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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10200 on: October 17, 2021, 07:23:08 AM »
I made it to a 3rd round interview. Im nervous AF, bc i'm pretty awkward, but I made it this far, and want to suceed for once.
Congrats, for what it’s worth because we’re our own selves we are focused on things we’re not happy with that we don’t focus on how talented or good at stuff we are.

Congrats @DaSk8D00D that’s a big step and I’m glad to hear that you were able to make some sort of space for yourself and realize your worth!
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10201 on: October 18, 2021, 07:15:03 AM »
I can’t rock a mustache without looking like a pedophile.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10202 on: October 18, 2021, 05:38:50 PM »
I can’t rock a mustache without looking like a pedophile.
I think that’s 50% of mustache dudes, not just you

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« Reply #10203 on: October 18, 2021, 07:32:10 PM »
I did a play and my character was supposed to have a mustache. I grew one and I thought it looked kinda good and got compliments from a few women. My wife was pretty adamant that I shave it off. It's gone now and I miss it.

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« Reply #10204 on: October 19, 2021, 07:37:05 AM »
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I can’t rock a mustache without looking like a pedophile.
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I think that’s 50% of mustache dudes, not just you

I probably looked less like a pedophile and more like a European pervert when i had just my mustache


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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10205 on: October 19, 2021, 01:12:09 PM »
I rock the 'stache at all times.
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« Reply #10206 on: October 19, 2021, 01:20:17 PM »
I rock the 'stache at all times.

And it looks great brother 👍🏼


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« Reply #10207 on: October 19, 2021, 02:51:36 PM »
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I can’t rock a mustache without looking like a pedophile.
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I think that’s 50% of mustache dudes, not just you
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I probably looked less like a pedophile and more like a European pervert when i had just my mustache
I had the beard grown in kinda thick a few years ago at Halloween and wanted to test a mustache as “part of a costume” so I didn’t get too much shit if it looked bad.
My wife and her bff couldn’t stop laughing whenever they looked at me and called me Lt. Dangle and pornstar all night. Beard came back asap.

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« Reply #10208 on: October 22, 2021, 08:32:30 AM »
I just tried v-flips for the first time since the mid 90s and on the 3rd try I caught one that felt better than any other trick I still have. I don't know how to feel right now.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10209 on: October 22, 2021, 08:38:24 AM »
I just tried v-flips for the first time since the mid 90s and on the 3rd try I caught one that felt better than any other trick I still have. I don't know how to feel right now.

It's a trick that feels good but looks bad. Nothing wrong with that.

They're like the sweatpants of skateboarding tricks.

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« Reply #10210 on: October 22, 2021, 02:29:55 PM »
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I just tried v-flips for the first time since the mid 90s and on the 3rd try I caught one that felt better than any other trick I still have. I don't know how to feel right now.
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It's a trick that feels good but looks bad. Nothing wrong with that.

They're like the sweatpants of skateboarding tricks.
Ha great comparison! I feel like I might add them to my depleting repertoire.

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« Reply #10211 on: October 22, 2021, 02:41:31 PM »
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I just tried v-flips for the first time since the mid 90s and on the 3rd try I caught one that felt better than any other trick I still have. I don't know how to feel right now.
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It's a trick that feels good but looks bad. Nothing wrong with that.

They're like the sweatpants of skateboarding tricks.
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Ha great comparison! I feel like I might add them to my depleting repertoire.

Real confession: I think varial flips are sick.

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« Reply #10212 on: October 23, 2021, 05:18:02 AM »
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I just tried v-flips for the first time since the mid 90s and on the 3rd try I caught one that felt better than any other trick I still have. I don't know how to feel right now.
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It's a trick that feels good but looks bad. Nothing wrong with that.

They're like the sweatpants of skateboarding tricks.
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Ha great comparison! I feel like I might add them to my depleting repertoire.
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Real confession: I think varial flips are sick.
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I have absolutely no idea how to 3flip, but I got vflips like a motherfucker. get that front foot exactly midway, almost too far back, between front and back trucks, heel angled toward tail, and ninja flick that shit. idk how the hell it works but they pop pretty big for me like that :o
I'm definitely going to keep them around because idk how much longer I will have my 360 flips. At 44 they are a lot more effort than they used to be. They don't feel the same and I miss a lot of them. It's kinda depressing, like admitting I'm getting old haha. Maybe Vflips will fill that void.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10213 on: October 23, 2021, 02:26:27 PM »
Real confession: I think varial flips are sick.


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« Reply #10214 on: October 24, 2021, 04:31:03 AM »
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I just tried v-flips for the first time since the mid 90s and on the 3rd try I caught one that felt better than any other trick I still have. I don't know how to feel right now.
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It's a trick that feels good but looks bad. Nothing wrong with that.

They're like the sweatpants of skateboarding tricks.
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Ha great comparison! I feel like I might add them to my depleting repertoire.
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Real confession: I think varial flips are sick.
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I have absolutely no idea how to 3flip, but I got vflips like a motherfucker. get that front foot exactly midway, almost too far back, between front and back trucks, heel angled toward tail, and ninja flick that shit. idk how the hell it works but they pop pretty big for me like that :o
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I'm definitely going to keep them around because idk how much longer I will have my 360 flips. At 44 they are a lot more effort than they used to be. They don't feel the same and I miss a lot of them. It's kinda depressing, like admitting I'm getting old haha. Maybe Vflips will fill that void.
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yaaaa, you skate 7.75s or something like that  ;) i'v seen your 3flips on tape and they look pretty good, especially stationary in a room. I really started skating again thinking I wanted to learn 360 flips, but when I started to size down from 8.5 for learning, I really decided I'd rather stick with weird ass vflips. on the bright side, dolphin flips are a similar flick to vflips :o
Thanks man, Oddly enough I can't do them on my 7.5-7.75 I can do them on big setups, but I lose almost everything else. Speaking of indoor stationary skating it's almost that time here again, I moved my ramps/boxes into the shed yesterday  :( Insanity here we come

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10215 on: October 24, 2021, 03:22:51 PM »
I have a younger trans sibling who I've grown a little distant from over the past few years, now that they live over 100 miles away. She recently got a FB account for the first time and she just posted that she is being hospitalized for the 4th time for suicidal thoughts.

A middle finger to anyone out there that trivializes the experiences of trans people and other marginalized peoples.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10216 on: October 28, 2021, 10:56:53 AM »
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I just tried v-flips for the first time since the mid 90s and on the 3rd try I caught one that felt better than any other trick I still have. I don't know how to feel right now.
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It's a trick that feels good but looks bad. Nothing wrong with that.

They're like the sweatpants of skateboarding tricks.
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Ha great comparison! I feel like I might add them to my depleting repertoire.
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Real confession: I think varial flips are sick.
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I have absolutely no idea how to 3flip, but I got vflips like a motherfucker. get that front foot exactly midway, almost too far back, between front and back trucks, heel angled toward tail, and ninja flick that shit. idk how the hell it works but they pop pretty big for me like that :o
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I'm definitely going to keep them around because idk how much longer I will have my 360 flips. At 44 they are a lot more effort than they used to be. They don't feel the same and I miss a lot of them. It's kinda depressing, like admitting I'm getting old haha. Maybe Vflips will fill that void.
I'll be 49 next week.  Kickflips are getting rarer and rarer for me.  so much so, that I've started logging them in my phone.  I did one a couple of weeks ago at my Sunday morning curb sesh.  The last one before that was exactly 9 months prior.  I figure I never know when I've done my last one, so might as well take notes.

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« Reply #10217 on: October 28, 2021, 03:14:08 PM »
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I just tried v-flips for the first time since the mid 90s and on the 3rd try I caught one that felt better than any other trick I still have. I don't know how to feel right now.
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It's a trick that feels good but looks bad. Nothing wrong with that.

They're like the sweatpants of skateboarding tricks.
[close]
Ha great comparison! I feel like I might add them to my depleting repertoire.
[close]

Real confession: I think varial flips are sick.
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I have absolutely no idea how to 3flip, but I got vflips like a motherfucker. get that front foot exactly midway, almost too far back, between front and back trucks, heel angled toward tail, and ninja flick that shit. idk how the hell it works but they pop pretty big for me like that :o
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I'm definitely going to keep them around because idk how much longer I will have my 360 flips. At 44 they are a lot more effort than they used to be. They don't feel the same and I miss a lot of them. It's kinda depressing, like admitting I'm getting old haha. Maybe Vflips will fill that void.
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I'll be 49 next week.  Kickflips are getting rarer and rarer for me.  so much so, that I've started logging them in my phone.  I did one a couple of weeks ago at my Sunday morning curb sesh.  The last one before that was exactly 9 months prior.  I figure I never know when I've done my last one, so might as well take notes.
That's awesome that you refuse to let go of them! I was back home a few months ago and I was talking to the shop owner of my old local (15-25 years ago) I told him I was downsizing my setups to keep my fliptricks around. He laughed and said "I'm impressed you still do them. Guys our age usually give them up by now." I don't know how accurate that is, but it sure put a smile on my face on the ride home.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10218 on: October 28, 2021, 09:38:23 PM »
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I just tried v-flips for the first time since the mid 90s and on the 3rd try I caught one that felt better than any other trick I still have. I don't know how to feel right now.
[close]

It's a trick that feels good but looks bad. Nothing wrong with that.

They're like the sweatpants of skateboarding tricks.
[close]
Ha great comparison! I feel like I might add them to my depleting repertoire.
[close]

Real confession: I think varial flips are sick.
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I have absolutely no idea how to 3flip, but I got vflips like a motherfucker. get that front foot exactly midway, almost too far back, between front and back trucks, heel angled toward tail, and ninja flick that shit. idk how the hell it works but they pop pretty big for me like that :o
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I'm definitely going to keep them around because idk how much longer I will have my 360 flips. At 44 they are a lot more effort than they used to be. They don't feel the same and I miss a lot of them. It's kinda depressing, like admitting I'm getting old haha. Maybe Vflips will fill that void.
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I'll be 49 next week.  Kickflips are getting rarer and rarer for me.  so much so, that I've started logging them in my phone.  I did one a couple of weeks ago at my Sunday morning curb sesh.  The last one before that was exactly 9 months prior.  I figure I never know when I've done my last one, so might as well take notes.
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That's awesome that you refuse to let go of them! I was back home a few months ago and I was talking to the shop owner of my old local (15-25 years ago) I told him I was downsizing my setups to keep my fliptricks around. He laughed and said "I'm impressed you still do them. Guys our age usually give them up by now." I don't know how accurate that is, but it sure put a smile on my face on the ride home.

I saw that cabin tre, you still got the skills


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« Reply #10219 on: October 29, 2021, 11:00:56 AM »
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I just tried v-flips for the first time since the mid 90s and on the 3rd try I caught one that felt better than any other trick I still have. I don't know how to feel right now.
[close]

It's a trick that feels good but looks bad. Nothing wrong with that.

They're like the sweatpants of skateboarding tricks.
[close]
Ha great comparison! I feel like I might add them to my depleting repertoire.
[close]

Real confession: I think varial flips are sick.
[close]

I have absolutely no idea how to 3flip, but I got vflips like a motherfucker. get that front foot exactly midway, almost too far back, between front and back trucks, heel angled toward tail, and ninja flick that shit. idk how the hell it works but they pop pretty big for me like that :o
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I'm definitely going to keep them around because idk how much longer I will have my 360 flips. At 44 they are a lot more effort than they used to be. They don't feel the same and I miss a lot of them. It's kinda depressing, like admitting I'm getting old haha. Maybe Vflips will fill that void.
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I'll be 49 next week.  Kickflips are getting rarer and rarer for me.  so much so, that I've started logging them in my phone.  I did one a couple of weeks ago at my Sunday morning curb sesh.  The last one before that was exactly 9 months prior.  I figure I never know when I've done my last one, so might as well take notes.
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That's awesome that you refuse to let go of them! I was back home a few months ago and I was talking to the shop owner of my old local (15-25 years ago) I told him I was downsizing my setups to keep my fliptricks around. He laughed and said "I'm impressed you still do them. Guys our age usually give them up by now." I don't know how accurate that is, but it sure put a smile on my face on the ride home.
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I saw that cabin tre, you still got the skills
Thank you man, I wish I had your skills! You have that natural ability and smoothness I envy.

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« Reply #10220 on: October 29, 2021, 01:57:07 PM »
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I just tried v-flips for the first time since the mid 90s and on the 3rd try I caught one that felt better than any other trick I still have. I don't know how to feel right now.
[close]

It's a trick that feels good but looks bad. Nothing wrong with that.

They're like the sweatpants of skateboarding tricks.
[close]
Ha great comparison! I feel like I might add them to my depleting repertoire.
[close]

Real confession: I think varial flips are sick.
[close]

I have absolutely no idea how to 3flip, but I got vflips like a motherfucker. get that front foot exactly midway, almost too far back, between front and back trucks, heel angled toward tail, and ninja flick that shit. idk how the hell it works but they pop pretty big for me like that :o
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I'm definitely going to keep them around because idk how much longer I will have my 360 flips. At 44 they are a lot more effort than they used to be. They don't feel the same and I miss a lot of them. It's kinda depressing, like admitting I'm getting old haha. Maybe Vflips will fill that void.
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I'll be 49 next week.  Kickflips are getting rarer and rarer for me.  so much so, that I've started logging them in my phone.  I did one a couple of weeks ago at my Sunday morning curb sesh.  The last one before that was exactly 9 months prior.  I figure I never know when I've done my last one, so might as well take notes.
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That's awesome that you refuse to let go of them! I was back home a few months ago and I was talking to the shop owner of my old local (15-25 years ago) I told him I was downsizing my setups to keep my fliptricks around. He laughed and said "I'm impressed you still do them. Guys our age usually give them up by now." I don't know how accurate that is, but it sure put a smile on my face on the ride home.
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I saw that cabin tre, you still got the skills
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Thank you man, I wish I had your skills! You have that natural ability and smoothness I envy.

Hey thanks man i appreciate it


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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10221 on: November 02, 2021, 06:42:14 AM »
Great to hear from you @DaSk8D00D  thanks for posting. Wishing you continued success.

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« Reply #10222 on: November 02, 2021, 07:05:44 AM »
I have a younger trans sibling who I've grown a little distant from over the past few years, now that they live over 100 miles away. She recently got a FB account for the first time and she just posted that she is being hospitalized for the 4th time for suicidal thoughts.

A middle finger to anyone out there that trivializes the experiences of trans people and other marginalized peoples.

That is absolutely gut wrenching. I’m sincerely hoping that they pull through. I know it may sound trite, but if there is anything we can do to help the situation please don’t be stranger.

Also echoing that statement, a giant fuck you to anyone that that minimizes the experiences of all marginalized groups.

Wishing you and your sibling nothing but the best.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10223 on: November 04, 2021, 04:30:27 AM »
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I have a younger trans sibling who I've grown a little distant from over the past few years, now that they live over 100 miles away. She recently got a FB account for the first time and she just posted that she is being hospitalized for the 4th time for suicidal thoughts.

A middle finger to anyone out there that trivializes the experiences of trans people and other marginalized peoples.
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That is absolutely gut wrenching. I’m sincerely hoping that they pull through. I know it may sound trite, but if there is anything we can do to help the situation please don’t be stranger.

Also echoing that statement, a giant fuck you to anyone that that minimizes the experiences of all marginalized groups.

Wishing you and your sibling nothing but the best.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10224 on: December 08, 2021, 07:43:06 PM »
I kinda want to try to learn Brazilian jiu jitsu but I just don’t like the idea of rubbing bods with some dude for 45 min. 

Oh and having to look at everyone’s gross bare feet too.
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« Reply #10225 on: December 09, 2021, 01:24:51 PM »
I kinda want to try to learn Brazilian jiu jitsu but I just don’t like the idea of rubbing bods with some dude for 45 min. 

Oh and having to look at everyone’s gross bare feet too.

Now imagine transferring that feeling to your enemies


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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10226 on: December 11, 2021, 07:38:35 PM »
Although my sexual appetite has waned considerably, I still would like to experience a relationship and it bothers me very much that I probably never will. I really wish I didn't care, but something in my brain yearns for it. It makes me feel basic and that makes me hate myself little more. Okay, a lot more. Why should I care about such base desires? Why can't I be an automaton void of emotion?

Truth be told, I'm actually doing a lot better emotionally than I have been historically. I don't dread going to work like I used to. I'm about to pay off my car. I even got a new apartment. I just can't shake this monkey off my shoulders. Oh well, back to telling myself that I don't care and it doesn't matter.
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« Reply #10227 on: December 12, 2021, 10:20:46 PM »
Although my sexual appetite has waned considerably, I still would like to experience a relationship and it bothers me very much that I probably never will. I really wish I didn't care, but something in my brain yearns for it. It makes me feel basic and that makes me hate myself little more. Okay, a lot more. Why should I care about such base desires? Why can't I be an automaton void of emotion?

Truth be told, I'm actually doing a lot better emotionally than I have been historically. I don't dread going to work like I used to. I'm about to pay off my car. I even got a new apartment. I just can't shake this monkey off my shoulders. Oh well, back to telling myself that I don't care and it doesn't matter.
I'm glad to hear that you are at least feeling better emotionally than you have in the past. You may think this is redundant to say but I know that you will find someone that gives you that meaning in life that you are looking for. That fact that you're still here and still looking says a lot about you. You've got something special inside of you that keeps you going despite all of the other stuff that makes you want to give up. Keep on keeping on, man. I can't wait for the day when I log on and see that you found that person.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10228 on: December 16, 2021, 08:59:08 PM »
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Although my sexual appetite has waned considerably, I still would like to experience a relationship and it bothers me very much that I probably never will. I really wish I didn't care, but something in my brain yearns for it. It makes me feel basic and that makes me hate myself little more. Okay, a lot more. Why should I care about such base desires? Why can't I be an automaton void of emotion?

Truth be told, I'm actually doing a lot better emotionally than I have been historically. I don't dread going to work like I used to. I'm about to pay off my car. I even got a new apartment. I just can't shake this monkey off my shoulders. Oh well, back to telling myself that I don't care and it doesn't matter.
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I'm glad to hear that you are at least feeling better emotionally than you have in the past. You may think this is redundant to say but I know that you will find someone that gives you that meaning in life that you are looking for. That fact that you're still here and still looking says a lot about you. You've got something special inside of you that keeps you going despite all of the other stuff that makes you want to give up. Keep on keeping on, man. I can't wait for the day when I log on and see that you found that person.

Gonna second all this, just go places where there are other people you could talk to or who might share your interests and if you feel like trying to connect with someone, go with it and do what comes natural.  If you keep that up and don't force what doesn't work, you will at minimum get more comfortable with relating to people and I'd be a little surprised if something more didn't happen as well.
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So, she sticks around and keeps making eyes at me, then comes back over to where I'm sitting and starts talking to me again.   I felt more or less within my rights doing it under the circumstances, so I offered my number, which she accepted and immediately called (so now I have her number).  All the signals would be pretty clear if it weren't for the whole lesbian thing being the stick in the spokes.  Practically nothing is riding on this, I'm just incredibly perplexed and there's nothing sensible to do but post about it.   

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10229 on: December 18, 2021, 01:31:37 AM »
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Although my sexual appetite has waned considerably, I still would like to experience a relationship and it bothers me very much that I probably never will. I really wish I didn't care, but something in my brain yearns for it. It makes me feel basic and that makes me hate myself little more. Okay, a lot more. Why should I care about such base desires? Why can't I be an automaton void of emotion?

Truth be told, I'm actually doing a lot better emotionally than I have been historically. I don't dread going to work like I used to. I'm about to pay off my car. I even got a new apartment. I just can't shake this monkey off my shoulders. Oh well, back to telling myself that I don't care and it doesn't matter.
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I'm glad to hear that you are at least feeling better emotionally than you have in the past. You may think this is redundant to say but I know that you will find someone that gives you that meaning in life that you are looking for. That fact that you're still here and still looking says a lot about you. You've got something special inside of you that keeps you going despite all of the other stuff that makes you want to give up. Keep on keeping on, man. I can't wait for the day when I log on and see that you found that person.

Fucking this!

Be kind to yourself l33t. Obviously you are a smart
fella and you have heard all this before, but you have something to offer that will blow someone’s mind soon enough