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[hufs calve muscles]

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23 and 26!?!  Absolutely no diss but how does that even happen?  

Did you dudes grow up in remote areas?

You are both good posters on here. Funny and shit. Are you in the states?

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For me it is due to a couple of things. Ive always had really, really bad social anxiety, which I have been working hard to get better (I think its such a part of my personality that there is no "cure", but it can get easier to deal with). Most of my friends consist/used to consist of people similar to me, loners, social outcasts and nerds, so there wasn?t really a lot of partying or women around me growing up.

I used to be bullied a lot by girls in my younger days and never had any female friends growing up, I guess I used to just associate them with getting hurt so I isolated myself. Also, I used to be pretty fat and that along with other things lead to really low self-esteem, couldn?t really consider anyone being into me as a possibility.

Thanks for the tips, we are seeing again tomorrow and having some wine so I hope it will lead to hardcore ass-to-mouth action  .

Man. Hats off to you dude. Takes fucking balls to even type those words, even if it's on a anonymous forum.
I have been taking 50-100mg of Luvox for a long, long time.  It's not that big of a dose but boy does it help.  I do get side effects from them but the pros outweigh the cons.

[hufs calve muscles]

According to every definition I can find I am an alcoholic but I'm still pretty sure that I'm fine.

Be careful dude. It snags the best of us.

How old are you?

[fulltechnicalskizzy]

Haha just kidding about before I'm totally fine!

[L33Tg33k]

Just got denied for SSI. They said my condition is not severe enough. Apparently being on the highest possible dosage of medication and being hospitalized a couple times is nothing. Now I gotta get some damn lawyer leeches to get it for me.

[shark tits]

Just got denied for SSI. They said my condition is not severe enough. Apparently being on the highest possible dosage of medication and being hospitalized a couple times is nothing. Now I gotta get some damn lawyer leeches to get it for me.

that's how the system works. god forbid a mentally ill person gets all that backed up cash. i got turned down by a sheisty lawyer who actually won ssi for my brother. i'm young and healthy and don't have enough of a 'mental health history' but i took a CT scan the other day and hopefully it still shows that i've got deteriorated frontal lobes and can't remember shit. its a hard fight and it definitely seems like people who deserve it get skipped over for faking addicts but maybe that's like blaming stuff on immigrants and welfare moms?
i don't know, my brother went on a facebook rant claiming i molested him amongst other things. he had the cops here the other day trying to get me arrested but he's dumb as shit. they accused him of dealing heroin and told my mother to section 35 his ass. meanwhile, i want her to pay me $200 from his lump sum for defamation of character. he offered some homeless kids a G to kill me, one of em told me, i told my mother and she awarded me $50 of his money for my traffic board. keep it up, shitbird! i'm all about that inhouse tort!

[L33Tg33k]

Damn, I can't even imagine that. When people talk about their family being fucked up it really bothers me. I may not be close to my family members but I love them so damn much I can't imagine being in any sort of financial or legal fights. Sucks balls.

[shark tits]

yeah, it sucks pretty good. i've got more of a heart but we've coddled this kid his whole life. i've spent yrs on the streets cause i was a shit drunk/sometime junk bomb. my brother racked up 3 yrs of school debt before he junked out, stole checks from my mother, got physical w/ her a few times, just everything horrible, worse than what i did but he never gets kicked out for any length of time or sits in county. also, we've got schizophrenia running in my family so he gets a pass even when he's being manipulative whereas i'm just perceived 'lazy'.
i like to think i'm as nuts as the next guy but its not up for me to decide. i've done some bad shit, beat up my dad when i was early 20s, been kind of a terror but i'm just a fat old man who wants to ride his skateboard and be left alone. this sounds horrible but i hope the kid ODs and it'll be sad for a wk, relief for a lifetime.
oh well, i'll forget [if not forgive] if i get some scrill towards a new setup/trip to providence tomorrow and it'll be a good lesson for him to not spread bullshit on the internet.

[ill_Murray]

yeah, it sucks pretty good. i've got more of a heart but we've coddled this kid his whole life. i've spent yrs on the streets cause i was a shit drunk/sometime junk bomb. my brother racked up 3 yrs of school debt before he junked out, stole checks from my mother, got physical w/ her a few times, just everything horrible, worse than what i did but he never gets kicked out for any length of time or sits in county. also, we've got schizophrenia running in my family so he gets a pass even when he's being manipulative whereas i'm just perceived 'lazy'.
i like to think i'm as nuts as the next guy but its not up for me to decide. i've done some bad shit, beat up my dad when i was early 20s, been kind of a terror but i'm just a fat old man who wants to ride his skateboard and be left alone. this sounds horrible but i hope the kid ODs and it'll be sad for a wk, relief for a lifetime.
oh well, i'll forget [if not forgive] if i get some scrill towards a new setup/trip to providence tomorrow and it'll be a good lesson for him to not spread bullshit on the internet.

That's how it goes with younger brothers, my 2 brothers have done some pretty bad shit but as the oldest I still caught the most shit when we were young. 

Providence is always a good time, I hope they get a shark sighting.

[Jim and Dan]

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yeah, it sucks pretty good. i've got more of a heart but we've coddled this kid his whole life. i've spent yrs on the streets cause i was a shit drunk/sometime junk bomb. my brother racked up 3 yrs of school debt before he junked out, stole checks from my mother, got physical w/ her a few times, just everything horrible, worse than what i did but he never gets kicked out for any length of time or sits in county. also, we've got schizophrenia running in my family so he gets a pass even when he's being manipulative whereas i'm just perceived 'lazy'.
i like to think i'm as nuts as the next guy but its not up for me to decide. i've done some bad shit, beat up my dad when i was early 20s, been kind of a terror but i'm just a fat old man who wants to ride his skateboard and be left alone. this sounds horrible but i hope the kid ODs and it'll be sad for a wk, relief for a lifetime.
oh well, i'll forget [if not forgive] if i get some scrill towards a new setup/trip to providence tomorrow and it'll be a good lesson for him to not spread bullshit on the internet.

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That's how it goes with younger brothers, my 2 brothers have done some pretty bad shit but as the oldest I still caught the most shit when we were young. 

Providence is always a good time, I hope they get a shark sighting.

We would love to have Da' Tits in Providence, he is always welcome!

PM me if you're ever in the area, we'll fucking skate/get into some fun . . .

[dillanharp]

Watching Toy Story 3, ending got me all fucked up.

[shark tits]

thanks ill murray/jim and dan. ended up stuck in the worm today, folded my ankle flipping a 5 stair [sposedta be warming up to fs flip it, alas]. i'm gonna consult w/ my buddy downstairs and he'll kibbutz w/ his wife but hopefully providence can happen next sat or sun. i'll keep ya posted and hopefully we can all run amok.

[SodaJerk]

thanks ill murray/jim and dan. ended up stuck in the worm today, folded my ankle flipping a 5 stair [sposedta be warming up to fs flip it, alas]. i'm gonna consult w/ my buddy downstairs and he'll kibbutz w/ his wife but hopefully providence can happen next sat or sun. i'll keep ya posted and hopefully we can all run amok.

You're really good at making friends on here Shark Tits. It's nice to see people from a forum that can take it to the streets in real life.

[JB]

23 and 26!?!  Absolutely no diss but how does that even happen? 

Did you dudes grow up in remote areas?

You are both good posters on here. Funny and shit. Are you in the states?

hadn't been on in a few days otherwise i wouldve answered sooner. honestly i dont really have a good answer for you. im a pretty quiet person and im not very friendly or outgoing. im a nice person, but i dont go out of my way to make friends with people. ive always been shy around girls too. i spent pretty much the first 3 years of high school only hanging out with my friends who skated, so i didnt really chase girls. i didnt go to parties or school events or anywhere were girls were at really. any time i did find a girl i liked, we would start hanging out and getting a little closer, then they would give me the "i just want to be friends" thing. i had pretty low confidence and never really thought girls were into me, so i never really pursued them. i tried, but i just didnt try hard enough i guess.

[Bronson]

So, I did phuck for the first time yesterday. Whooooo! Summer! Whoooo!

[shark tits]

So, I did phuck for the first time yesterday. Whooooo! Summer! Whoooo!

cheers, guy!

[JB]

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So, I did phuck for the first time yesterday. Whooooo! Summer! Whoooo!

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cheers, guy!

[Joust Ostrich]

Good for you Bronson.  Now hopefully the pressure will be off and you can enjoy yourself (and her) more. 

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So, I did phuck for the first time yesterday. Whooooo! Summer! Whoooo!

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cheers, guy!

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Now if only l33t can find a way to get it in.

[L33Tg33k]

Cool Bronson. Don't worry about me guys. I just masturbated for the first time in a few weeks.

[SodaJerk]

Cool Bronson. Don't worry about me guys. I just masturbated for the first time in a few weeks.

Cheers to you to l33t! Stoked for Bronson.

[buttchin]

I am a hardcore introvert. I cannot keep a conversation with others longer than 5 minutes without cracking and going silent.

[Bronson]

Cool Bronson. Don't worry about me guys. I just masturbated for the first time in a few weeks.

I havent masturbated in a couple of weeks...are you taking any drugs that change your sex drive? The thing is, I dont even really want to have sex (I mean I want it, but my body does not), I really thing its the amitriptyline, that stuff numbs you out. Truthfully, I didnt really feel anything when we had sex. Maybe its the death-grip masturbation, I dont know.

Went to see the doctor today, he said that pretty much all drugs for neuropathic pain can cause sexual dysfunction and he wasnt too keen on prescribing me anything for the erection problems...gotta figure something out. Time to start the good ol yearly Bronsons non-masturbation-season.

[Greg Road]

According to every definition I can find I am an alcoholic but I'm still pretty sure that I'm fine.

Haha yes, me too. I just love being drunk. I have a great time when I'm drunk - I just wanna hang out, talk, listen to good music, whatever. I'm never angry, I don't do shit! I just drink way too much all the time.

[JB]

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According to every definition I can find I am an alcoholic but I'm still pretty sure that I'm fine.

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Haha yes, me too. I just love being drunk. I have a great time when I'm drunk - I just wanna hang out, talk, listen to good music, whatever. I'm never angry, I don't do shit! I just drink way too much all the time.

from what ive learned, if you so much as enjoy drinking alcohol you pretty much qualify as an alcoholic.

[tobey]

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23 and 26!?!  Absolutely no diss but how does that even happen? 

Did you dudes grow up in remote areas?

You are both good posters on here. Funny and shit. Are you in the states?

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hadn't been on in a few days otherwise i wouldve answered sooner. honestly i dont really have a good answer for you. im a pretty quiet person and im not very friendly or outgoing. im a nice person, but i dont go out of my way to make friends with people. ive always been shy around girls too. i spent pretty much the first 3 years of high school only hanging out with my friends who skated, so i didnt really chase girls. i didnt go to parties or school events or anywhere were girls were at really. any time i did find a girl i liked, we would start hanging out and getting a little closer, then they would give me the "i just want to be friends" thing. i had pretty low confidence and never really thought girls were into me, so i never really pursued them. i tried, but i just didnt try hard enough i guess.

was this to me also? i grew up in the suburbs i had lots of friends in high school and then when i was 19 my anxiety got really bad and i did not go out when i was 20-21 like cut all social contacts with my friends i would go out to play basketball with them but my anxiety was so bad i never stayed for more than 30 minutes and then i just stopped going out. They would always hit me up like every weekend to see if i wanted to do something and i just always come up with a lame excuse. well now a year later i am better and ask them if they want to do something and i never get a text back or they would say they arent doing something and then drunk call me asking me why i dont go out, they still think i just sit inside all day doing nothing which i guess is my fault but i get so pissed when they go out and they told me in a text they arent going out so i just stopped texting them. now i only have 2 friends that i hang out with and one of them cant drive and the other one lives in the city cause he goes to school there and all they want to do is come over my house and watch a netflix movie which is fine but hopefully one of them said they will go to a bar next wednesday for wing night like he said he will

[hufs calve muscles]

I know a bunch of you have said "anxiety" and the like..  and I kinda get it... And then I don't. You guys are are in your 30's?







 

[Made In China]

I'm seeing this amazing girl that I'm madly in love with and she's moving across the country in a few days.

[Bronson]

I'm seeing this amazing girl that I'm madly in love with and she's moving across the country in a few days.

That sounds painful to deal with, is she moving permanently?

I know a bunch of you have said "anxiety" and the like..  and I kinda get it... And then I don't. You guys are are in your 30's?

I am in my 20's. I think social anxiety or any kind of anxiety can be kind of hard to relate to or comprehend if one has not experienced it themselves. Would you mind elaborating what you feel you don't get about it, are you puzzled about the nature of said anxiety or just about how it can keep someone from tappin dat azz?

[Made In China]

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I'm seeing this amazing girl that I'm madly in love with and she's moving across the country in a few days.

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That sounds painful to deal with, is she moving permanently?

It's for college, but her parents are retiring next year and moving to Washington. It might as well be permanent.

[SodaJerk]

I know a bunch of you have said "anxiety" and the like..  and I kinda get it... And then I don't. You guys are are in your 30's?







 

I'm 36 and I've posted about this before but I have an anxiety condition that I've had since I was a teenager but only got help for a few years ago as I'd either denied having a problem before or self medicated with copious amounts of contraband substances. My issue is a chemical one and not controllable by cognitive behavioural therapy as its not a way of thinking but my brain messing with itself. I never had a full on panic attack but I'd cut myself off from people and pick stupidest arguments with loved ones because I'd be so wound up and not know what to do about it. The panic/anxiety feeling is debilitating and hard to explain if someone hasn't experienced it. I use beta blockers and SSRI's to control it now and feel much better for it. I felt bad before like I was giving in by taking drugs to sort it but it really has been the best thing to help me.