I accidentally sent a love confession to the girl I like. I was typing in the messager app about what I felt as a catharsis but never meant to send anything. I had done this a few times already and it helped somewhat. Stupid, I know. I never said I loved her or anything crazy like that, but I did say a bunch of stupid shit about how much I respect her and how attractive I found her. When I accidentally hit that send button the instant regret was so overwhelming that I couldn't look at her reply for a day. When I finally took a peak I only read part of the first sentence, just enough to know that I was being rejected, and I couldn't read the rest of the paragraph. Shit, I knew I would be rejected if I took a shot at her but it hit way different when it actually happened. This happened about a year ago now, so I guess I'm as okay about it as I ever will be. I still really like the girl and fantasize about her reconsidering. Healthy as fuck. I try to tell myself that I'm only so attracted to her because she's one of very few women that I know and she's nice to me. It's probably not true though. The reality may be that we just have so much in common and I really appreciate her personality. Oh well, lunch break is over. Time to go back to work. Talk all the shit you want.