escapistfool. Bitches man... Let her go. Have a beer and push down the street and take some deep breaths and be glad you are capable of feeling things this complex, things that are non existent for many. Life, huh.

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and escapistfool, im sorry to hear about your girl. 4 years is a long time to be with someone, so i can imagine youre pretty devastated about the whole thing. but it sounds like you did nothing wrong and youve been a pretty good boyfriend to her, so dont beat yourself up too bad. younger girls, especially when theyre in college want freedom to do whatever they want and if thats the case, there really isnt anything you can do to keep her. it will be really hard to get over her, but its part of life. just remember that you were a good boyfriend to her, and its not your fault. and as hard as it might be, dont get back together with her. nothing will ever erase the fact that she was the one who cheated on you and didnt value your relationship the first time, and youll always be stressing out about whether or not shes going to leave you again. like l33t said, you had a girl before, you can get another. shit happens and sometimes you just gotta roll with it. and this is just my suggestion, but maybe you should give the disney land tickets to some little kid who would be really psyched. maybe a cousin of yours or something. it might make you feel good to take off on vacation with a new chick, but it sounds like a spiteful move, and disney land to me feels like youd have to kind of force yourself to have fun with a new girl, when you will probably be thinking about your old girl the whole time. im just trying to suggest keeping things positive instead of spiteful. ive gotten bitter and spiteful towards an ex before and after a while it just makes you feel like an asshole. randomly making some kids day by giving them tickets to disney land, that would be something you have the rest of your life to remember and feel good about. keep your head up dude.

Thank you so much. It will surely take a while for me to get over her.
I'm actually taking my sister instead, I've been neglecting my sister ever since things around the house turned sour. I have to be a big brother again to my sister.

[shark tits]

for all of yuz w/ opiate problems, the fact that you have [or have had] skating puts you ahead of most junkies who lack redeeming qualities/consuming activities. i've gone sick the hard way at my ma's house, homeless a freight train away from my supply, everywhere but jail [thank goodness]. get you a 3-5 day supply of benzos, they'll get you through w/drawal. don't trade one vice for another but a few days of benzos is what you'd get at a rehab clinic or a hip jail like multnomah county. after that, get back on your board, apologize to everyone, do whatever the fuck you do. if you can find dope you can find xanax, just make the effort to get past the first couple days then get hungry like greco did. if you're stoked on what you're doing it's not hard to stay clean.

[dask8d00d]

New Beyonce album is fire

[paraquat]

New Beyonce album is fire

Dude your sig is fire.

[poorlatino]

Yeah unfortunately my mom has been a heroin addict since I was in 1st grade. She was the first person to introduce the hard shit to me. I don't know my father he's in Mexico somewhere. I'm going to move out of this house and get as far away as I can from users and the dope. I like the Idea about taking Benzos while I get dope sick. It's still a scary thought though. I do find inspiration from Greco and I can't wait to be in the point in my life where I take out all my aggression on my skateboard. I may not be the happiest person, but I'll be clean and strong. Thanks slap pals for all the advice. Hopefully soon I'll give you guys an update on my journey through hell.

[Merked]

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Sorry to hear that escapistfool. Bitches man... Let her go. Have a beer and push down the street and take some deep breaths and be glad you are capable of feeling things this complex, things that are non existent for many. Life, huh.

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Thanks for the kind words. I really appreciate it. I just wish things were different.

Well put paraquat.  Also, escapist, as JB said, you didn't do anything wrong and you deserve better than her.  Be happy that she told you instead of going behind your back and crushing you even harder a few years down the line.  Girls that cheat stay cheating.  You are going to find someone better.

Also, I had a relationship for four years that ended pretty fucking badly as well.  Not by cheating, but from other complications.  It gets alot better, just so you know.  Stay up.

[LambShank]

I'm unironically wearing a sweater vest today and I'm not Gino

[Bronson]

I'm unironically wearing a sweater vest today and I'm not Gino

Word.

What kind of a sweater vest is it? What color? What are you wearing with it?

I bought this wine red lambswool sweater vest at a trift store a couple of months ago, but I have never worn it. It is really nice but I just feel like I cant pull it off. maybe under a blazer would be fine.

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I have a speech impediment where I can't pronounce the letter R correctly (its pronounced differently in my first language than in english). I was bullied about it when I was younger and it made me really self-concious. I went to speech threapy for years because of it but it didn't help.

These days I don't make such a great deal out of it, but sometimes it makes introducing myself annoying/anxiety-provoking because all of my names have R:s in it and people don't always understand my name so I have to keep repeating it and it does make me feel kind of dumb sometimes, even though it shouldn't.

Oh, and I suppose it's an anatomical issue because I had surgery for it when I was little where  they cut something on my tongue (frenulum?). I remember that the assistant to the surgeon forgot to use proper anaesthetics and the two of them bickering about it after he had operated on me.

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Hi Bronson, Where did you grow up and where do you live now?

How long did you receive speech therapy and at what age did you start?

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ASL?

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I am curious because I am a SLP.  As a function of that, I am interested in how services are provided, both domestically and internationally.  Many SLAP posters are in other countries, so differences may exist in how they address speech/language goals.

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Hi.

What is an SLP?

I grew up in Finland and am also living there currently.

I started receiving speech therapy when I was about 7 if I remember correctly. I think it lasted for about two years.

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Hi Bronson,

SLP stands for speech language pathologist.  SLPs are  the ones who provides speech and language therapy for the most part (in the u.s. anyway).  If it makes you feel any better, the /r/ sound is one of the last sounds acquired developmentally (the normative data varies greatly from 6-10 years of age).  Also, it is perhaps the most challenging speech sound error to address from a clinician stand point, or at least it is with very young children.  From what I gather from your post it sounds like it continues to bother you.  However, speech sound production is a motor activity and therefore you could stand to benefit from therapy if you wish to pursue it.  I would be surprised if you did not make gains, although it would take some time and conscious effort on your part to relearn the tongue placement. 

I understand why your parents may have chosen to stop speech therapy when you were 9.  I am willing to bet that it had no impact on your academic performance and the progress in speech was not what they assumed it would be. 


That is really interesting that the /r/ sound in Finnish is different than it is in english!  I was unaware of that.  After looking a bit online, is it the "trill /r/" specifically that you are talking about?

http://www.wikihow.com/Roll-Your-%22R%22s

Yup, thats the one. Thanks for the info! Do you have any knowledge about speech therapy with adults and how commonly people can learn things like that later on in life? Maybe I have to start worrrrrrrrrrrking on it again.

[Made In China]

I tend to overthink things and after reading escapistfool's story, I starting thinking about how shitty that would be if it happened to me. I just starting dating this awesome girl but ever since then I've been thinking about how we're going to break up. We're both seniors in high school and I'm going to community college next year while she's going to a college in state. I figure that there's a good chance we'll decide to break up before school starts but I guess we could stay together and do the sort of long distance thing. That's where I could see escapistfool's situation happening to me. I know I'm definitely just fucking overthinking everything and I should just enjoy the time we have, but that's just the kind of person I am.

I think it's rad you're talking your sister to Disneyland though. I neglect my brother a lot too.,

[LambShank]

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I'm unironically wearing a sweater vest today and I'm not Gino

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Word.

What kind of a sweater vest is it? What color? What are you wearing with it?

I bought this wine red lambswool sweater vest at a trift store a couple of months ago, but I have never worn it. It is really nice but I just feel like I cant pull it off. maybe under a blazer would be fine.

Same deal pretty much except its navy blue, found it at a thrift store and couldn't resist buying it because it was so cheap and a Brooks Brothers (which i hear are quite pricey). It was supposed to be for a Christmas party with my girlfriends family but we got in a fight before the party and I didn't end up going. Wore it with a plain white button up and it just felt unlike myself and I wasn't really liking it at all but got a few compliments from my family and girlfriend while I still have it on. Even if it looked okay I still felt too douchey to pull it successfully.
Maybe I'll try it out for some fancy occasion in the future but i kind of doubt it. Best of luck with yours though, I'm sure you'll receive some compliments whether you like it or not.

[excitableboy]

After several experiences like the one escapistfool described, I have come to regard monogamy as a forced and somewhat silly concept.
That said, I know couples that seem solid. It is an appealing idea but I have a hard time buying it.

Anyway, escapistfool: I have been in your shoes a couple of times, can't say I have lived down all of it completely, but it does wear off. Distract yourself in whatever way. Bed someone else if at all you are up for it. Try not to dwell.

[Hash Slinging Slasher]

On the other end of the relationship spectrum, I've been in a relationship for a little over a year now and I don't think I want to be in it anymore. I don't know what it is. Whatever was there when the relationship started just isn't there for me anymore. The only thing is that I feel like it would really fuck her up if I broke up with her. She seems a lot more invested in the relationship than I still am, but the bigger problem is that she's had self-harm issues and suicidal thoughts in the past. I think she's past all that, but I feel like those are things that could come back very quickly. She also says that I helped a lot with all the problems she was dealing with. It's probably also bad that I recently discovered that I like going to parties and shit and I feel like I'm going to drunkenly break up with her one of these times. I feel like a jerk amongst many other things, but I'm sick of being the white knight. I'm sick of feeling tied down. I'm in college. I should be putting myself out there, exploring different options, maybe hooking up with some girls here and there if I'm lucky. I have a messy situation on my hands and I really don't know what to do about it.

[shark tits]

On the other end of the relationship spectrum, I've been in a relationship for a little over a year now and I don't think I want to be in it anymore. I don't know what it is. Whatever was there when the relationship started just isn't there for me anymore. The only thing is that I feel like it would really fuck her up if I broke up with her. She seems a lot more invested in the relationship than I still am, but the bigger problem is that she's had self-harm issues and suicidal thoughts in the past. I think she's past all that, but I feel like those are things that could come back very quickly. She also says that I helped a lot with all the problems she was dealing with. It's probably also bad that I recently discovered that I like going to parties and shit and I feel like I'm going to drunkenly break up with her one of these times. I feel like a jerk amongst many other things, but I'm sick of being the white knight. I'm sick of feeling tied down. I'm in college. I should be putting myself out there, exploring different options, maybe hooking up with some girls here and there if I'm lucky. I have a messy situation on my hands and I really don't know what to do about it.

pawn her off on one of your single friends. win/win/win situation

[tobey]

so i went to my psychiatrist's office yesterday and the dude is just becoming the worst. he first told me hes going to take away the meds that have been working for me cause "he doesnt like them" next he convinced my mom the best place for me is a mental hospital in boston (i live in philly). I am not trying to kill myself or harm myself in anyway what so ever. I was in a mental hospital before and it was just the worst, never going back to one of those again. he also ignores my phone calls and tells the people in his office to disregard my messages because before i moved i was freaking out and called him a bunch of times to see if he could up my meds temporary just so i can deal with the move, and when i finally got someone like a week before my move they said he will get back to me, he never did. So i called another doctor and they called me back with in a few hours and i already set up another appointment with them. Im just done with that dude. Does anyone else go through this?

[shark tits]

so i went to my psychiatrist's office yesterday and the dude is just becoming the worst. he first told me hes going to take away the meds that have been working for me cause "he doesnt like them" next he convinced my mom the best place for me is a mental hospital in boston (i live in philly). I am not trying to kill myself or harm myself in anyway what so ever. I was in a mental hospital before and it was just the worst, never going back to one of those again. he also ignores my phone calls and tells the people in his office to disregard my messages because before i moved i was freaking out and called him a bunch of times to see if he could up my meds temporary just so i can deal with the move, and when i finally got someone like a week before my move they said he will get back to me, he never did. So i called another doctor and they called me back with in a few hours and i already set up another appointment with them. Im just done with that dude. Does anyone else go through this?

i'm trying to get hooked up w/ a psychiatrist and mental health in general so's i can get SSI. i just got a DR for the first time in my adult life and when i told her i'm wicked anxious/depressed about my anxiety she offered me SSRI's. i told her to take a flying fuck and that those things lead to school shootings and infanticide. i wanted benzos and i wasn't taking no for an answer. DRs are mostly pill pushers anymore, i've been misdiagnosed so many times for respiratory shit i don't have any more faith in them than newscasters. everything's a sham and everyone's full of shit. janitors halfass their job and DRs are no better. i haven't  been through the whole rigamarole that you have but i've seen it secondhand, my schizo sister had her identity stolen and everyone does fuck all to prosecute the africans responsible [not black people, nigerians] or help her get her cable back on. nobody wants to do their job it seems, i can't talk, i'm happily unemployed but god forbid if people were counting on me, i'd make an effort. sounds like you're doing the right thing replacing that shitbird w/ someone who listens to ya. good luck w/ all that.

[ThugWaffle]

I had a dream I was skating in some dunks.

[ThugWaffle]

My grandma sends me 40-100 dollars every week in the mail.  When I lived back home I'd always go do the easiest chores for like 20 bucks once a week.  She always drove me places and bought me stuff.  She's also paid a few months of my rent.  She basically only gives money to me and her church.  I tell her she doesn't have to give me so much but she does anyway.  And I feel really bad that she's been half-supporting my daily weed habit for the past few years.  But I don't want to stop smoking.  I don't smoke cigarettes though.

I'm the worst with girls.  All the action I've gotten has been clumsy bullshit with below mediocre sluts.  Since all I do is work, smoke and skate I feel like I have nothing to say to girls.  I don't think I can afford a girlfriend, because you need time and cash to keep a girl happy.  I'm so self-centered.

I have no work ethic.  I just want an easy job that pays well and lets me have evenings and weekends off.  I think university is impossible, and college too complex for those without a real passion for the trade.

I'll go to the skatepark for 2-3 hours after school then come home and nerd it out on message boards for the rest of the night.

I have virtually no real friends that I hang out with regularly in the city I currently live in.

I'm semi-insecure about my manhood.

Wow, I didn't think I'd have this much to say.

I'm pretty much the same as you except I don't smoke weed often and i hate myself in every aspect. I've slowly ruined skating for me and will slowly but surely stop skating. My friends have slowly moved onto other things and I don't think i have the commitment to skate by myself everyday, I suck at talking to girls so much that I wont even try, however, I'm pretty sure I'm into girls. Also, I'd love a Xanax, that is all.

[iSk84thechicas]

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My girlfriend of four years and 7 months cheated on me. She goes to UCSB (fuck that dumb ass party school) and she was at a party and a guy kissed her and she let it happen. She went to another party the next day, same guy was there, he did the same thing, kissed her and let it happen. She then told him she had a boyfriend. It doesn't matter now, she broke up with me 2 days ago because of what happened. It devastated me, I never thought she would be the kind of person to do that. Her reasoning is that she doesnt see me as a boyfriend anymore, but more of a best friend. So pretty much, I got friendzoned in a relationship. This is some bullshit, we've invested and spent so much time together and got through a lot of things together for it to end over some lousy kiss. I keep thinking in my head this happened because I am her first boyfriend and she wants to experience other things. I'm being selfish and thinking to myself that I dont want any other fucking guy to be with her or even have some kind of relation to her.This is really the first time it's ever happened to me and it's a terrible feeling. For the first time in my life I feel so down. I know most of you will laugh at my misfortune and crack jokes about it, it's alright, its the internet. But if anybody wants to give me some words to get by, that would be cool.

I know its not the end of the world for me, but my thoughts and emotions are clouding my judgment and I can't think straight.
Fuck UC Santa Barbara.

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Holy fuck that sucks dude. Honestly don't even trip out too hard over what may or may not have happened if you can, you don't wanna get into a space where every time you try to watch porn or see a sex scene in movie you just see her getting fucked, try not think about that aspect if you can. As much as it sucks it sounds like she wants to be with other people, and is more than likely being spurred on by a new group of slutty drunken friends, and the best friend shit is just a lie and a cowardly way out imo. �Cut and run for a while anyway, she sounds like she's more into her "new life" thing than being with you for the time being and if your not cool with that, which I'm sure you're not, there is really no point in trying to be friends imo. All that being said Im not sure how valid it is for me to be giving advice, since all my experience has only shown what not to do lol. If you have creative outlets pursue them to the the fullest or do something you've wanted to do but have been putting off. Good luck with it though man, just remember on the shittiest days the next one will probably be better!

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I sincerely do appreciate your words man. I'm sure it will take a lot of time. But if we're really supposed to be together, maybe time will work its way back to us and rekindle things. Or maybe Im just too stupid enough to believe in fairy tales. It's ridiculous, I've had 3 girlfriends before her and had sexual relations with 2 other girls before her but this is the only time that I've ever felt like she was the only girl in the world for me.
Thank you man, I really do appreciate it.

I'm sorry for what happened to you. I can relate to your story. Listen If I were you, I would cut all contact, because in the end, she still hurt you. You feel hurt. She cheated on you due to a kiss. You dont need that in your life.  If you become her friend or anything thats totally fucking disrespect to you. She is demoting you.  And you shouldnt take that shit. Just let her know how you feel, by just cutting contact, leave her alone. Go skate, chill with the homies, crack the books, fuck some bitches or hit the gym. Do whatever you gotta do, but don't let any girl walk all over you. I don't know you man, but i know you're better than that shit.

[Made In China]

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On the other end of the relationship spectrum, I've been in a relationship for a little over a year now and I don't think I want to be in it anymore. I don't know what it is. Whatever was there when the relationship started just isn't there for me anymore. The only thing is that I feel like it would really fuck her up if I broke up with her. She seems a lot more invested in the relationship than I still am, but the bigger problem is that she's had self-harm issues and suicidal thoughts in the past. I think she's past all that, but I feel like those are things that could come back very quickly. She also says that I helped a lot with all the problems she was dealing with. It's probably also bad that I recently discovered that I like going to parties and shit and I feel like I'm going to drunkenly break up with her one of these times. I feel like a jerk amongst many other things, but I'm sick of being the white knight. I'm sick of feeling tied down. I'm in college. I should be putting myself out there, exploring different options, maybe hooking up with some girls here and there if I'm lucky. I have a messy situation on my hands and I really don't know what to do about it.

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pawn her off on one of your single friends. win/win/win situation

I know, or at least hope, you're joking, but one of my friends actually tried to do this with me once. I flat out refused because that's fucked.

[iSk84thechicas]

i have been dealing with anxiety since i was 14. my first year of high school was the worst, i had many panic attacks in school n had leave early, i always never went outside my friends thought i died because i wouldn't respond to me or wouldn't go outside. when i was a Sophmore in highschool the meds started to work(i was on zolft) and i was a whole another person. i would go out skate all day, started doing better in school and everything was going great. Now skip ahead i just started college, nothing to serious just community college and then my anxiety started back up, but not to seriously i was able to still go to school and go out. now 2 years ago my anxiety got a lot worse, i had to quit my job and drop out of school (i felt like the meds stop working cause i have been on them since i was like 14 or 15 and now i was 19) so now im 21 been sitting my house for like 2 years not going out side execpt for getting food and now my parents want to move. they just want to move to the next town over but my anxiety is so bad i cant even imagine what its going to feel like living 3 miles from my confront  zone. i honestly dont know what im going to do, i thought about killing myself but i cant do that to my mom. she has been unbelievable with my anxiety. so much support and paying for my meds and doctor appointments i just cant. everyone says just to man up but its alot harder to do that n just say im going to man up. so now im back in to drinking my anxiety away. thanks in advance for feedback and thanks for reading.

Hey, I'm sorry about everything. Is your mom still willing to get you therapy in the next town over?  I think your body is ready to give up the current medication, maybe you can switch to another?  And I'm not trying to tell you what to do, but you ave to find some other way besides drinking, it will only do you more damage in the end, even though it will relieve your anxiety in the short term. And don't listen to the people who tell you to man up. They dont know what anxiety is like.  Its really painful.  I know because i have it as well. Good luck man, and maybe skating could be the cure.  Do something you love to do, talk it out or keep a journal. Good luck and god bless

[tobey]

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i have been dealing with anxiety since i was 14. my first year of high school was the worst, i had many panic attacks in school n had leave early, i always never went outside my friends thought i died because i wouldn't respond to me or wouldn't go outside. when i was a Sophmore in highschool the meds started to work(i was on zolft) and i was a whole another person. i would go out skate all day, started doing better in school and everything was going great. Now skip ahead i just started college, nothing to serious just community college and then my anxiety started back up, but not to seriously i was able to still go to school and go out. now 2 years ago my anxiety got a lot worse, i had to quit my job and drop out of school (i felt like the meds stop working cause i have been on them since i was like 14 or 15 and now i was 19) so now im 21 been sitting my house for like 2 years not going out side execpt for getting food and now my parents want to move. they just want to move to the next town over but my anxiety is so bad i cant even imagine what its going to feel like living 3 miles from my confront  zone. i honestly dont know what im going to do, i thought about killing myself but i cant do that to my mom. she has been unbelievable with my anxiety. so much support and paying for my meds and doctor appointments i just cant. everyone says just to man up but its alot harder to do that n just say im going to man up. so now im back in to drinking my anxiety away. thanks in advance for feedback and thanks for reading.

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Hey, I'm sorry about everything. Is your mom still willing to get you therapy in the next town over?  I think your body is ready to give up the current medication, maybe you can switch to another?  And I'm not trying to tell you what to do, but you ave to find some other way besides drinking, it will only do you more damage in the end, even though it will relieve your anxiety in the short term. And don't listen to the people who tell you to man up. They dont know what anxiety is like.  Its really painful.  I know because i have it as well. Good luck man, and maybe skating could be the cure.  Do something you love to do, talk it out or keep a journal. Good luck and god bless

i updated my situation a couple pages back but everything is fine now since i moved, built it in to my head way to much which anxiety makes you do. i have only drank like twice since i moved but not because i was having anxiety but i just wanted to drink and socialize ( i didnt get even drunk). thanks for the advice though!

[poorlatino]

I was the David Schwimmer poster a couple years ago if you guys remember that.. Sorry.


I tried to at least be a funny troll. Didn't work so well.

[excitableboy]

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