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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10050 on: March 27, 2021, 01:40:29 PM »
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i j.o. to the same chick almost every time .. like non porn watching mind material
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Just a woman you know irl, is it?
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yep

...nice.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10051 on: March 27, 2021, 09:31:14 PM »
Ok, so maybe this doesn’t count as a real confession, but...
I pretty much always do some kind of cut-up job on my grip. No biggie, I know. Lots of people like to take a razor to their grip.
But here’s where the confess comes in.
I spend an inordinate amount of time making it look like I didn’t give a shit about how my grip tape turned out, but that action is actually very carefully considered & there’s honestly no way for me to keep pretending that I’m not just trying to remake some facsimile of what Neil Blender, Lance Mountain, or Jeff Phillips did nearly 40 years ago & still keep my head held high.
I’m glad I could get that off of my chesticles in a private/public forum.
I am a farce. At least as far as grip goes.
Ashamed but still alive.
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Judge not & Shalom.

I wanna play you in a game of SKATE for the right to continue talking shit on me.  You think you got me?

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10052 on: March 27, 2021, 10:16:31 PM »
so metaphorically cumming on your own grip . you sick fuck
What kind of mikey taylor logic is this?

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10053 on: March 28, 2021, 09:59:35 AM »
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i j.o. to the same chick almost every time .. like non porn watching mind material
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Just a woman you know irl, is it?
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yep
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...nice.

Don’t do that man, wanks are for fantasy let me help you I love pornos
You are walking the wrong path, mate
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10054 on: March 28, 2021, 11:10:34 AM »
Back in my days of jerking off (two weeks ago) I was doing the same.


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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10055 on: March 28, 2021, 04:40:44 PM »
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i j.o. to the same chick almost every time .. like non porn watching mind material
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Just a woman you know irl, is it?
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yep
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...nice.
that’s fine, I’ve gone through stages of doing the same, I think I even ended up telling said person which was a real life “real confessions”

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10056 on: March 28, 2021, 09:23:06 PM »
Holy shit that’s hectic as, how’d that convo go down?
Do you still speak to them or nah

Are you guys geeing me up or what haha
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10057 on: March 29, 2021, 02:12:03 PM »
I don't know what that means Matty, but yes, I think we are geeing you up.

Nothing wrong at all with jacking off to the idea of someone you know in real life. What is wrong is that I still catch myself thinking about people I had sex with when I was like 20 and thinking "Heh, I'd love to go back and have sex with them with what I know now! I would have blown her mind..."

If anything, it's impressive to be able to do it without porn or visual stimulation. It's not impossible for me but it is a challenge.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10058 on: March 29, 2021, 04:41:00 PM »
Holy shit that’s hectic as, how’d that convo go down?
Do you still speak to them or nah

Are you guys geeing me up or what haha
nah mate, I picked my timing well and she was kinda down for the fact, it actually lead to a few things down the road. I'm still able to speak to her, but I'm a married man these days so not really a path I want to pursue ...

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10059 on: March 30, 2021, 05:04:37 AM »
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Holy shit that’s hectic as, how’d that convo go down?
Do you still speak to them or nah

Are you guys geeing me up or what haha
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nah mate, I picked my timing well and she was kinda down for the fact, it actually lead to a few things down the road. I'm still able to speak to her, but I'm a married man these days so not really a path I want to pursue ...

I’ve admitted it before, but not until after we’d hooked up and I was pretty drunk and probably trying to get laid again.

Never had it turn out bad, but with the exception of my now wife, I’ve don’t talk to anyone I’ve told it too.

Also, getting to beat cheeks on the regular to someone you’ve mixed a batch too is pretty sweet.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10060 on: March 30, 2021, 06:46:12 AM »
Ahh can we get some stories where this hasn't worked out? It's egging me on to tell my buddy. To cut the story short I already slept with her a few times years ago and we're still good friends but i've always wanted to go there again. I got the vibe she was keen again too but even though we're somewhat non monogamous we were both with partners for a long time and playing it safe I guess. Being cheeky is fun but fuck i'd rather not make things awkward ha.

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« Reply #10061 on: March 30, 2021, 10:48:40 AM »
Well I definitely wouldn't go straight for, "I think about you when I pull myself". It'd be better to say something like, "I still think about when we got together before, that was a lot of fun."

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10062 on: March 31, 2021, 02:38:22 AM »
Yeah nah nah I mean I’m not gonna lie about it but I don’t think I ever told them but that would be going back to school times, idk I just smash like the same pornos and occasionally new ones
Sometimes on drugs I would go down a rabbit hole of those thumbnail gifs, I tried to analyse that shit before and I don’t even know was it just like the idea of a good wank I was getting off on who the fuck knows
Just drugs man lmao

Fuck man I’ve had like four screens going before just crook as Joey Diaz type shit

Yeah for sure you’d have to be there case by case basis type shit for sure but yeah you wouldn’t wanna stuff it up ahaha people might talk

I guess I am just trying to say I’m not in the position to judge a fellow pervert

I don’t wank like that anymore ay it was a bad period that’s all
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10063 on: March 31, 2021, 05:08:31 AM »
Well I definitely wouldn't go straight for, "I think about you when I pull myself". It'd be better to say something like, "I still think about when we got together before, that was a lot of fun."

100% you can’t be too blunt about it, or blurt it out. It can get hella creepy real quick, so proceed with caution and don’t drop that shit outta the blue. I’d highly advise against y’all having a conversation about some random shit like the homeless problem, and be like I saw a homeless dude cranking down on the bus and it reminded me to tell you that I’ve definitely beat my shit to you.

It’s way easier to drop that shit when y’all are talking nasty over text or making out or some shit.

Just my two cents.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10064 on: April 01, 2021, 04:35:14 AM »
Sometimes I'll be watching porn and just start thinking about my ex I'm still in love with, then that's more of a turn on than the porn and I'll just finish to her memory. I feel like I might have told her at some point but i can't remember when. Definitely told her I'm still attracted to her.

So recently she asked to catch up to talk about "feelings" and say basically she isn't over me either and wants to try again. I told her i need to think about it. It's messed up, in my head i thought I still wanted to get back with her, until it was a realistic option. We were on and off for about eight years, and have been apart for two years. Suddenly I realised that I might have actually finally moved on. I'm going back to study in July and i just don't trust that the same issues won't come back up, that she gets in her head, can't communicate, and just runs out on me. I can't risk it. As much as I care about her, i have to do what's best for me. She's left me broken and fucked up a few times now.
I had been avoiding having this chat because it's hard, saying no to something I've wanted for so long. Anyway a few days ago she came over and wants to talk again but I'm not ready. Things start to happen and I don't want to sleep with her then tell her it's not going to work, so I lay it all out for her, total honesty. She says she understands, and still wants to stay to have sex. The sex is great. She leaves afterwards and the next morning my head is all fucked up and confused again.

This was just meant to be a "yeah i still beat it to the memory of an ex too" post but turned into a real confession. Good to get it out tho

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10065 on: April 01, 2021, 05:41:14 AM »
Sometimes I'll be watching porn and just start thinking about my ex I'm still in love with, then that's more of a turn on than the porn and I'll just finish to her memory. I feel like I might have told her at some point but i can't remember when. Definitely told her I'm still attracted to her.

So recently she asked to catch up to talk about "feelings" and say basically she isn't over me either and wants to try again. I told her i need to think about it. It's messed up, in my head i thought I still wanted to get back with her, until it was a realistic option. We were on and off for about eight years, and have been apart for two years. Suddenly I realised that I might have actually finally moved on. I'm going back to study in July and i just don't trust that the same issues won't come back up, that she gets in her head, can't communicate, and just runs out on me. I can't risk it. As much as I care about her, i have to do what's best for me. She's left me broken and fucked up a few times now.
I had been avoiding having this chat because it's hard, saying no to something I've wanted for so long. Anyway a few days ago she came over and wants to talk again but I'm not ready. Things start to happen and I don't want to sleep with her then tell her it's not going to work, so I lay it all out for her, total honesty. She says she understands, and still wants to stay to have sex. The sex is great. She leaves afterwards and the next morning my head is all fucked up and confused again.

This was just meant to be a "yeah i still beat it to the memory of an ex too" post but turned into a real confession. Good to get it out tho

Good luck, bro...

But yeah... the whole banging-the-ex is for sure a thing.

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« Reply #10066 on: April 01, 2021, 06:25:16 AM »
Hey Tracers i've been in the same situation before. I regret dragging it out as long as I did but as the months went by I eventually became really proud of my decision to let go. You already know it won't really be worth your time. Hang in there..

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10067 on: April 03, 2021, 07:41:05 PM »
I legit spent a dece chunk of my 20’s bumming around alternating between dole and Austudy and selling drugs and had a great time, always got wasted and stuff, always had cash to do whatevs
When I started apprenticeship cunts that I’d been friends and skated with for years started talking shit and calling me a greedy cunt and saying I was all about money. Like I’m even rich cunt

but I think it really was because I just started saying man you wanna sit at mine or go skating and you wanna drink half my carton and bum half my smokes or whatever well that will cost you this and if you’ve not got coin to chuck in then you can have a glass of water and dumpers from the ashtray.

At the time I was getting fucking destroyed as an apprentice, I mean it was deadset hard work and it made me think nah cunt I work hard for this coin it’s fucking mine mate

It was a different concept to me versus when it just lands in your hand from doing suss shit

I have this other group of friends guys I’ve known since primary and early high school, they all stopped skating in high school. Good blokes mostly tradies too but just like, solid people that I enjoy being around. But still proper loose units that love the sesh
Just able to back it up at work

I have a couple of mates that still skate and work different circle of friends and we meet up it’s good times but yeah just the amount of bitching went on from certain people when I started ‘doing well’ and I wanna say I was a fucking apprentice still at this stage. Doing well is subjective I only had a bit of coin cause I was doing cashies after work etc, literally working my arse of

Just the straight vitriol I copped from some cunts, found out about second hand kinda shocked me I mean nobody said shit to my face so maybe that’s on me, if someone can’t say something to your face why care right. I harbour some rage about this and it’s mostly cause I couldn’t even get no satisfaction, it’s like man you wanna talk shit come meet up...crickets

but just speaking generally here, there’s cunts that will just hate on absolutely anything. And you just can’t listen to them or even entertain their suggestions. Much less associate with them
They gonna fuck you up fam

People like that just want you to be a loser like them so they feel better about their situation

It’s rough but for everyone on here never be afraid or feel bad cutting out people that have no value. You can’t save em all and life’s fucking hard man can’t be wasting time on stupid shit you gotta do you

You’re only as smart as your dumbest mate
And also,

May the bridges you burn light your way

Dude that’s off 90210 luke perry said that shit, classic

Hell yeah matty, randomly got taken to this page and saw your post and it’s good stuff

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10068 on: April 07, 2021, 08:12:53 PM »
Been sober (mostly) for a year and a half now. I still think about getting drunk all the time. I've never been the kind of drunk that was super angry or exploded or anything, I was always an imploder, destroying myself and my life from the inside out. I used to walk dogs and one time one of the leashes broke and the dog ran into traffic and died. I hate to admit it, but it really fucked me up for a while. Things started getting worse after that and I started doing coke even though I really hate coke and it isn't fun for me. It was just getting offered to me all the time and I was down to do whatever to escape. Things started getting out of hand, and after a bad breakup I got fed up and just quit everything. Even smoking. Fuck I miss cigarettes lol.

Anyway, been feeling lately like maybe I want to do some mushrooms again this summer sometime. Does anyone have any experience with doing psychedelics while you're sober and not relapsing? Or is that just a risk I have to be willing to take?

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« Reply #10069 on: April 07, 2021, 08:25:33 PM »
Been sober (mostly) for a year and a half now. I still think about getting drunk all the time. I've never been the kind of drunk that was super angry or exploded or anything, I was always an imploder, destroying myself and my life from the inside out. I used to walk dogs and one time one of the leashes broke and the dog ran into traffic and died. I hate to admit it, but it really fucked me up for a while. Things started getting worse after that and I started doing coke even though I really hate coke and it isn't fun for me. It was just getting offered to me all the time and I was down to do whatever to escape. Things started getting out of hand, and after a bad breakup I got fed up and just quit everything. Even smoking. Fuck I miss cigarettes lol.

Anyway, been feeling lately like maybe I want to do some mushrooms again this summer sometime. Does anyone have any experience with doing psychedelics while you're sober and not relapsing? Or is that just a risk I have to be willing to take?

Been sober for five years, few pieces of advice.

If you quit everything at once, you will set yourself up for disappointment.

First things first - don’t minimize your trauma, anything and everything could be a catalyst for a behavior. That sucks you had to deal with losing a pup in front of you.

Also.... Smoke a cigarette and cut yourself some fucking slack.

With mushrooms specifically, start small. Just half a gram and ease your way into it and go up from there.

Smaller doses of psychedelics, microdosing to recreational levels actually help to fight addiction and reduce urges regardless of your habit.

For as long as I’ve been sober I’ve had dreams and fears and urges about drinking/relapsing. But, that shit is fleeting. Take stock in what you’ve gained since you quit and became sober.

One last thing, and some of the most sage advice I’ve ever been given: ROME DIDN’T FALL IN A DAY... THAT SHIT WAS FUCKING CONQUERED.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10070 on: April 08, 2021, 07:06:02 AM »
Been sober for five years, few pieces of advice.

If you quit everything at once, you will set yourself up for disappointment.

First things first - don’t minimize your trauma, anything and everything could be a catalyst for a behavior. That sucks you had to deal with losing a pup in front of you.

Also.... Smoke a cigarette and cut yourself some fucking slack.

With mushrooms specifically, start small. Just half a gram and ease your way into it and go up from there.

Smaller doses of psychedelics, microdosing to recreational levels actually help to fight addiction and reduce urges regardless of your habit.

For as long as I’ve been sober I’ve had dreams and fears and urges about drinking/relapsing. But, that shit is fleeting. Take stock in what you’ve gained since you quit and became sober.

One last thing, and some of the most sage advice I’ve ever been given: ROME DIDN’T FALL IN A DAY... THAT SHIT WAS FUCKING CONQUERED.

Thanks man. Good advice.

I guess my problem is that I link mushrooms to partying because I always used to be drinking when I did them. So I guess I'm worried that I'll start doing mushrooms again and it'll gateway me into drinking. But I've heard good things about microdosing so I might give it a try when it gets nicer out and I can just get lost in the forest all day

Anyone have experience with ADHD & shrooms? Pros and cons? Haven't been diagnosed yet but all signs have pointed to yes since I was a kid.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10071 on: April 08, 2021, 07:22:41 AM »
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Been sober for five years, few pieces of advice.

If you quit everything at once, you will set yourself up for disappointment.

First things first - don’t minimize your trauma, anything and everything could be a catalyst for a behavior. That sucks you had to deal with losing a pup in front of you.

Also.... Smoke a cigarette and cut yourself some fucking slack.

With mushrooms specifically, start small. Just half a gram and ease your way into it and go up from there.

Smaller doses of psychedelics, microdosing to recreational levels actually help to fight addiction and reduce urges regardless of your habit.

For as long as I’ve been sober I’ve had dreams and fears and urges about drinking/relapsing. But, that shit is fleeting. Take stock in what you’ve gained since you quit and became sober.

One last thing, and some of the most sage advice I’ve ever been given: ROME DIDN’T FALL IN A DAY... THAT SHIT WAS FUCKING CONQUERED.
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Thanks man. Good advice.

I guess my problem is that I link mushrooms to partying because I always used to be drinking when I did them. So I guess I'm worried that I'll start doing mushrooms again and it'll gateway me into drinking. But I've heard good things about microdosing so I might give it a try when it gets nicer out and I can just get lost in the forest all day

Anyone have experience with ADHD & shrooms? Pros and cons? Haven't been diagnosed yet but all signs have pointed to yes since I was a kid.

Happy to help dude. I understand the fear, but you gotta remember you’re doing it for different reasons now. You’re doing it for self improvement and not to go to another dimension.

Also I have pretty severe ADHD, and take meds for em daily. I have heard realllllly promising things about microdosing for it, but I can’t vouch from experience. But in all honesty it’s worth trying for a month or so and monitor how it affects your day to day life.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10072 on: April 08, 2021, 07:58:33 PM »
Been sober (mostly) for a year and a half now. I still think about getting drunk all the time. I've never been the kind of drunk that was super angry or exploded or anything, I was always an imploder, destroying myself and my life from the inside out. I used to walk dogs and one time one of the leashes broke and the dog ran into traffic and died. I hate to admit it, but it really fucked me up for a while. Things started getting worse after that and I started doing coke even though I really hate coke and it isn't fun for me. It was just getting offered to me all the time and I was down to do whatever to escape. Things started getting out of hand, and after a bad breakup I got fed up and just quit everything. Even smoking. Fuck I miss cigarettes lol.

Anyway, been feeling lately like maybe I want to do some mushrooms again this summer sometime. Does anyone have any experience with doing psychedelics while you're sober and not relapsing? Or is that just a risk I have to be willing to take?

heyo. been sober off alcohol going on 6 years. I stopped drinking because I figured it would help quell a rising storm of poly substance misuse. It didn't for the first couple years anyways,  but in the long run it's probably the reason I'm alive, not using narcotics, have stayed out of trouble, and am healthy. I will forever credit an early on DMT experience with helping me stay off the sauce at a critical juncture.

Now, I use the herb and psychedelics. While I have partied with psychedelics I see them as a tool, or rather a place from which to reset the mind, patterns, and behaviors. For me, a big old trip will trounce any desire to take drugs, perhaps because it leads to a sense of fulfillment that drugs don't. Maybe because it helps remind me why I don't take drugs, that life is my beautiful experience to unfold within.

I used to ALWAYS drink beer while eating shrooms. I mean I drank beer whenever, but beer and boomers went hand in hand. post booze tripping required a paradigm shift in that I needed to prepare differently and let those I was going to be with know what I needed. It's helpful to be with those who respect you and understand what you're trying to do. If they don't or can't, they're not worth kicking it with.

About that paradigm shift- what are you trying to do with the boomers? Are you trying to reset? reach a spiritual plane? Get out of the rat race for a few hours and bug out? I think it's important to set an intention about what you're looking for and trying to do. Such intentionality may help you stay sober.

you don't have to gobble down a whole 8th either, man. I mean you can and will be fine, but half an 8th is cool to start with and a redose can be nice a few hours in if needed. That took me years to learn!!!

you ask about microdosing and I can speak a bit as I began that journey a few months back. First, I will say that I am enjoying and benefiting from it. My focus is increased, especially on microdose days- There will be periods on those days with a level of resounding clarity, a meditative state of awareness while also engaged in multiple tasks. Jokingly but no so jokingly it's like drinking some nectar of the gods coffee at times. It's pretty sweet. Not high, not trippy, just more fun and interesting. On off days, I feel fine, perhaps in a better mood but can't quantify it in any way. I have a fairly heightened sense of smell but since I began microdosing, it's amplified. Artificial or "poison" smells and tastes are awful. Perfume, cigarettes, too much sugar, etc are a no go.

Also, if you're going to microdose, try to do it properly. Weight your mushrooms, grind them up and capsule them. It's nice to have a consistent dose as it leaves out room for doubting efficacy.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10073 on: April 09, 2021, 11:37:51 AM »
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« Reply #10074 on: April 09, 2021, 04:37:53 PM »
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Been sober (mostly) for a year and a half now. I still think about getting drunk all the time. I've never been the kind of drunk that was super angry or exploded or anything, I was always an imploder, destroying myself and my life from the inside out. I used to walk dogs and one time one of the leashes broke and the dog ran into traffic and died. I hate to admit it, but it really fucked me up for a while. Things started getting worse after that and I started doing coke even though I really hate coke and it isn't fun for me. It was just getting offered to me all the time and I was down to do whatever to escape. Things started getting out of hand, and after a bad breakup I got fed up and just quit everything. Even smoking. Fuck I miss cigarettes lol.

Anyway, been feeling lately like maybe I want to do some mushrooms again this summer sometime. Does anyone have any experience with doing psychedelics while you're sober and not relapsing? Or is that just a risk I have to be willing to take?
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heyo. been sober off alcohol going on 6 years. I stopped drinking because I figured it would help quell a rising storm of poly substance misuse. It didn't for the first couple years anyways,  but in the long run it's probably the reason I'm alive, not using narcotics, have stayed out of trouble, and am healthy. I will forever credit an early on DMT experience with helping me stay off the sauce at a critical juncture.

Now, I use the herb and psychedelics. While I have partied with psychedelics I see them as a tool, or rather a place from which to reset the mind, patterns, and behaviors. For me, a big old trip will trounce any desire to take drugs, perhaps because it leads to a sense of fulfillment that drugs don't. Maybe because it helps remind me why I don't take drugs, that life is my beautiful experience to unfold within.

I used to ALWAYS drink beer while eating shrooms. I mean I drank beer whenever, but beer and boomers went hand in hand. post booze tripping required a paradigm shift in that I needed to prepare differently and let those I was going to be with know what I needed. It's helpful to be with those who respect you and understand what you're trying to do. If they don't or can't, they're not worth kicking it with.

About that paradigm shift- what are you trying to do with the boomers? Are you trying to reset? reach a spiritual plane? Get out of the rat race for a few hours and bug out? I think it's important to set an intention about what you're looking for and trying to do. Such intentionality may help you stay sober.

you don't have to gobble down a whole 8th either, man. I mean you can and will be fine, but half an 8th is cool to start with and a redose can be nice a few hours in if needed. That took me years to learn!!!

you ask about microdosing and I can speak a bit as I began that journey a few months back. First, I will say that I am enjoying and benefiting from it. My focus is increased, especially on microdose days- There will be periods on those days with a level of resounding clarity, a meditative state of awareness while also engaged in multiple tasks. Jokingly but no so jokingly it's like drinking some nectar of the gods coffee at times. It's pretty sweet. Not high, not trippy, just more fun and interesting. On off days, I feel fine, perhaps in a better mood but can't quantify it in any way. I have a fairly heightened sense of smell but since I began microdosing, it's amplified. Artificial or "poison" smells and tastes are awful. Perfume, cigarettes, too much sugar, etc are a no go.

Also, if you're going to microdose, try to do it properly. Weight your mushrooms, grind them up and capsule them. It's nice to have a consistent dose as it leaves out room for doubting efficacy.

Attention setting is a good note. So is the measuring out the shrooms part. Thanks for the advice dude.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10075 on: April 13, 2021, 06:25:11 AM »
I don't think I'm in love with my partner anymore, I don't want to call it quits but it seems like she's growing apart from me and I wouldn't mind the time apart to reconvene and collect myself.

I admit and am jealous of you single dude's out there. Marriage or in a thick as thieves relationship can be a drag.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10076 on: April 14, 2021, 10:53:00 PM »
I don't think I'm in love with my partner anymore, I don't want to call it quits but it seems like she's growing apart from me and I wouldn't mind the time apart to reconvene and collect myself.

I admit and am jealous of you single dude's out there. Marriage or in a thick as thieves relationship can be a drag.

Man don’t just go and do this because I am still dealing with my shit five years later and still unsure if I made the right decision but yeah I focused an otherwise good relationship cause her family owed me over 20k
One way to look at it is that’s all she was worth
Other way to see it is that it just tuned me bitter and fucked my head up. You gotta do you brother

Anyway I went back to peppers last night to see mates and no fucking shit my Columbian queen was at Woolworths I mean the one I burped on ages ago from my same floor I used to live in and it was just like I had nothing to lose so I didn’t bitch it and go quiet and we had mad chats outside and in lift

No fucking shit she looks like Adria rae but with accent and she loves my dog it’s about time I had a win cunt
We’re gonna hang out soon I need this
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10077 on: April 15, 2021, 07:06:03 AM »
I was drunk talking skating and kept calling Dylan Rieder Dylan Gravis and couldn’t remember his real name for the life of me

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10078 on: April 15, 2021, 11:31:47 AM »
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I don't think I'm in love with my partner anymore, I don't want to call it quits but it seems like she's growing apart from me and I wouldn't mind the time apart to reconvene and collect myself.

I admit and am jealous of you single dude's out there. Marriage or in a thick as thieves relationship can be a drag.
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Man don’t just go and do this because I am still dealing with my shit five years later and still unsure if I made the right decision but yeah I focused an otherwise good relationship cause her family owed me over 20k
One way to look at it is that’s all she was worth
Other way to see it is that it just tuned me bitter and fucked my head up. You gotta do you brother

Anyway I went back to peppers last night to see mates and no fucking shit my Columbian queen was at Woolworths I mean the one I burped on ages ago from my same floor I used to live in and it was just like I had nothing to lose so I didn’t bitch it and go quiet and we had mad chats outside and in lift

No fucking shit she looks like Adria rae but with accent and she loves my dog it’s about time I had a win cunt
We’re gonna hang out soon I need this

Soooo did you get her deets or what?

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10079 on: April 17, 2021, 06:25:40 PM »
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I don't think I'm in love with my partner anymore, I don't want to call it quits but it seems like she's growing apart from me and I wouldn't mind the time apart to reconvene and collect myself.

I admit and am jealous of you single dude's out there. Marriage or in a thick as thieves relationship can be a drag.
[close]

Man don’t just go and do this because I am still dealing with my shit five years later and still unsure if I made the right decision but yeah I focused an otherwise good relationship cause her family owed me over 20k
One way to look at it is that’s all she was worth
Other way to see it is that it just tuned me bitter and fucked my head up. You gotta do you brother

Anyway I went back to peppers last night to see mates and no fucking shit my Columbian queen was at Woolworths I mean the one I burped on ages ago from my same floor I used to live in and it was just like I had nothing to lose so I didn’t bitch it and go quiet and we had mad chats outside and in lift

No fucking shit she looks like Adria rae but with accent and she loves my dog it’s about time I had a win cunt
We’re gonna hang out soon I need this

fuckin get it matty, hold the burps maaaate


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