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[perverted super otaku!]

Just gonna say while "staying friends" its easy to fool yourself into thinking she still loves you/getting back together is imminent and getting into this weird deluded state of you feeling closer to her than you really are and all kinds of mess, just because you really wanna believe thats the case, basically your in the habit of being her BF and you can easily go on acting like you still are, creatures of habit and all, but the difference is now she is no longer bound to you sexually and by staying close to her/having gnarly feelings while shes with getting other dudes can bring down a world of hurt, which is intense but ultimately pretty destructive I think, or maybe im just fucked who knows lol all the best man

[AnotherHardDayAtTheOffice]

Just gonna say while "staying friends" its easy to fool yourself into thinking she still loves you/getting back together is imminent and getting into this weird deluded state of you feeling closer to her than you really are and all kinds of mess, just because you really wanna believe thats the case, basically your in the habit of being her BF and you can easily go on acting like you still are, creatures of habit and all, but the difference is now she is no longer bound to you sexually and by staying close to her/having gnarly feelings while shes with getting other dudes can bring down a world of hurt, which is intense but ultimately pretty destructive I think, or maybe im just fucked who knows lol all the best man

No, that actually makes sense. While typing my post I realized it's probably for the better if I stop talking to her for a while (i.e., a couple of weeks). At some point, we can become friends again or whatever (fuck, I hate the thought of it), but you're completely right. If I just keep on talking to her, I'll pretend like we're still a couple. I still have feelings for her and the smart thing to do now is probably to get over it instead of trying to keep on to her.

Thanks dude! I'd gnar you if I could.

[KING TUT]

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only been sober for about 2 months (from drinking and being stoned all the time) and im pretty fucking over real life
being fucked up all the time sucks tho too so im probably just doomed to some kind of unsatisfied fate

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I'm stoned from the time I get up until the time I go to bed.  I hate being sober.

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how much do u smoke? i was going thru a quarter every 2-3 days.
main reason i stopped was cause i hated having to concentrate to remember what i was just thinking about.
the paranoia and cost of smoking that much is pretty shitty. i dont think i have the personality for it to work for me.

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I'd say I smoke about 10 grams a week of bud and about 2-3 grams of wax or oil or some other concentrate.  I hate that I smoke this much but the feeling of sobriety is just so shitty and it keeps my IBS from acting up so fuck it. 

the thing is smoking weed makes everything boring, because it makes everything better. dig what i'm trying to say. when your a stoner and you try to watch your favourite tv show or do something you love when your sober you think 'man this is boring as shit i need to be high for this to be entertaining' you get to the point where the only time you can be satisfied is when you smoke. my homies when i first quit would say shit to me like  'man you must be bored out of your mind, wtf do you if your not smoking' but it was the complete opposite everything now became easier and i was more easily satisfied/entertained. it takes a week or two to get like this, and you will be stressing out in the meantime, but god damn life is sweeter when you aint smoking that shit all day long. it takes the kick out of life

[abudabi]

king tut, you nailed it. its awesome when you get back to that normal state of mind where you have fun doing fun shit, and youre bored doing boring shit. weed definitely does some weird shit to the mind, i get kind of numb to everything if im smoking all the time. now that i say that, im about to go get stoned as fuck because im really fucking bummed out.

another hard day at the office, this is going to sound gnarly, but you should cut all ties with her. dont talk to her. dont look at photos of her. odds are you wont be able to stop thinking about her, but try not to indulge in the intense feelings you have for her. its only gonna make you feel worse.
im going through similar motions at the moment. its real hard man, i feel for you.

[Early Hokus Pokus]

Last night while trying to fall asleep, I realized I don't have any friends anymore. I slowly faded away from all my friendships. The Patrick Bateman in my mind tells me they're peasants and I can do better.

[shark tits]

Last night while trying to fall asleep, I realized I don't have any friends anymore. I slowly faded away from all my friendships. The Patrick Bateman in my mind tells me they're peasants and I can do better.

the jason bateman in me thinks if you were nicer you'd have friends

[AnotherHardDayAtTheOffice]

another hard day at the office, this is going to sound gnarly, but you should cut all ties with her. dont talk to her. dont look at photos of her. odds are you wont be able to stop thinking about her, but try not to indulge in the intense feelings you have for her. its only gonna make you feel worse.
im going through similar motions at the moment. its real hard man, i feel for you.

Yeah, it sounds a bit harsh, but I know what you're trying to get at. I guess looking at photos of her and feeling sad is just part of the process of letting go of her, right? I mean, I can't just ignore that I still got feelings for her.

So what I'm gonna do is this: I will tell her that I'll stop talking to her on Skype. The odd heads-up here and there per e-mail is ok but nothing else. After all, it was her who broke up with me. The whole friends-thing might work when we're back home, but as for now, she made the decision to drop me and she'll have to go all the way. I'm not gonna pretend to myself like we're still a couple. I already hit up a couple of friends from back home and I'll talk to them this weekend about it. I guess lots of talking will do the job as much as going through all the painful emotions that come with breaking up. There's no need to indulge myself in them, but at the same time I can't just plead ignorance. I don't know if that makes sense, but whatevs.

Although it's not even 24 hours after our break-up, I can already feel a certain degree of freedom. I don't have to worry about flying down to Colombia to see her over christmas (and spend a fortune on it) anymore and I'm free to end up for my next job wherever I want to. There's no need to stay in proximity to her anymore. I also haven't ever felt as comfortable in California since I got here. Before that I felt like I sacrificed her for that job here (which was of course bullshit). Now I feel this fresh urge to settle in here and meet new people. As much as it came as a shock, it was also a small relief. I guess that makes it less painful, too.

[shark tits]

jump up under the hoop and grab a rebound. do it before she does so that doesn't drive ya nuts. like peaches said 'fuck the pain away'.

[Early Hokus Pokus]

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Last night while trying to fall asleep, I realized I don't have any friends anymore. I slowly faded away from all my friendships. The Patrick Bateman in my mind tells me they're peasants and I can do better.

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the jason bateman in me thinks if you were nicer you'd have friends

I am nice. Maybe too nice and passive and perhaps that's the problem...

[abudabi]

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another hard day at the office, this is going to sound gnarly, but you should cut all ties with her. dont talk to her. dont look at photos of her. odds are you wont be able to stop thinking about her, but try not to indulge in the intense feelings you have for her. its only gonna make you feel worse.
im going through similar motions at the moment. its real hard man, i feel for you.

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Yeah, it sounds a bit harsh, but I know what you're trying to get at. I guess looking at photos of her and feeling sad is just part of the process of letting go of her, right? I mean, I can't just ignore that I still got feelings for her.

So what I'm gonna do is this: I will tell her that I'll stop talking to her on Skype. The odd heads-up here and there per e-mail is ok but nothing else. After all, it was her who broke up with me. The whole friends-thing might work when we're back home, but as for now, she made the decision to drop me and she'll have to go all the way. I'm not gonna pretend to myself like we're still a couple. I already hit up a couple of friends from back home and I'll talk to them this weekend about it. I guess lots of talking will do the job as much as going through all the painful emotions that come with breaking up. There's no need to indulge myself in them, but at the same time I can't just plead ignorance. I don't know if that makes sense, but whatevs.

Although it's not even 24 hours after our break-up, I can already feel a certain degree of freedom. I don't have to worry about flying down to Colombia to see her over christmas (and spend a fortune on it) anymore and I'm free to end up for my next job wherever I want to. There's no need to stay in proximity to her anymore. I also haven't ever felt as comfortable in California since I got here. Before that I felt like I sacrificed her for that job here (which was of course bullshit). Now I feel this fresh urge to settle in here and meet new people. As much as it came as a shock, it was also a small relief. I guess that makes it less painful, too.

nah i get that man. theres no way to get out of feeling shitty about it.

[JB]

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another hard day at the office, this is going to sound gnarly, but you should cut all ties with her. dont talk to her. dont look at photos of her. odds are you wont be able to stop thinking about her, but try not to indulge in the intense feelings you have for her. its only gonna make you feel worse.
im going through similar motions at the moment. its real hard man, i feel for you.

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Yeah, it sounds a bit harsh, but I know what you're trying to get at. I guess looking at photos of her and feeling sad is just part of the process of letting go of her, right? I mean, I can't just ignore that I still got feelings for her.

So what I'm gonna do is this: I will tell her that I'll stop talking to her on Skype. The odd heads-up here and there per e-mail is ok but nothing else. After all, it was her who broke up with me. The whole friends-thing might work when we're back home, but as for now, she made the decision to drop me and she'll have to go all the way. I'm not gonna pretend to myself like we're still a couple. I already hit up a couple of friends from back home and I'll talk to them this weekend about it. I guess lots of talking will do the job as much as going through all the painful emotions that come with breaking up. There's no need to indulge myself in them, but at the same time I can't just plead ignorance. I don't know if that makes sense, but whatevs.

Although it's not even 24 hours after our break-up, I can already feel a certain degree of freedom. I don't have to worry about flying down to Colombia to see her over christmas (and spend a fortune on it) anymore and I'm free to end up for my next job wherever I want to. There's no need to stay in proximity to her anymore. I also haven't ever felt as comfortable in California since I got here. Before that I felt like I sacrificed her for that job here (which was of course bullshit). Now I feel this fresh urge to settle in here and meet new people. As much as it came as a shock, it was also a small relief. I guess that makes it less painful, too.

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nah i get that man. theres no way to get out of feeling shitty about it.

it sounds like you have the right idea in your mind, the hard part is sticking to it. its over, so let it be over. delete her number. unfriend her from social media. unfriend her friends too so you dont see their drunken night out or whatever. hell, maybe even ditch social media all together if you havent already. anything thats going to keep you from seeing her pop up and making you want to talk to her (and life without facebook/twitter/instagram is pretty awesome). the being friends thing might work out in the future, but youre going to have to be really really comfortable with you and her not being together anymore, which might take a really long time. no need to rush it. just whatever you do, dont be over dramatic about it and dont be a dick. just stop talking to her, dont pull some "well, i cant skype with you anymore and i need to unfriend you because i need to move on blah blah blah..." just walk away and do your own thing and let her do hers. i was kind of an ass when my last girlfriend broke up with me and i regretted it for a while because i know i didnt need to be dramatic about it. and i remember at first i held on desperately to the thought that we would still be friends, but it was just keeping me from getting over her because a friendship was my way of hoping that we would one day patch things up and go back to dating. i havent spoken to her in probably 3 years now and i dont even care about it. if we bumped into each other today, id say hi and might talk to her for a few minutes, but i dont think i need her as a friend. shes a nice person and i dont have ill feelings for her, but shes just a girl i dated. im sure down the line thats what your ex will become, and thats fine. plus im sure you will meet someone new one day and no girl wants to date a guy whos still good friends with his ex. 

[Early Hokus Pokus]

Might be getting a job soon. Stoked, but social anxiety already kicked in and I haven't even started...

[shitsandwich]

Might be getting a job soon. Stoked, but social anxiety already kicked in and I haven't even started...

Fucking story of my life. I was literally just thinking about taking this chick out but then I realized when I order the food my voice might shake out of nervousness. So it looks like I'm not going to take her out...

[L33Tg33k]

Thanks for being here guys. I type a lot of shit and delete it before I post in this thread. It's usually cathartic enough to just type without posting then forgetting about it.

[nice_guy_2]

my real confession:

i miss old youtube comments, is everyone aware you can't thumbs up, thumbs down or reply to old youtube accounts?

its all these google plus dorks expressing their opinion through a legitimate account with their real name

it blows my mind that people share their identity online on websites which don't require it #lol

[Gray Imp Sausage Metal]

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Its hard to find/meet vegan girls, I don't judge but I can't really get close with an omni girl in a lifestyle kinda way, because frankly watching a girl eat a steak/burger whatever is incredibly unattractive to me. Was really nervous this weekend meeting up with this really pretty vegan girl(i knew of through mutual friends), stuttered a cpl times, mispronounced words, cpl *omfg* anxiety moments, asked yesterday if shes into to doing something again and no response as of yet. Not even bummed because hey, I tried, but fuck really pretty vegan girls ain't so easy to come by.

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you tried cruising the produce section of whole foods?

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Or Trader Joe's

my wife is vegan and we met through a mutual friend. get some vegan friends that are women and get them to hook you up.
seriously when said mutual friend first contacted me she was like i have sooo many hot vegan single friends looking for a vego/ vegan boyfriends, who would you like to meet? get your vegan instagram/ FB game on too, good way to meet new like-minded people.

[castillo's curls]

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Its hard to find/meet vegan girls, I don't judge but I can't really get close with an omni girl in a lifestyle kinda way, because frankly watching a girl eat a steak/burger whatever is incredibly unattractive to me. Was really nervous this weekend meeting up with this really pretty vegan girl(i knew of through mutual friends), stuttered a cpl times, mispronounced words, cpl *omfg* anxiety moments, asked yesterday if shes into to doing something again and no response as of yet. Not even bummed because hey, I tried, but fuck really pretty vegan girls ain't so easy to come by.

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you tried cruising the produce section of whole foods?

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Or Trader Joe's

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my wife is vegan and we met through a mutual friend. get some vegan friends that are women and get them to hook you up.
seriously when said mutual friend first contacted me she was like i have sooo many hot vegan single friends looking for a vego/ vegan boyfriends, who would you like to meet? get your vegan instagram/ FB game on too, good way to meet new like-minded people.

or you could always date Vegan Shawn

[perverted super otaku!]

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Its hard to find/meet vegan girls, I don't judge but I can't really get close with an omni girl in a lifestyle kinda way, because frankly watching a girl eat a steak/burger whatever is incredibly unattractive to me. Was really nervous this weekend meeting up with this really pretty vegan girl(i knew of through mutual friends), stuttered a cpl times, mispronounced words, cpl *omfg* anxiety moments, asked yesterday if shes into to doing something again and no response as of yet. Not even bummed because hey, I tried, but fuck really pretty vegan girls ain't so easy to come by.

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you tried cruising the produce section of whole foods?

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Or Trader Joe's

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my wife is vegan and we met through a mutual friend. get some vegan friends that are women and get them to hook you up.
seriously when said mutual friend first contacted me she was like i have sooo many hot vegan single friends looking for a vego/ vegan boyfriends, who would you like to meet? get your vegan instagram/ FB game on too, good way to meet new like-minded people.

Well thats the thing, Ive either slept with(not many) or been rejected by every one I know lol, but am not friendly or even on speaking terms with any at this point, I also have no social media of any kind, I'd rather just go skate, chill alone and not get laid, than get mixed up with that or any other online clusterfuck tbh

[shark tits]

any port in a stormdrain, pal. veganshawn is starting to look like your best option. you can make fun of the fact that people still smoke butts in 2014. nonstop fun that guy. plus he carries a knife so he'll keep you safe if thugs ambush you.

[Jruckus]

I'm a recovering heroin addict who can't seem to stay completely clean off drugs for any real amount of time. Even when im off the dope im still smoking weed all the time, taking pills, or doing whatever. ive ruined relationsips with my family and loved ones, lost jobs, humiliated myself in so many ways and crossed so many lines i always swore id never cross. i went to the skatepark today and got psyched on doin a front nosegrind on the little box; ive been skating for ten years- that trick should be a go-to, not the highlight of the day.

[L33Tg33k]

I hate that I can't talk about sex with my therapist. It's one of the things that gives me a shit ton of grief in my life but I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone about it. Then again, I don't feel comfortable talking about most the things that really get to me with anyone. I'm disgusted by myself that it bothers me so much. I want to think that sex isn't important and I can do without, but my libido isn't going anywhere and it keeps screaming at me. There's so many other things that I should be worried about in regards to bettering my life. Why does my mind always wonder to that? Fuck, I hate life and myself so damn much.

[perverted super otaku!]

^^^ This first part of this is so fuckin stupid, one of the tightest things about sex is that the girl wants to have it with you...

But their right now is some chubby white girl in SD on some dating/social/fetish site that you would actually enjoy getting baked with watching movies with and fucking. Find her G33k

[smokecrack]

I hate that I can't talk about sex with my therapist. It's one of the things that gives me a shit ton of grief in my life but I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone about it. Then again, I don't feel comfortable talking about most the things that really get to me with anyone. I'm disgusted by myself that it bothers me so much. I want to think that sex isn't important and I can do without, but my libido isn't going anywhere and it keeps screaming at me. There's so many other things that I should be worried about in regards to bettering my life. Why does my mind always wonder to that? Fuck, I hate life and myself so damn much.

i seriously wish i knew you. you come off as an awesome guy, but obviously, you're your own worst enemy at this point.

what if you ask if you could see a different therapist for a day? i know it can become difficult to divulge certain things to your therapist once you've gotten to know them. maybe a new face would allow you to spill it all out. be open with them and tell them you may need to speak to someone new for this particular issue.

never lose hope though, G33k. i feel like you'll eventually overcome this phase of your life.

[dillanharp]

I've been really sick since last Wednesday. Diarrhea and vomiting. Last night I shit my pants.

[Prince Nelson]

I've been really sick since last Wednesday. Diarrhea and vomiting. Last night I shit my pants.

Damn. I shit my pants about a year and a half ago. I get real queasy from getting injured, so after cutting open my finger super bad I passed out at my desk at work, bled all over the place, and shit my pants. Not a fun experience. I told my boss that I cut open my finger super bad and before I could tell him about the pants-shitting he just told me to go home. Saved myself some embarrassment.

[L33Tg33k]

I just watched The Secret Life of Walter Mitty. It got me feeling all positive. Gonna go skate my curb outside.

[nice_guy_2]

still missing the old youtube comments

[Dirtymac]

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I've been really sick since last Wednesday. Diarrhea and vomiting. Last night I shit my pants.

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Damn. I shit my pants about a year and a half ago. I get real queasy from getting injured, so after cutting open my finger super bad I passed out at my desk at work, bled all over the place, and shit my pants. Not a fun experience. I told my boss that I cut open my finger super bad and before I could tell him about the pants-shitting he just told me to go home. Saved myself some embarrassment.

Generally when one shits their pants, it does not need announcing...it kind of announces itself...

[Prince Nelson]

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I've been really sick since last Wednesday. Diarrhea and vomiting. Last night I shit my pants.

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Damn. I shit my pants about a year and a half ago. I get real queasy from getting injured, so after cutting open my finger super bad I passed out at my desk at work, bled all over the place, and shit my pants. Not a fun experience. I told my boss that I cut open my finger super bad and before I could tell him about the pants-shitting he just told me to go home. Saved myself some embarrassment.

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Generally when one shits their pants, it does not need announcing...it kind of announces itself...

Well I got everything cleaned up before talking to my boss, so maybe not? I just don't want that to happen again. 

[Bagger Vance]

My board slipped out from under me today and it brought up an old memory.

Back in high school, my older brother and I were taking out the trash and he bet me that he could beat me in a race up our driveway back to our house (about 100 yards) we had a long ass driveway. The catch was that I was on my skateboard and he was running. I thought for sure I would win but my brother ran track and I under estimated how fast he was. As we got closer to the house, it became clear to me that I didn't have a chance, so without really thinking it through I kicked my board at his feet. He stepped right on it running full speed. He flew up in the air, and his body went horizontal, like full cartoon banana peel style, and landed right on his back. To this day it is one of the worst slams Ive ever seen. He got pretty bruised up.

That was almost 10 years ago and I still feel pretty guilty about it. One of the most dick things Ive ever done for sure.