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Re: real confessions
« Reply #9870 on: November 20, 2020, 01:10:01 PM »
I have a few friends that I'm the person they call, or talk to when they need to vent. One of whom I had to talk out of suicide earlier this year. That was one of the hardest phone calls I've ever dealt with. I always try to ask people how they're doing because I know that can be a small but, important gesture. I just wish someone would ask how I'm doing every once and a while.

if it wasn't covid i'd offer a hug and a chill afternoon at the duck pond with ice cream and sodas.

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« Reply #9871 on: November 20, 2020, 06:52:05 PM »
I always liked your profile picture, Friendly Dave
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« Reply #9872 on: November 21, 2020, 07:45:20 AM »
So Friendly Dave isn't just a name. Respect. <3
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« Reply #9873 on: November 25, 2020, 03:09:45 AM »
I saw the girl on my floor again, the one I burped on a few weeks ago
She was with her friends coming back from gym and her friends were like we know your dog’s name but who are you and I kinda thought they were trying to wingman the girl on my floor but got all flustered and I told them my name but I didn’t ask the girl for hers then I got the fuck out of there
She’s so pretty
I think they’re all Colombians or something

How do you talk to proper hot people sober Grind King Rims please help me for fucks sake
You seem to go alright mate
Or anyone please halp
I love her hahaha

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #9874 on: November 25, 2020, 09:36:31 AM »
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I have a few friends that I'm the person they call, or talk to when they need to vent. One of whom I had to talk out of suicide earlier this year. That was one of the hardest phone calls I've ever dealt with. I always try to ask people how they're doing because I know that can be a small but, important gesture. I just wish someone would ask how I'm doing every once and a while.
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if it wasn't covid i'd offer a hug and a chill afternoon at the duck pond with ice cream and sodas.

Damn that sounds like a good time, would be nice to chill by a park with a book and a coffee. Fuck COVID.

Real Confessions is a weird place but if you never feel down about yourself just shoot your load on here. I've dealt with suicide in the past when I was 13 and the thoughts linger every once in a while. My best friend since primary school (grade school) recently told me he's been having suicide ideation, even had his estate planned out too in the event he passes. Rounded up our regular group of friends and made a point to stay connected with him so he keeps that human connection. I do 1-on-1 dinners and hang outs with him, get him talking about his marriage (cordial but not in love) and his suicidal thoughts. Thankfully he's doing better on the suicidal thoughts but the marriage still needs work.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #9875 on: November 25, 2020, 12:17:31 PM »
I saw the girl on my floor again, the one I burped on a few weeks ago
She was with her friends coming back from gym and her friends were like we know your dog’s name but who are you and I kinda thought they were trying to wingman the girl on my floor but got all flustered and I told them my name but I didn’t ask the girl for hers then I got the fuck out of there
She’s so pretty
I think they’re all Colombians or something

How do you talk to proper hot people sober Grind King Rims please help me for fucks sake
You seem to go alright mate
Or anyone please halp
I love her hahaha

Edited cause I didn’t say please before

Fuck mate, I don't know, hahaha.

I guess the real issue is that you're panicking and finding it hard to chill. It's easier to relax with Dutch courage, but it's still you. Just breathe and take your time. I hate talking myself in circles, I get panicked and people get bored, so I try and breathe and take a second to respond more thoughtfully. I like to be brief and clear. I'm pretty comfortable with being brief. Once you have lots of eye contact and smiling, I really find that a lot of the time saying less is more. You just gotta be calm and confident, breathe, listen and maintain eye contact. Act like they're not hot, but don't be a dick, just be in control and they'll think, "He's so confident, he's not weird. I totally want him to burp on me again before I suck his dick."

I haven't really given you advice... It's hard to put into words, because I'm not cool or calm or collected, I just kind of will myself into being that way when I want to impress someone, I don't know. I just think, "fuck it, whatever"

If I were you, maybe the next time I saw them I'd say, "Hey, the last time we ran into each other I told you my name but I didn't catch yours? Hey it's nice to meet you." Chit chat for as long as they seem comfortable, you've got a dog so that should be easy, people love dogs. But before she goes, if it feels right, say "Maybe you'd like to come with me and [dog's name] for a walk sometime?"

And then you're on a one way ticket to tongue punching the life gnar button my friend.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #9876 on: November 25, 2020, 12:19:10 PM »
I don't know if it came across, but the whole time I was writing that, and this, I was writing it with an Australian accent in my head. Let us know how it goes.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #9877 on: November 25, 2020, 02:14:45 PM »
I saw the girl on my floor again, the one I burped on a few weeks ago
She was with her friends coming back from gym and her friends were like we know your dog’s name but who are you and I kinda thought they were trying to wingman the girl on my floor but got all flustered and I told them my name but I didn’t ask the girl for hers then I got the fuck out of there
She’s so pretty
I think they’re all Colombians or something

How do you talk to proper hot people sober Grind King Rims please help me for fucks sake
You seem to go alright mate
Or anyone please halp
I love her hahaha

Edited cause I didn’t say please before



i feel you dude, its hard talking to girls when you're sober. sure its easy on the internet but face to face is nearly impossible for me. now that i think about it pretty much every time ive ever had sex drugs and alcohol played a huge roll

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #9878 on: November 25, 2020, 10:58:10 PM »
I saw the girl on my floor again, the one I burped on a few weeks ago
She was with her friends coming back from gym and her friends were like we know your dog’s name but who are you and I kinda thought they were trying to wingman the girl on my floor but got all flustered and I told them my name but I didn’t ask the girl for hers then I got the fuck out of there
She’s so pretty
I think they’re all Colombians or something

How do you talk to proper hot people sober Grind King Rims please help me for fucks sake
You seem to go alright mate
Or anyone please halp
I love her hahaha

Edited cause I didn’t say please before

matty you legend, i feel you bro, when i first met girls id always need some liquid courage to feel comfortable, without it id be all weird and anxious.
Its hard when chicks catch you off guard like that but yeah breathe and try not to get in your head, stay real casual and also remember that if you do something embarrassing, it aint the end of the world, some chicks find it endearing or you say fuck it and try again next time with another girl


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Re: real confessions
« Reply #9879 on: November 29, 2020, 04:28:31 AM »
I have a few friends that I'm the person they call, or talk to when they need to vent. One of whom I had to talk out of suicide earlier this year. That was one of the hardest phone calls I've ever dealt with. I always try to ask people how they're doing because I know that can be a small but, important gesture. I just wish someone would ask how I'm doing every once and a while.

I feel that man. I was that same friend for a long ass time.

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« Reply #9880 on: November 30, 2020, 08:35:29 PM »
I have a few friends that I'm the person they call, or talk to when they need to vent. One of whom I had to talk out of suicide earlier this year. That was one of the hardest phone calls I've ever dealt with. I always try to ask people how they're doing because I know that can be a small but, important gesture. I just wish someone would ask how I'm doing every once and a while.

damn bro, it's hard being the constant helper. that's been my role for most of this life and over the past 7 months I've been learning to not be that person all the time. How Are you today?

Just so you're not alone I'll throw an abridged confession out there

Starting last thanksgiving ('19) until April ('20), I had a cousin OD, an old homie OD and die on the side of the road, another kid I used to kick it with OD and die, my grandfather had a stroke, got Covid and croaked, another cousin got Covid when it first went down and was hospitalized for 3 weeks in Michigan. In early December '19, my oldest homie, who i considered a brother, got robbed by a crew of dudes with ARs and was hogtied in the woods for a couple days before he could escape to get ahold of me so that I could rescue his ass, only to tell me a month later to fuck off (essentially breaking off the longest, closest non-blood relationship in my life). Then in late January, while traveling from one international airport to another and back, I got some sort of sickness that I'm almost certain was Covid and left me out of commission for a few weeks. I also developed an ear infection that lasted 3 months and left permanent tinnitus, all while starting grad school full time for social work after literally living a hermits life in the woods for the 5 years prior. While this is all going down, 2 women with whom I had once been very close through separate relationships and hadn't talked with in many years hit me up to tell me they were suicidal and "wanted to let me know what was going on." One girl says "I'm in the mental hospital and have plans to kill myself when I get out. I just want to let you know I love you and you're a good guy. Figured I'd tell you what was going on back home. Hope you're well." I don't have this number on lock, I have no idea who it is and have to figure it out, which with some sleuthing wasn't too hard. But I'm just at the end of my rope dealing with my own shit, you know? Dealing with clinical anxiety and depression for the first time in my (at the time) 34 years, and I've got someone else dumping on me. This went on for a week when she sent me pictures of superficial cuts and a shaved head, I cracked and had the 5-0 do a wellness check. There was nothing I could do, 3500 miles away, no relationship. I was done with it. In the midst of all of this, I'm trying to get my graduate work done and slip up. I explain everything to the profs, they're all cool except one who says "you need to deal with the consequences of your actions and take your education seriously." He subsequently tells me I can't pass the class and wouldn't except my last assignment because "it would be cutting corners and I'm not willing to do that for you." So, I get through my first year of MSW program with a 3.97GPA except for this one class I was able to withdraw from due to a Covid ruling by the Dean. But you see, it's a cohort based program and classes are offered but once per year, so I'm unable to take classes until next year, excluding the one class I will retake in the spring. All in all, I'm thankful to not be in school this year. I'm getting stronger and healing in all ways. most definitely relishing doing whatever.the.fuck.i.want.to.do. and learning to take care of myself, a big piece of which is not being so open for other folks and setting boundaries. it feels pretty unnatural at first, even callous, but man, I feel better. lighter.

take care of yourself hombre. <3
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #9881 on: December 01, 2020, 12:04:37 PM »
Right on, man. Just keep going. <3
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #9882 on: December 01, 2020, 04:11:21 PM »
every time rappers say crisco i hear chris cole
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« Reply #9883 on: December 02, 2020, 09:34:49 PM »
every time rappers say crisco i hear chris cole

me too.  i refuse to believe roddy rich said crisco


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« Reply #9884 on: December 05, 2020, 09:27:31 PM »
i just relapsed on xanax after months of sobriety

a lot of people would be super disappointed if they found out


I mean he is kinda doing dog drugs so I fuck with it

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« Reply #9885 on: December 05, 2020, 11:19:37 PM »
i just relapsed on xanax after months of sobriety

a lot of people would be super disappointed if they found out

 
Don't stress brother, it's a process. Day by day. Many times the self conviction more gnar than the relapse. Speed bumps happen. Just start a new count. Every day is a new day. Didn't you feel good being on the sober train for a bit? Good luck, hope you hop back on the train

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« Reply #9886 on: December 06, 2020, 08:29:20 PM »
i just relapsed on xanax after months of sobriety

a lot of people would be super disappointed if they found out

yo my G, get back on the wagon if you want. the worst is disappointing yourself and that's how it goes. 

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« Reply #9887 on: December 08, 2020, 08:37:48 AM »
i just relapsed on xanax after months of sobriety

a lot of people would be super disappointed if they found out

Remember my dude, Rome didn’t fall in a day. That shit was conquered.

You got this bruv. Shit happens, and you’re going to come out of this better than you believe.
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« Reply #9888 on: December 08, 2020, 10:42:49 PM »
im so thankful for you guys, thanks for beleiving in me

restarted the clock we at two days clean :')


I mean he is kinda doing dog drugs so I fuck with it

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« Reply #9889 on: December 09, 2020, 02:07:20 AM »
im so thankful for you guys, thanks for beleiving in me

restarted the clock we at two days clean :')

Learn what caused your relapse, you probably had dumb ideas before you even took the pills.

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« Reply #9890 on: December 09, 2020, 01:11:28 PM »
i just relapsed on xanax after months of sobriety

a lot of people would be super disappointed if they found out

Real talk, I'm in a similar situation right now.

I've been on & off with benzos for literally a decade+, but I started taking xans heavy again right before this Thanksgiving. So like everyday for the last two weeks. Currently weaning myself off them. I don't think it's been a long enough period that I'd have seizures from withdrawal, but I'm just playing it safe.

I fully understand what you're going through, glad you're doing well now!
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« Reply #9891 on: December 10, 2020, 09:16:36 PM »
Is anyone else actively scared of when their parents are going to die? That's been weighing heavily on me since my brother had a kid and my mom became a grandmother. Covid doesn't help either. I got a lot of issues and I don't know if I can deal with parental mortality as well.

I absolutely adore my niece though. That's a great thing I've got experience.
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« Reply #9892 on: December 11, 2020, 12:45:40 AM »
Is anyone else actively scared of when their parents are going to die? That's been weighing heavily on me since my brother had a kid and my mom became a grandmother. Covid doesn't help either. I got a lot of issues and I don't know if I can deal with parental mortality as well.

I absolutely adore my niece though. That's a great thing I've got experience.

It's so hard on me, I have to block it out. Usually I can take a fuckton of mental beatings, but this one is too heavy.

Also, I'll be all alone.

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« Reply #9893 on: December 11, 2020, 02:16:04 AM »
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Is anyone else actively scared of when their parents are going to die? That's been weighing heavily on me since my brother had a kid and my mom became a grandmother. Covid doesn't help either. I got a lot of issues and I don't know if I can deal with parental mortality as well.

I absolutely adore my niece though. That's a great thing I've got experience.
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It's so hard on me, I have to block it out. Usually I can take a fuckton of mental beatings, but this one is too heavy.

Also, I'll be all alone.

For sure. My mother just turned 70. She never really looked after her body and has random falls once every few months it seems. She's functioning absolutely fine mentally though, no signs of dementia and she speaks a lot more energetically than I do. But damn, the end of her life is something on my my mind every day.

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« Reply #9894 on: December 11, 2020, 02:18:15 AM »
Is anyone else actively scared of when their parents are going to die? That's been weighing heavily on me since my brother had a kid and my mom became a grandmother. Covid doesn't help either. I got a lot of issues and I don't know if I can deal with parental mortality as well.

I absolutely adore my niece though. That's a great thing I've got experience.

I am afraid of my mother passing, I love her more than anyone, but I'm also very afraid of her getting too old to work and me not being able to support her. I just don't know what I would do.
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« Reply #9895 on: December 11, 2020, 03:20:18 AM »
i'm terrified of my parents dying. they are very old. my mom is also on the do not recuscitate program, so when her heart stops again, that's it. the fact that my nearly 80 year old dad is driving his car all around the place still while being almost deaf and severly vision impaired is also freaking me out a lot.

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« Reply #9896 on: December 14, 2020, 08:53:36 AM »
My mother died this year after a semi-long sickness so we knew it was coming but it obviously still stung. It was weird though because I live in Europe and my family in USA and she died early on in the quarantine/lockdown period and I wasn't able to see her. I did spend last christmas with my family though, so I feel OK about it. It's still a weird feeling. I don't think it will fully sink in until I'm in the USA and can have more of a literal walk down memory lane (seeing her stuff, visiting her favorite places, etc.).

Since she died of an illness she was relatively young. My dad still has probably a decent amount of years left especially since both of his parents are alive at age 95 or so. I don't know what I'll do. We have a combative relationship. He has enough money for his retirement and he knows I have no money, but if he gets sick and needs to go to the hospital or doctor visits all the time I may need to move back to the USA.

Death is weird. We all know it will happen but nobody knows how to act about it.


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« Reply #9897 on: December 14, 2020, 06:00:54 PM »
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But they did a good job with Camry, cannot lie.
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I’ve moved from Sports cars to Camrys. I used to like Corvettes and Mustangs but as I’ve mellowed out Camrys grab my attention. They’re comfortable and that mileage is great.
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For sure, if I had to trust a car with my family's safety and overall reliability, Toyota wins...

But I'm bored ex-junkie and want something dumb.

Found something dumb that I would love to test drive if it was in the US:

https://www.caranddriver.com/reviews/a34860082/2021-toyota-yaris-gr-drive/

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« Reply #9898 on: December 14, 2020, 07:46:17 PM »
Thanks, bro! So.. ok..  they start at 40 000 dollars, here, in Gay Sweden.. but they seem to really get everything out of that little 1,6 liter turbo charged engine.

Yo, GS77! You guys got Hyundai i30 n? About 10k less than the Yota.   

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« Reply #9899 on: December 15, 2020, 06:39:05 AM »
Yeah, it’s this car: https://www.caranddriver.com/hyundai/veloster-n

The wheel base is 4 inches greater than the Yaris and the Yaris is four wheel drive.

I just remember you were thinking ‘dumb’ and when I saw this as I was fake car shopping last night I thought—this looks like stupid dangerous fun.

Maybe just say fuck storage buy a used Boxster and really do yourself in...