Just have to get this off my chest, sorry for dumb post -
Finally had the skatepark to myself in the morning, so I wanted to try things that I'm self-conscious about. Today, I wanted to try axle stalls. I can carve and do some scratches, but not these. I can't even drop into tranny starting from that position, because I always go to hangup (like a back disaster), and hangups are the scariest thing for me. I've been visualizing this, and watching to see how it's done, but that doesn't help at all.
I tried it, and I just kept on jumping off. Couldn't do it. So I tried a 50-50, so I wouldn't overthink it coming back in, but that didn't work either. I just became too frustrated and started feeling awful about myself; I wanted to start crying (really). I have very low tranny self-esteem. I decided to just say fuck it, avoid the coping altogether, because I prefer just carving without worrying about slowing down with grinds or whatever.
Then I thought about how shitty it would be to teach skating to kids and not be able to teach these?
I'm also "that guy." I can't contribute anything to a sesh, since I don't touch the coping. It also sucks being an Oregonian and not being proficient at the shit that our state is known for.
It's pretty shitty skating for 15+ years and not being able to do these basics.